Spending your formative years being mentally primed to feel insignificant and lacking any control over your own life can really take a toll on many. The good news is reality is actually quite the opposite of the conditioning.
I don't feel like I do. I don't mind going to work but work is not a motivation in and of itself. I just go to work and then try to kill time until the day is over to go to work again.
Your life can be (and is) so much better than it seems, fren.
I suggest you find some quiet time once every few days. Even just 10 minutes of it. Find a nice quiet spot (toss on a headset with some hemi-sync audio and drown out the surrounding chatter if you have to), close your eyes, and allow yourself to let go of your worries of the day. Turn your attention towards your breathing and let the world melt away. If a thought bubbles up to the surface, then recognize it and let it drift on by like a passing cloud. If done with sincerity - you will feel
so much better than you did prior.
Seriously - just 10 minutes is all it takes to get started.
If you continue the practice and get the hang of letting your mind empty out, then you'll start to realize that any thought which does make itself known during this time? Is a thought that is actually trying to help you (this includes getting you to face things you are otherwise ignoring). You really are your own best guidance. Learn to trust yourself, have faith in yourself, and
love yourself. The rest will work itself out in ways you never thought possible.
As I said: people can spend most of their lives thinking they have such little control over things when reality is quite the opposite.