Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ)
What is the premise, or the overall "back story" behind your drawings?
These drawings represent snapshots of families in which at least one boy and one girl live together as siblings to one another. The boys' and girls' ages are usually within a few years of each other, and while the girls are usually older than the boys, in some cases the girls are younger. Other boys and girls may also appear in the images as friends, cousins or babysitters.
In these families, the boys conspicuously wear and use diapers (both for pee and especially for poop) in the presence of their sisters and/or other girls, none of whom wear diapers themselves. This difference between the boys and the girls in these families creates a dynamic in which boys are thought of as being unclean, lazy and immature, whereas girls are more mature, modest, demure and self-disciplined, greatly concerned about their hygiene and how they present themselves, especially taking pride in the clothes that they wear. Some of the girls may be more open towards letting their brothers see them in their underwear as a gesture to show how they can keep their bodies clean and their butts thoroughly wiped.
The boys' diapers are not merely an incidental element in the eyes of their sisters, but are, in fact, a central focus of attention. The girls indulgently revel in not having to wear diapers themselves and immensely enjoy looking at their diapered brothers and pointing out the various attributes of their diapers, mostly the fact that they are so thick and high-rising. The pure plain whiteness of their brothers' diapers contrasts sharply with the skin tone of their bare, skinny legs, and the size of their big diapers dwarf their lanky bodies. These girls call attention to their brothers not ever being able to wear pants because of how thick their diapers are, thereby forcing them to wear their diapers in full view at all times. They point out the way their diaper usage makes them smell bad and how glad they are that the diapers are as thick and as high as they are. The girls especially enjoy looking at their brothers' diapered butts because this affords them the opportunity to gaze without their brothers being aware of their presence, plus the fact that this part of their diapers stands out the most and calls attention to the fact that there is probably a lot of stinky poop underneath all those thick, white bulky diaper layers. They often take candid photos and frequently affectionately pat or slap their brothers' diapered butts. For girls who change their brothers' diapers, when they see their brother's butt all padded up in layers of white cloth, they take great satisfaction in knowing that it was their hands that put those diapers on him.
While the boys may be embarrassed by the constant teasing and attention from their sisters (especially when friends who have not yet seen their diapered brothers come over to visit), they have been wearing diapers for a long time and have since come to accept their situation. For a lot of these boys, they secretly enjoy the attention and get a big adrenaline rush from showing off their diapers to girls. These boys generally will not admit these feelings nor share them, but a lot of girls are keen enough to see for themselves that their brothers like being teased for being stuck in diapers.
Most of the scenes depict the boys and their sisters engaging in innocent, everyday situations which may be common in most households, just that the boys happen to be in diapers. In some scenes the dialog and/or captions will be presented in context that is focused on the boys' diapers.
Why do the boys wear diapers?
For most of these boys, they have either failed toilet training or have proven themselves to be unable or unwilling to keep their underwear clean due to poor wiping habits, or continue to have frequent accidents out of laziness or apathy. In some cases the parents simply did not bother to try toilet training their sons in the first place, knowing how difficult boys tend to be when it comes to attempting to get them out of diapers.
Why do you only show boys wearing diapers and always show girls wearing pants and/or other clothes?
The drawings are based on my experiences and feelings about myself and other boys as a child, and how I perceived girls as influenced by how my sisters treated me for wearing diapers and having frequent poop accidents, because of my stubborn refusal to use the toilet.
When I was growing up I was often left to go around the house only wearing diapers and a shirt because of having frequent pooping accidents, partly as a punishment for not using the toilet. My diapers were extra thick to retain the poop so that the floor and the furniture would remain clean, but also so that I could not wear any pants over them as they would not fit, forcing me to let my sisters and their friends all see me in my diapers. My sisters took great pleasure in calling attention to my diapers, especially my butt where they could stare at me without me knowing it, plus, it's the part of me that they knew was the reason for me to be diapered in the first place. My sisters took great pride in being girls, telling me that girls don't poop themselves and don't wear diapers, which is why they get to wear pants and I don't. These impressions sank in very deeply and remained with me throughout my remaining childhood.
Why are all of the drawings basically the same thing, boys wearing diapers in the presence of their sisters?
That's what it takes for me to relate to these scenes. Early on, I did a number of scenes only showing boys without their sisters or other girls in the shot. I soon realized that there was not much I could do with these. All of the boys are equal to one another and there is no dynamic, no contrast. Sure, I could have a boy in the scene who does not wear diapers and mocks the others while bragging about not having to wear diapers himself. Still, this just wouldn't have much of an impact because of the way boys tend to interact with one another, and there are still a lot of elements that would not ideally contrast between a diapered boy and a non-diapered boy.
Put a girl in the picture and everything changes. Girls are fundamentally different from boys in many other ways (anatomically, obviously, but also in appearance and behavior), so having a girl see the boys wearing diapers makes the boys very aware of how different they are from their female counterparts in that their "underwear" is different, and how they eliminate their bodily wastes.
Having a girl see her brothers and other boys in diapers creates a much heightened level of embarrassment and awkwardness that would not happen if there were a non-diapered boy in her place. Many of us who were raised in families with opposite-sex siblings learned that there are some things boys and girls generally aren't supposed to do together once past a certain age (4 to 5 years old). These matters all concern nudity, modesty and toileting. Boys and girls shouldn't take baths or showers together, shouldn't use the toilet together (i.e., being in the bathroom together while one uses the toilet), should sleep in separate bedrooms, not dress and undress in front of each other, or even see each other in their underwear, much less naked. We learn that these situations are highly taboo and inappropriate as we develop a sense of privacy and a need to segregate brothers and sisters from each other in such situations where bodily differences are significant. I realize that some families are more liberal about household nudity, and of course some brothers and sisters do share bedrooms and may dress and undress in front of each other. In general, the traditional family tends to foster such a sense of privacy and modesty between boys and girls in each others' presence.
When a girl sees her brother in his diapers the boy becomes very self-conscious of the fact that his opposite-sex sibling sees him like this and she knows why he is diapered. He's essentially in just his underwear (and very thick underwear, at that) and he is also having to eliminate his bodily wastes in her presence, even if she can't necessarily see it (she may hear it and smell it, however). For some boys. they may even have to submit to allowing their sisters to change their diapers, which obviously involves seeing them naked and also having to allow their sisters to handle cleaning up their bodily messes. If the boy has a conventional sense of privacy and modesty instilled in him, this sort of situation flagrantly violates several familial customs. The boy may also see the blatant unfairness of having to submit to his sister like this, while she doesn't even let him see her in her underwear and that she can use the toilet in complete privacy.
Why do you show boys wearing several pairs of underwear (and presumably using them as diapers?)
I had the unusual experience of being "diapered" in several pairs of underwear (at least a dozen pairs, usually more) as a young boy, starting from around age 4. This was because I had outgrown the diapers and training pants that were readily available at the store and my mom figured this method was just as good in a pinch, and was since then used. Back then, most boys' underwear was plain white briefs. Many briefs also had an extra layer in the seat, presumably because of the fact that boys had a tendency not to wipe well, if at all. My sisters were quite eager to point out how my underwear was different from theirs. First of all, my underwear was all plain white, which made them look like diapers on me, especially when worn in such thick, bulky amounts. They had colored underwear, some with flowers and other patterns printed on them. My underwear rose up much higher on my body than their panties did on their bodies, which meant that it was always showing when I was wearing pants, but most of the time at home my underwear was fully exposed anyway (I even had to tuck my shirt into the inner waistbands so that my underwear would be fully visible). I also had underwear that was as much as three sizes larger so that I could wear more pairs at a time. These pairs, of course, came up even higher on me, going past my elbows in the rear. My sisters pointed out the extra layers in the seats and how this extra bulk created a more distinct bulge over my butt, making it look even more diaper like and calling attention to the fact that I pooped in them. My sisters liked to snap my multiple waistbands, noting the strong, wide elastic and the various stripe colors and patterns. The fly front, of course, was perhaps the most distinguishing feature that made my underwear uniquely boyish.
My sisters also made it a point to NEVER let me see them in their underwear or even go around the house in their underwear because, according to them, girls shouldn't go around like this and that boys should because they poop themselves and don't get to wear pants. The only time I ever saw the underwear my sisters wore was when it was in the laundry basket. My sisters didn't have nearly as much underwear as I did, as I remember seeing big, tall stacks of my folded underwear whenever my mom did the laundry. Every time we went to Sears or K-Mart my mom always bought me lots of underwear, which, of course, amused my sisters.
While it was not intended, I developed a great fondness for my underwear and enjoyed wearing it in multiples, even after I stopped having frequent poop accidents. I secretly enjoyed the attention that my sisters gave me for being a "diaper boy". I always went to bed wearing several pairs of underwear (and a shirt or pajama top, no bottom) and would often spend several hours before bedtime going around in several pairs of underwear. On non-school mornings I would remain in just my thick underwear for as long as I could while watching cartoons with my pajamas-clad sisters. I also enjoyed showing off my thick underwear to my sisters' sleepover guests, all of whom thought it was funny, while some also thought it was a bit weird.
Why do you make the boys and the girls in your drawings look so real?
This is just my style, my "signature", if you will. I know that a lot of the diaper-related artwork featured here utilizes methods that are distinctly cartoonish, particularly in the "manga" or "anime" style. I'm personally not too fond of this style and I've never sought to develop the skills to create artwork in this manner. Some people say this looks "creepy". If that's the impression you get, then so be it. I'm only trying to make things look the way they would in real life.
Why do the diapers rise up so high on the boys' bodies? Why are the boys' shirts so short?
I admit that this is a feature that I exaggerate. High-rising diapers serve several purposes. For one, they have more capacity, more material to contain the waste contents, plus, it's less likely to leak out of the top since it has so much farther to go. The high-rising diapers also draw more attention to themselves. Since the boys are not ever wearing any pants over them anyway, their diapers might as well go up higher rather than be limited to a height that, if worn with pants, would not show or show much.
As for the shirts, they are trimmed, or cut short so that the full rise of their diapers can be seen in their entirety. Presumably, the boys wear cheap T-shirts. Some wear white shirts to match their diapers while others wear colored shirts to provide contrast against the plain white diapers.
While I could also just show the boys without a shirt on, I have them wear shirts to further point out the specific absence of pants. "You can wear a shirt, but you can't wear pants." I always wore a shirt with my "diapers" myself as I was not comfortable not having a shirt on, even as a young boy.
What are "Thickies"?
"Thickies" are a fictional diaper brand that I created. They are high-rising ultra thick plain white cloth diapers intended to be conspiciuously worn by boys who refuse to be toilet trained or have too many accidents and don't deserve to wear pants around the house.
What is "Wear the Pants"?
"Wear the Pants" is a fictional organization of girls who have diaper-wearing brothers. Girls who are members of this organization are encouraged to exploit the differences between them and their brothers in that their brothers wear diapers and the girls do not, mostly by the fact that only the girls get to wear pants.
Where are the adults in these drawings?
In the Peanuts cartoons, you never saw any adult characters, and when they were presented out of frame talking to the children, they did not have distinct speech and would just say "wah wah wah", especially the schoolteacher. In spite of the visual absence of adult characters, one could safely presume that the children lived with their parents and were under adult supervision. The kids in these drawings obviously aren't going to be living by themselves and having a home without parental support, and besides, who pays for all the boys' diapers? Parents and other adults do occasionally appear, but most of the time they are out of frame or just not in the immediate presence of the children.
Why do you have so many drawings like this?
I just like to make them. I have a creative mind (which is why we're all here, after all, to share our creativity) and an admittedly eccentric imagination. Perhaps it's a bit of an obsession, but believe me, I do other things outside of these interests. These drawings have been created over several years, and I don't always work on them every day.
Why do you make these drawings?
I make these drawings for a number of reasons, mainly to express myself and share with others my particular worldview and the experiences that inspire me to create these drawings. I know there are other people out there who have had similar experiences or have at least observed situations such as mine, and would likely appreciate knowing that they are not alone. I have a lot of creative energy and a vivid imagination, so I need an outlet for this. I have also written stories.
I also just like to reminisce upon this part of my boyhood when life was simpler and more innocent. Wearing and using diapers past a "normal" diaper-wearing age had a very big impact on me as a boy and was a very significant part of my formative years, so it's only natural that these experiences have remained vivid and familiar to me in my mind. As I grew up these feelings never went away and have stayed with me for all of my life. I find the activity of making these drawings and writing stories to be a safe and enjoyable way to explore these feelings.
Are you some crazy freak? This stuff is really weird.
Yes, this sort of thing is, I'll admit, rather strange. It's not the sort of thing that most people have observed or experienced, so it's natural for a lot of people to not understand it. I know that how I was raised and how my toileting problems were dealt with contributed a lot to how I am today and why I spend so much time on these interests. I do see myself as a bit of an eccentric. A lot of artistic and creative people are quirky in various ways, after all. Still, you wouldn't know it just by looking at me. To most people, I'm just an ordinary guy who holds down a steady job and makes a modest living, and for the most part, leads a rather uneventful life. I'm not married and I have no children. I don't drink or smoke, and I don't enjoy sports or do a lot of the typical "guy" things. I enjoy bowling, snow skiing, listening to rock music and watching movies and TV shows. I enjoy eating out at several area restaurants. I regularly spend time with my family. I also enjoy photography and videography, especially clouds and other weather, and autumn foliage. I'm also a big-time cat lover (which is why cats are sometimes shown in my drawings).
So as you can see, while the interests that I exhibit here in my gallery are only focused on my unusual experiences with diapers and underwear, I do live a balanced life that includes other things that normal people do. That said, I've often considered the possibility that I may have some degree of Asperger's, which, among other things, is evidenced by my lack of social skills and is likely one of the reasons I have had few girlfriends and have only had brief relationships that have been few and far between. I'm happy with my life and I see no reason to change anything.
I don't have the time to download all your drawings. Can you send them to me in .zip files?
Sure. Just drop me a line at
yobrepaid@hotmail.com. While you're at it, tell me a little about yourself and your experiences and/or observations with wearing diapers.
