ContraPoints / William Nicholas Parrott / Natalie Wynn Parrott / Nykytyne2 - GamerGhazi Cannibalism Victim, Youtube "Intellectual"

[shuppet]

As I've said before: Men in dresses might actually be the biggest threat to the progressive coalition at the moment. Seeing men in dresses and having to pretend that they're actually real women does something to people that BLM, feminism, queerness etc. were never able to do. Wouldn't even be surprised if even Nyk himself will experience some form of peaktrans. I mean there must be a limit to how much you can get scolded by "women" who look like this:
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Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if he's already peaked but just knew he was in too deep to do anything about it and had to go full doublethink. I mean in his "Transtrenders" vid where he tries to make nice with the nonbinary community, the conclusion he reaches is that nonbinary is just as valid as classic trans... but not because he can find any scientific proof for nonbinaryness being a meaningful, innate property that a person can have. Instead he concludes that they're equally valid because he couldn't find convincing proof for classic trans being real or innate either, so at the end of the day they're both just people claiming to feel a certain way. I don't see how you can get to that point and not realize on some level that the whole thing is a sham.

 

[Troonwhisperer]

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The whole egg metaphor is so cute, but do they know that not everything that comes out from an egg is great?

Nobody likes rotten eggs, but I'm definitely not saying that troons are rotten eggs, this would be too mean.

Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if he's already peaked but just knew he was in too deep to do anything about it and had to go full doublethink. I mean in his "Transtrenders" vid where he tries to make nice with the nonbinary community, the conclusion he reaches is that nonbinary is just as valid as classic trans... but not because he can find any scientific proof for nonbinaryness being a meaningful, innate property that a person can have. Instead he concludes that they're equally valid because he couldn't find convincing proof for classic trans being real or innate either, so at the end of the day they're both just people claiming to feel a certain way. I don't see how you can get to that point and not realize on some level that the whole thing is a sham.

Yeah, that's what I was thinking as well. The non-binary affair was one of Nyk's most rough "cancellation" and I do think that it was then that he realized that people aren't exaggerating when they are saying "most trannies are bat shit crazy".

 

[V4L_Penis]

As I've said before: Men in dresses might actually be the biggest threat to the progressive coalition at the moment. Seeing men in dresses and having to pretend that they're actually real women does something to people that BLM, feminism, queerness etc. were never able to do. Wouldn't even be surprised if even Nyk himself will experience some form of peaktrans. I mean there must be a limit to how much you can get scolded by "women" who look like this:
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I was very sceptical about wokeness already around 2015/2016 when I saw it for the first time, but it was Nyk's videos at the end that made me see wokeness as something completely retarded and extremely harmful for society. I also reject the entire centrist hypothesis of "Well, they aren't wrong about everything. For example, troons are actually more likely to be killed by evil radical lesbian terves who are terrorizing the streets at night and black people are still oppressed!". Nope, sorry honey. I don't buy it anymore. The only worthwhile thing to do with woke people (especially TRAs) is either putting them into a prison or casting them as the butt of a joke in a sitcom. Just stop the whole Ben Shapiro trope of "Well, actually they've got a point there!".



My gut feeling says no. Nyk is a YouTube millionaire but I still think he hasn't enough money to buy a mansion with a huge garden or maybe even private park (probably?) surrounding it. Maybe I'm wrong, since I'm not living in the USA. But here you won't find a house with a big park without at least paying 3 million dollars. The style also doesn't really suit him, even though we don't see that much on the picture. The landscape reminds me of my rich aunt's mansion and she's living in a very rural area. Maybe I'm wrong and Nyk's mansion is in a rural area, but I highly doubt it. Troons are generally very aversive towards anything that isn't in a big city, since many rural people don't give in on their delusions.



I doubt that 3 girls are living in Nyk's mansion. We're talking about a drug addict and I don't think that Nyk has enough energy left to groom three young women at the moment.

That was my experience. I used to be a standard leftie until the troons started taking over and although I "supported" them I secretly felt a sort of uncanny valley effect when I would look at these grown men cosplaying as women and other people acting like they looked good instead of ghoulish and ridiculous. I still didn't say anything though.

What finally redpilled me was when the trannies started using TERF as an insult and got the gendercritical subreddit shut down.

 

[scathefire]

https://archive.vn/DA3DM

Spoiler: Bonus deleted tweet

 

[LizCurly89]

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Lmfao nyk u better revel in this. It will be the closest u will ever be to motherhood short of u getting a uterus transplant so you can get an abortion...

 

[maguyver16]

Do you think there could be any debate streams with Contra, and Vaush, against Sargon or someone like ShortFatOtaku anytime soon? I've seen a few videos of liberalists talking a little bit of shit, and I have a feeling that it could lead to something interesting.

Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if he's already peaked but just knew he was in too deep to do anything about it and had to go full doublethink. I mean in his "Transtrenders" vid where he tries to make nice with the nonbinary community, the conclusion he reaches is that nonbinary is just as valid as classic trans... but not because he can find any scientific proof for nonbinaryness being a meaningful, innate property that a person can have. Instead he concludes that they're equally valid because he couldn't find convincing proof for classic trans being real or innate either, so at the end of the day they're both just people claiming to feel a certain way. I don't see how you can get to that point and not realize on some level that the whole thing is a sham.

At a certain point, why even care? Why do these people constantly feel the need to put themselves into specific little groups, like they're Pokemon or something? It's so autistic and obnoxious, and then their minds are blown when riffs and ire are drawn between each other. Who cares if you wear women's clothing? Who cares if you're attracted to someone in a certain way. Stop constantly feeling the need for validation from other people and realize you're an individual. It's just spook after spook

 

[Scarmaiden]

Do you think there could be any debate streams with Contra, and Vaush, against Sargon or someone like ShortFatOtaku anytime soon? I've seen a few videos of liberalists talking a little bit of shit, and I have a feeling that it could lead to something interesting.

There was to be a debate between SFO and Vaush and he ducked it by saying he won't because he made like 10 posts here. As for Hontra he hasn't debated for like 5 years and when he did he wasn't good at it, so I doubt he'll return to that. Plus, lefties will definitely shit on him if he platforms someone slightly to the right of him. Plus they really love their clout and would rather sever a digit that give a drop of it to a smaller channel

 

[Nykysnottrans]

Do you think there could be any debate streams with Contra, and Vaush, against Sargon or someone like ShortFatOtaku anytime soon?

Nyk doesn't do debate streams anymore, he was already questioning the point of debate streams back in 2017 when he was still doing them.

Nyk debated Sargon back in 2017 on The Thinkery channel:

And here's the Electric Boogaloo Livestream that Nyk did with Lauren Southern and Nick Fuentes at the request of Theryn, who was BFF with Lauren back then:

 

[maguyver16]

Nyk doesn't do debate streams anymore, he was already questioning the point of debate streams back in 2017 when he was still doing them.

Nyk debated Sargon back in 2017 on The Thinkery channel:

And here's the Electric Boogaloo Livestream that Nyk did with Lauren Southern and Nick Fuentes at the request of Theryn, who was BFF with Lauren back then:

Thanks for the info, as usual. I was curious to see

 

[Nykysnottrans]

Thanks for the info, as usual. I was curious to see

Another stream that came to mind that you might wanna watch is this one with a Catholic Youtuber called The Distributist:

Nyk had made a response video titled Is Casual Sex Bad For Your Soul? in response to one of The Distributist's videos about the sexual revolution, and this livestream was prompted by Nyk's response.

I am trying to recall other instances where Nyk debated rightwing Youtubers at the time and I can't think of any right now. I'm assuming you've already seen the debate with Blaire White?

 

[Nykysnottrans]

Twitter has apparently banned Jadis The Self-Made Woman, a peaktransed Gender Critical trannie who used to tweet some really funny and based shit at Nyk. I had originally posted this video here in the thread where Jadis responds to Nyk and Kat Blaque on Twitter, and does not mince words:

I also want to note that it was the Youtube algo that recommended this video to me back then.

Here are some highlights I saved from my archive:



And for those of you who pretend that Nyk has become some kind of free speech advocate, never forget this tweet. This was during the Reddit purge when Reddit deleted 2000+ subreddits, most of which at the behest of Bardfinn and Merari, the supermods of /r/ContraPoints. Of all those thousands of subs that got deleted during that purge, the only one out of 2000+ that Nyk singled out whose purging he wanted to highlight was /r/GenderCritical:



And here is Jadis pointing out to Nyk that most trannies over 30 are, indeed, truscum (transmedicalists):

I don't know exactly what was said, but I understand ContraPoints has said something to the effect of, everyone over thirty is basically truscum, and think much of that is correct. The vast majority of those in their thirties and especially later are, arguably truscum.
15:00 - 2 nov. 2019

https://twitter.com/S3LF_MAD3_WOMAN/status/1190750573861060610

Jadis (the Self-Made Woman) Argiope
@S3LF_MAD3_WOMAN
And while non-binary is certainly not a new thing, it's popularity has hit a sharp incline among Zoomers. We Millennials, and older, do generally believe you need to have dysphoria to be trans, and that there ought to be some form of gatekeeping, and that self-ID is problematic.

https://twitter.com/S3LF_MAD3_WOMAN/status/1190750574964174848

Jadis (the Self-Made Woman) Argiope
@S3LF_MAD3_WOMAN
And that men with beards identifying as women are not transgender, but confused, or perhaps just opportunistic narcissists.

https://twitter.com/S3LF_MAD3_WOMAN/status/1190750576570552320

Here is a poem that Jadis wrote over a decade ago titled The Transgendered Elite, about AGPs like Nyk who troon out due to t-porn:

You are interested, and you investigate
You only want to know more
You browse the sites, you see our pictures
and suddenly a world of wanting
fills your heart. We are beautiful.
We are gorgeous. And we are
every man's wildest dreams.

The Short Skirts. The tight shirts. Big tits.
Voluptuous Lips. And Hips to DIE FOR.

And when we are not in "Tha Club"
sipping our martinis, we're either on our
backs or our knees. We are a living
fantasy - and we love to be adored.
And though we may condescend
quite frequently, we are exalted in
their yearning eyes, practically
drooling with DESIRE...

So you want to be a fetish. You want to
be desired. You want to be a whore.
You want him to grab you by the hair
You want him to plunge your head
down onto his rockhard cock. Mascara
running - gagging all the way.

It's people like you who give transgendered
women a bad name. It's people like you who
stand as a mockery - a parody - of all WOMANKIND.
And it's people like you who keep women back by
acting out these misogynistic roles and stereotypes.
By proliferating these fantasies, by delighting in the
acts that deface the feminine image, you - and
those like you - only stand to keep REAL WOMEN
down. Years of hard work all down the drain,
and all because of an exploding tranny population,
most of them consisting of people like YOU!

I think this poem shows Jadis already effectively peaktransed back in 2010, but here are some more tweets explaining how this trannie peaktransed again in 2019:



BTW, follow Jadis on Instagram, Youtube or Periscope instead of Twatter.
Jadis, if you read this go ahead and join the Farms!

 

[Saltycoins]

I'm not sure if anyone cares but Hontra "Philosophy Pro" talks cancel culture on Lilly Singh's cringe talk show. Released yesterday

Natalie Wynn and Lilly Discuss Cancel Culture

Natalie Wynn explains cancel culture and talks about how social media is a powerful tool.A Little Late with Lilly Singh. Stream now on Peacock: https://bit.l...

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Natalie Wynn on How It Feels to Get Canceled

Natalie Wynn and Lilly talk about how it feels to get canceled online.A Little Late with Lilly Singh. Stream now on Peacock: https://bit.ly/2DEPKux Subscribe...

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[DoubleD]

I'm not sure if anyone cares but Hontra "Philosophy Pro" talks cancel culture on Lilly Singh's cringe talk show. Released yesterday

Natalie Wynn and Lilly Discuss Cancel Culture

Natalie Wynn explains cancel culture and talks about how social media is a powerful tool.A Little Late with Lilly Singh. Stream now on Peacock: https://bit.l...

www.youtube.com

Natalie Wynn on How It Feels to Get Canceled

Natalie Wynn and Lilly talk about how it feels to get canceled online.A Little Late with Lilly Singh. Stream now on Peacock: https://bit.ly/2DEPKux Subscribe...

www.youtube.com

It's nice to be able to talk about cancel culture without jumping to extremes.

Hoo boy, dis gon be good.

It started on Twitter, particularly Black Twitter

Don't make me hate them even more.

I think where the danger is, is when it has part to do with who we're targeting.

Go on...

We're using this tool for good when we're really using it to hold very powerful people to account.

"But that couldn't POSSIBLY include little old me. After all, I'M not most influential lefttuber on the whole damn platform."

But when it starts becoming this random person.

"See, I'm just this RANDOM PERSON. An independent content creator struggling to make ends meet to pay for her elaborate costumes and set dressing. I may act very posh in my highly produced videos, but I'm really UwU queer trash! I literally had to beg for people's money to get 13,356 of them to support me on Patreon."

Coontra: I've seen this happen in like fanfiction communities, on Tumblr or whatever.
Lily: Tumblr? TUMBLR?!? Tumblr's so pure! Who's hating on Tumblr?!
Contra: Oh, there's a very dark side to Tumblr.
Lily: WHAT?!
Contra: But like—
[video ends]

Contra either didn't understand Lily's obvious sarcasm or completely failed to land whatever Lily was setting her up for, and they had to cut the rest of the bit. I'm surprised they left any of it in to be honest. If that's what survives the final edit in only 3:39 of finished material, I dread to see what the unedited interview looked like.

Maybe 6:52 if you count the second part (which is inexplicably split into two videos)

Being canceled feels bad, like, it feels like you're being so misunderstood, and it feels like, you know, you're sort of being isolated and alienated and mocked and shamed. You feel like humiliated and you feel stupid and you feel alone.

She goes on to explain that the most hurtful part of being cancelled is that apparent rejection from her community...

A lot of the times I've been canceled, it's kinda a within a community thing, right, where people in the trans community basically, they decide that I'm a traitor because I messed up. And so that separates me from my own community. It separates me from, in some ways, the only sort of people I can really feel understood by.

Which leads me to wonder, was she ever really cancelled that badly?

I ask because she's shown herself to be exceptionally thin-skinned and insecure, even by Youtuber standards – by her own free admission at times.

Like in this online therapy/interview stream with Dr K, she mentions that she hated looking like "such a transsexual", saying as well that other people's criticisms are hurtful primarily because they mirror her own inner criticisms. And that this inner criticism also causes her to act transphobic to the rest of her community.

This comes up in the middle few sections of the video (41:00 onwards). Contra mentions feeling so disgusted at herself for not looking like a perfect cis woman, to the point of not being able to watch her videos from more than 2 years ago due to looking like a man dressed a woman (her words), but that she also can't help judging other trans women by that standard as well.

It started a long time before Youtube. Like at 1:09:15 she mentions the repulsion she felt at seeing another non-passing trans woman on the Chicago subway during an earlier period of her own gender experimentation. Dr K speculates that this may in fact be caused by envy for the other tranny's lack of selfconsciousness.

She freely acknowledges that she was a toxic asshole in the past, due to how much she aligned her own self-critical thoughts with the opinons of trasphobes, but struggles to come to terms with these same thoughts in the present. Dr K coddles this somewhat while also trying confront it (1:31:40), saying "your toxicity comes from hurt", and that she's been afraid to acknowledge the problem of her self-hatred for so long because she judges herself for "being the asshole". In other words, she judges herself... for judging herself.

I think this might explain why she took it so personally when the trans community rejected her:

She depends on them for validation, because they tell her she's more than just a non-passing freak. But at the same time, she resents them for being way bigger non-passing freaks than she herself will ever be. And when soundbites of hers slip out that betray how she really feels, she gets called out for and rejected by members of her community. And she catastrophises this because she worries their rejection of her is justified.

Am I right or am I right?

 

[scathefire]

I'm not sure if anyone cares but Hontra "Philosophy Pro" talks cancel culture on Lilly Singh's cringe talk show. Released yesterday

Natalie Wynn and Lilly Discuss Cancel Culture

Natalie Wynn explains cancel culture and talks about how social media is a powerful tool.A Little Late with Lilly Singh. Stream now on Peacock: https://bit.l...

www.youtube.com

Natalie Wynn on How It Feels to Get Canceled

Natalie Wynn and Lilly talk about how it feels to get canceled online.A Little Late with Lilly Singh. Stream now on Peacock: https://bit.ly/2DEPKux Subscribe...

www.youtube.com

The trans community is obviously toxic and willing to cancel people over the slightest deviation in ideology, so I really don't know what he expected from them when he tries to appear as a "moderate" tranny (even though he obviously isn't).

 

[Nykysnottrans]

"How It Feels To Get Cancelled"? Ask this Youtube millionaire how it feels when he opens up his Bank of America app and views his balance.

the most hurtful part of being cancelled is that apparent rejection from her community...

As long as he doesn't get rejected by his loyal paypigs financing his self-indulgent lifestyle it's all entitled bitching.

Which leads me to wonder, was she ever really cancelled that badly?

#ThisNeverHappens because he is uncancellable. All these Livestream appearances he does to bitch about being cancelled are just him milking some online drama to feed into his self-victimization narrative.

@macguyver16 Since you were asking about ContraPoints debating the right, here's a thread from 2018 on the topic that you might find interesting. Read it at archive because the original thread no longer exists:

Braving Ruin™?
@BravingRuin
They pretend that it's about "journalistic integrity" when none of them are willing to even attempt to live up to that standard themselves.
It's -really- about bullying interviewers into conducting the interview in a manner they will be ideologically satisfied with

Braving Ruin™?
@BravingRuin
This is why ContraPoints "doesn't debate anymore." Even he does not believe he can win the argument, but he's still willing to whine about how an interview didn't become the argument he wanted.

http://archive.fo/QksQT

And another Livestream worth watching from back when Nyk was still doing them, that I remembered the other day was the delisted Roaming Millennial stream where Nyk debated Lauren Chen about her interviewing Richard Spencer.

 

[DoubleD]

"How It Feels To Get Cancelled"? Ask this Youtube millionaire how it feels when he opens up his Bank of America app and views his balance.

As long as he doesn't get rejected by his loyal paypigs financing his self-indulgent lifestyle it's all entitled bitching.

Y'know, in my haste to write that post, I didn't think to check out Contra's Graphtreon to see if it had gone downhill at all. Let me just do that now...

Well lookie here, it does have a few small dips here and there, though I'm guessing those were just the gaps between uploads. The parts where it jumps back must be from when a new video goes live.

It looks like there was an unusually large jump in January of this year, which I guess must have been the JK Rowling video. It released very late in the month, and I didn't realise it would be quite so popular, but I can't think what else would explain the jump.

But what about that even bigger jump in January 2020? Whatever video it was, it must have been one of Contra's best. Now let me check her channel to see which of her videos came out around that same ti—

Oh, you have got to be kidding me.

There weren't any other videos in January. Her patrons simply jumped from 9,178 to 11,719 that month because she got cancelled and made a video about it. Assuming they pay on average $1/mo (a very conservative estimate, though we have to adjust for Patreon's fees and the possibility that these new patrons pay less than the $3/mo average three years ago), that's an increase of 30 grand... per year, in perpetuity. Because most of the people who pledged for that video seem to have remained her patrons for at least the first year.

Fuck, that's more than my entire salary.

And you know what? Fuck you Contra. It can't have been more than a few dozen people who kicked you out of their little 'community' at the same time that a few thousand more came rushing to your defence. You are not, nor will you ever be, a victim of cancel culture. Much like the author you criticise, you are one of the rare exceptions for whom it actually helps.

 

[ByffyloByll2]

There weren't any other videos in January. Her patrons simply jumped from 9,178 to 11,719 that month because she got cancelled and made a video about it. Assuming they pay on average $1/mo (a very conservative estimate, though we have to adjust for Patreon's fees and the possibility that these new patrons pay less than the $3/mo average three years ago), that's an increase of 30 grand... per year, in perpetuity. Because most of the people who pledged for that video seem to have remained her patrons for at least the first year.

Fuck, that's more than my entire salary.

And you know what? Fuck you Contra. It can't have been more than a few dozen people who kicked you out of their little 'community' at the same time that a few thousand more came rushing to your defence. You are not, nor will you ever be, a victim of cancel culture. Much like the author you criticise, you are one of the rare exceptions for whom it actually helps.

Its actually obscene. I'd argue Contrapoints is the single greatest advertisement for a Communistic wealth distribution ever devised although not for the reasons he thinks. Nyk is obviously wealthy enough that he could easily drop everything and go get the best rehab/help money can buy (a privilege that very, very few people could ever even hope to afford) but is CHOOSING not to because constantly self-victimizing himself in public is how he keeps his multi-million dollar grift going. Imagine giving this absolute creature your hard earned cash so he can sit around and endlessly whine about how hard his life is. Old school commies used to argue that trannies were a product of bourgeoise capitalist decadence, and while I may not entirely agree with that, Nyk here seems to have made it his entire purpose in life to prove them right.

This may just be wishful thinking, but judging by that Lilly Singh interview, the chickens of his miserable existence seem to be finally coming home to roost. I mean, his face looks absolutely atrocious and its not just the botched surgeries or him getting old. I can't exactly put my finger on it but it looks like his eyes are bugging out and his skin looks inflamed but completely washed-out. No amount of plastic surgery can hide the fact that he's beginning to look like the 'after' picture in those "heroin before and after" mugshots and I have to wonder how much longer he can keep his degenerate lifestyle going before his body gives up on him and he literally degenerates. And again, before anyone feels any sympathy for Nyk, remember he already has more money from doing nothing than the 99% of people who actually work hard for a living will ever see in their lifetimes. He can get clean and fix his life at any minute; he just doesn't want to.

 

[Cr1ms0n_&_C10v3r]

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The trans community is obviously toxic and willing to cancel people over the slightest deviation in ideology, so I really don't know what he expected from them when he tries to appear as a "moderate" tranny (even though he obviously isn't).

The thing about Nick is that he wants people to like him. He wants the SJWs to like him and he wants the shitlords to like him. This is why he will do things like get Buck Angel to do a voiceover in his video or complain about pronoun circles on Twitter, but then get very upset when the most active part of his fanbase (wokescolds) hate him for it. Then he'll desperately grovel and say it was a mistake (see the recent Twitter meltdown he had basically begging for forgiveness), and he won't be forgiven, and now in addition the people who agreed with his initial actions are now also turned off him.

He's always been fickle in this way. He really, really cares what people think, more than he cares about integrity and honesty. He's also not so secretly disgusted by the trans community. He can see how embarrassing and outlandish so much of it is. When he first realised this he tried to call himself an "old school transsexual" to distance himself. Then he did a 180 and was like "nooooo, trenders don't exist and enbies are valid!" to appease the wokes who still hate him anyway, lol.

Bridging 2 opposing groups together singlehandedly is probably a nice thought and an ego boost for Nick, but in reality it just doesn't work that way. And ultimately, he just wants to live his lifestyle and have people like him. It's really about him, not the "trans community".
Hell, if he were a woman, I daresay he'd be a full blown TERF. Without the need to defend himself as a troon he'd be defending himself as a woman and wouldn't have the incentive for the cognitive dissonance. Luckily for him, being a woman is something he'll never experience.

 

[Nykysnottrans]

I'd argue Contrapoints is the single greatest advertisement for a Communistic wealth distribution ever devised

Let's do some actual Communistic wealth redistribution then: you know what time it is.

Spoiler: TLDW but this was the absolute highlight

Bitches, he openly admitted it!

Cos I like meat. I guess cos I'm a man.

I am only barely listening to these streams nowadays and I can't believe the TERFy crap coming out of Nyk's mouth sometimes. It's like he's deliberately appropriating TERF talkingpoints but giving them a TRA twist to make them palatable to his SJW cult. For example, here he refers to his period dating men (including Oliver) as "self-deceit".

I am glad he's finally able to see it for the self-deceit that it was, but his whole trans-LARP was the impetus for that self-deceit. You cannot see the one as separate from the either. He fake-dated men because his whole existence is faking it.

There's also a first part but TLDW.

WTF is that white wedding dress with the red ribbon in the upper left corner of the room? Is this from a video? The way it's positioned in the background, it looks like the demon from The Grudge hovering above the floor and towards Nyk. AAARRRKKKHHH...

 

[Tombigbee]

I listened to half of Part 2 while cleaning today. Nothing too interesting thus far.

@2:23:55 someone asks about his Patreon mansion. It is indeed 3 stories and has a spiral staircase. It’s “a Victorian.”

Someone asks for Contra’s fave Madonna songs. He says “Material Girl,” “Vogue,” “Expres Yourself,” and “Born This Way” lol. Someone in the comments asks if he likes “Like a Prayer,” he says yes but that he highly associates it with Joanne. He says he can’t believe he’s still talking about Joanne....

He says that a lot of his problems during Covid are because he can’t go to bars. And that he hasn’t really dated for the same reason. He says he just reads and plays the piano at night because he’s alone and he prefers to binge watch tv with people. He mentions calories several times, saying that the downside of booze is the calories and that he’s conscious of this since he’s on camera so often. He mentions later he won’t eat a Snickers bar “because calories.”

He says he took an Ambien just before the stream cause that’s the only way he can concentrate.

He says he’s going to rebel against the idea of never being photographed in the same outfit twice because he’s tired of keeping track of what he’s worn and having to constantly buy new clothes.

He says he no longer goes to therapy because his therapist told him to go to group therapy and he hated it, so he stopped.

He talks about taking MDMA and that it made him “transcendently horny or sexual.” He talks at length about being sexually blocked and needing weed, MDMA, etc to open up.

He is asked about the dress in the background, he says he ordered a “Marie Antoinette” type dress for his current video but that it was lost by an international shipper. He says he NEEDS a Marie Antoinette type dress for the video, so he took the JK Rowling bath dress and added stuff to make it fancier. So that’s what it’s doing there.

He says his model for getting older is Lucille Bluth. Because you “can continue being an alcoholic,” not give a fuck about what people say, and be stylish.

He says he’s been living a “pro-ana” lifestyle for awhile. (So I guess eating disorder confirmed.)

He starts crying at 3:20:00 in response to a questioner whose friend took their own life. He says one of his family members attempted suicide very recently. So I guess family history of suicidality....

3:38:05 is kind of interesting. He says that some trans people explanation of their gender doesn’t make sense. Contra gives the example of a gender conforming cis man who says he’s not a man because he doesn’t identify with toxic masculinity. Contra says he’ll use whatever pronouns they want but he still thinks of them as a man. Seems like he could be describing Olly for sure. Or at least a pre transition version of Olly. Olly probably started off saying he was “trans” to Contra before he did anything gender non conforming.