So it’s like this
For a few years I’ve been able to identify a strong feminine presence within me. It’s very sexual.. I have previously ignored it or tried to stuff it down. Recently I delved into these feelings and found so much joy and enthusiasm there. I really felt excited about putting on lingerie and getting all sexy like that.. The thought of having breasts is exciting to me. I know not everyone is hyper-sexual like that but I was wondering what anyone thinks about this. This gender identity arising from a sexual place. Is that a thing? Thnx
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Sea-Disk-1111
Not for me. I desperately wanted to be a girl from my earliest memories at 4 or 5 years old. Long before puberty or anything sexual ever crossed my mind.
Transition affects libido. It also makes getting and maintaining an erection difficult if not completely impossible. I have bottom dysphoria and losing the ability to achieve an erection due to my T blocker has been a huge psychological relief. The idea of using male genitals in penetrative sex is horrible.
I had really bad chest dysphoria before starting to transition. People that lose limbs have phantom limb syndrome for body parts that they once had. I had phantom limb syndrome with breasts. I could feel them but I never had them and lost them. It’s really difficult to explain but something was going on in my brain where the ‘body plan’ it expected included them. I have breasts now thanks to (almost two years on) HRT. It’s given me massive relief. My upper body feels whole. The phantom feelings are gone, replaced by actual body parts with nerves and feelings. The idea of having breasts never aroused me and now that I have them, I’m not aroused by having them.
I hope that helped some. I tried to address everything you mentioned from my perspective and from what it is like to be me.
Daphne_Brown
As this is “trans layer” I’m curious OP when you first discovered you were trans?
What you stated resonates with me slightly but the other comment about this not being sexual at all also resonates.
For me, I repressed all of my recognition about being trans for decades. So I developed a functioning male persona. I experienced sex as a man.
Now with the repression off I do feel some dysphoria about my genitals and penetrative sex but I also feel a desire to experiencing sex as a female. I guess I feel like I can appreciate both perspectives and wonder if it has anything to do with age of your awakening.