Cultcow EvaXephon / Yanderedev / Alex Mahan / Alexander Stuart Mahan / cannotgoogleme - Edgy weeaboo coomer with pedo tendencies and 15+ years internet history as a lolcow, now known as a disaster developer behind eternal debug build called "Yandere Simulator", confirmed groomer and dollfucker

[Dumbchan]

fuck alex

How desperate do you have to be to wanna fuck Alex? I mean really.

 

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How desperate do you have to be to wanna fuck Alex? I mean really.

Is it truly desperation, or is it an "I can fix him" complex? Either way, we'd have to ask Mulberry and/ or Adolphin.
There's at least these two whamen (that we know of) that wanted a ride on the mahan micro. If alex wasn't such a socially retarded voluntary incel, he could have easily gotten his peepee wet, but it just goes to show, an incel is an incel by his own choice of not having realistic standards and by not putting in the minimum amount of effort. (which in his case would have been sliding into Mulberry's DMs and offering to meet up for some neflix and chill)

 

[Catgirls are Love]

Alex gets an entry into SidAlpha's Dirty Devs series.

 

[RedGermaine]

According to his number one anti fan club, the Osana subreddit, his discord account was terminated. This coming like, a week after his twitch was terminated with cause means the rope's really tightening now. Discord rarely gives a shit about anything, they'd rather do cub ERP than actually moderate so this is impressive. It's unlikely to be an account deletion since they'll close your account but you won't be a deleted user until about 4 months afterwards because again, discord is lazy is as shit in moderation.

 

[Activelo]

He posted a new blog post yesterday:

Short Update (A)

Just wanted to write a short blog post to give you guys a quick update on what’s going on. Click “Continue Reading” if you’re interested.

Therapy​

In October, I started using an online therapy service. The first therapist that I got matched with wasn’t a good fit for me, but I feel great about the one I’m speaking to now. I’ve had four sessions with him so far, and I plan to continue speaking to him for the rest of the year (at the least).

For most of my life, I was extremely skeptical about therapy. I wasn’t sure what kind of benefit it could provide. I always thought that therapy was just “talking about feelings” and that I would be better off spending my time trying to proactively solve my problems rather than just talking about them. But, now that I have firsthand experience with therapy, I think I finally see the value of it.

Throughout our conversations, my therapist has made a lot of observations about me that I didn’t have the self-awareness to recognize on my own. I won’t go into excessive detail, but talking with him has given me a much deeper understanding of how my poor lifestyle choices have impacted my mental health. And, more importantly, he’s pointed out what steps I need to take in order to get better.

So far, each conversation I’ve had with him has given me a much clearer understanding of how to undo the damage I’ve done to myself over the years. I’ll keep talking with him and taking the advice that he’s been giving me.

Lifestyle Changes​

Over the past few years, a lot of people contacted me and said things like, “Hey, you seem like you need a friend. Want to talk?” I always told these people that I was busy with work, and didn’t have time to chat. I equated socializing with laziness and weakness, and focused my attention on work almost 100% of the time. As a result, I rarely ever socialized with anyone. There were only one or two people in my life that I would have actually described as a “friend.” I was incredibly lonely.

But, over the past month, I’ve loosened up a bit. These days, if someone reaches out to me and offers their friendship, I’m not so quick to turn them away. I’m very cautious at first – I always want to make sure that I’m not talking to a kid or someone with bad intentions – but if they seem like a genuinely nice person, then I actually speak with them instead of just shooing them away.

I can’t overstate how much of a difference this has made. Just by making this one change to my life, I’ve made a lot of new friends over the past month, and I feel like my mental health has improved immensely. This hasn’t magically solved everything overnight, but I already feel a lot less lonely and a lot happier now than I was before.

I’d also like to mention that recently I’ve been leaving my house, interacting with people in real life, and participating in activities that don’t involve the use of a computer. I don’t want to give out any details or specifics – like, “I go bowling every Sunday!” – since it could lead to safety concerns. But, I can honestly say that I have been getting out of the house more often, and that stepping away from the computer for a while feels a lot better than I thought it would.

Game Development​

I want to briefly mention something for the people who are curious about the game and its future.

In my last blog post, I stated that development was going to be “paused” while I focused on improving my lifestyle and my mental health. However, it would be more accurate to say that I’ve significantly adjusted my work/life balance so that Yandere Simulator is no longer completely dominating my existence.

I genuinely enjoy the act of game development – it’s honestly my favorite activity – and I would never want to step away from it completely. Even though my focus right now is on self-improvement, I do set aside some time every day to make additions to the game. Development is still proceeding…just not at the cost of my mental and physical well-being.

I’m really proud of the things that I’ve added to the game over the past month, and there is a part of me that wants to share a bunch of screenshots of what I’ve been working on lately…but, it wouldn’t be appropriate to post that stuff right now. My current focus should be self-reflection and self-improvement, not trying to make things “return to normal” as quickly as possible.

I’ve heard of something called “The 21/90 Rule” – apparently, it takes 21 days to form a habit, but it takes 90 days to turn a habit into a permanent lifestyle change. Until I’ve been living a healthier life for at least 60 more days, I haven’t earned the right to return to “business as usual.” Eventually, I’ll return to releasing new builds and showing off new content…but not today.

(With that said, I strongly believe that the people who have been supporting me have a right to see my latest work. So, I will be documenting my development progress on Patreon.)

In Closing​

Therapy is helping a lot more than I expected. Making friends instead of pushing people away is really good for your mental health. I’m still working on Yandere Sim…I’m just doing it at a much healthier pace than before.

Before I go, I’d like to briefly reiterate what I said in my last blog post: If you’re a volunteer, an ex-volunteer, or someone who wants to become a volunteer, and you wish to communicate with me, please contact me through e-mail, not Discord.

Also, if you are at least 18 years old and you want to interact with other adult fans of the game without the presence of children, you are welcome to join our new Guilded community.

Thanks for your time.

 

[Catgirls are Love]

According to his number one anti fan club, the Osana subreddit, his discord account was terminated. This coming like, a week after his twitch was terminated with cause means the rope's really tightening now. Discord rarely gives a shit about anything, they'd rather do cub ERP than actually moderate so this is impressive. It's unlikely to be an account deletion since they'll close your account but you won't be a deleted user until about 4 months afterwards because again, discord is lazy is as shit in moderation.

Doesn't really matter as he's already back and he had this new account ready to go a month ago immediately made another account. There's the lazy moderation in action, but it is amusing to see all of his other older announcements made by "Deleted User".

Alex's message on the situation:

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

He posted a new blog post yesterday:

So far, each conversation I’ve had with him has given me a much clearer understanding of how to undo the damage I’ve done to myself over the years. I’ll keep talking with him and taking the advice that he’s been giving me.

This is so fucking cookie cutter that I can smell butter.

I equated socializing with laziness and weakness

Socializing. On the internet.

There were only one or two people in my life that I would have actually described as a “friend.” I was incredibly lonely.

Bullshit, in 2020 he said he had no friends and I can easily believe that.

These days, if someone reaches out to me and offers their friendship, I’m not so quick to turn them away.

Yeah, especially if they are a girl and under 18.

I can’t overstate how much of a difference this has made.

@Activelo, is he still spending his days on Discord banning people who ask questions he doesn't like?

I genuinely enjoy the act of game development – it’s honestly my favorite activity

Again, Alex, if you enjoy "spending your life in prison", then just surrender yourself to the FBI.

apparently, it takes 21 days to form a habit, but it takes 90 days to turn a habit into a permanent lifestyle change

[Insert joke about Alex and his code]

 

[FiveStarAce]

91% done? Sorry brother, but the game doesn't even have a half finished backend. It's still in the stage where you should Hammer out the fundamental Systems instead of adding features.... ah hell who am i kidding...

 

[Kuritan Deplorable]

91% amuses me to. If I ignored the sheer time investment in the project and just looked at the code quality, feature cohesion, and design consistency, I'd say this is a good point to lock down this prototype and rebuild from the ground up a second prototype with a 'lessons learned' approach. Because a lot of the code is hackjob garbage that grew organically, and lot of features do not play together well - either not at all, or in very forced janky ways. I'd also probably throw everything in for an art pass too, the only cohesion is in color, there's little soul or design to it right now. If you didn't know this was nearly ten years of effort, you'd assume its a 3-6 month prototype from a 5-10 head dev studio to explore a concept that just overgrew a bit.

Also, its been easily a year since I design sperged over Yansim, and since the convo restarted a bit over "what would you do to make yansim work?" again, would there be any interest in me going full retard and throwing ideas at the wall? Its late here, but I've had a few ideas bouncing around and I'll put them to paper if y'all wanna see it.

 

[RedDelicious]

honestly, he might accept going to jail if it comes to it, because it'll let him continue to put off actually 'working' on his frankenstein's monster of a game

 

[Cukimoo]

On October 3rd, my Discord account was disabled. Discord did not send me an e-mail explaining why.

If Discord does not give you a response to your account being disabled then it might have been caused by an automatic flagging by PhotoDNA, or any other kind of predatory behavior where you do not want to alert the perpetrator. If he is being truthful and didn't accidentally throw the email into the bin, he just implicated himself heavily by saying this.

I bet the SSD is in the microwave right now as we speak.

 

[Smithfield Ham]

So at what point do people say it's okay to just take all of YanDev's code?

 

[TOTAL NIGGER DEATH]

So at what point do people say it's okay to just take all of YanDev's code?

Why would you ever want to take his unusable shitty code? It would be infinitely faster to write the entire game from scratch than to use this code.

 

[RazorBackBacon]

So at what point do people say it's okay to just take all of YanDev's code?

Pretty hard to steal spaghetti. Just saying.

 

[kcbbq]

Pretty hard to steal spaghetti. Just saying.

Everyone here is completely capable of writing a deeply nested mass of if...then statements covering any possible permutation of spaghetti - cooked, raw, with sauce, dry, mom's, spilled....

 

[Kuritan Deplorable]

So at what point do people say it's okay to just take all of YanDev's code?

Not really anything worth taking. I don't know if he's still using his bad self implemented pathfinding algorithm, but aside from that and a bit of the save/load code, nothing in the project is unique enough to even consider salvaging, and that 'unique' nature of those bits is more likely to be negative, not positive. Aside from the meme spaghetti pieces, most of his code is badly designed and tightly coupled, meaning its pretty much useless outside of the specific unity project file its built around and into. In the time you'd spend rebuilding the project and object hierarchies that his nested references rely on, you'd be able to make something less awful and more reusable.

The models, art, and music are probably salvageable, but s'not really worth stealing those when they're not particularly cohesive or high quality. Better to spend the effort and money on unifying some store assets to an actual vision.

 

[RedGermaine]

If Discord does not give you a response to your account being disabled then it might have been caused by an automatic flagging by PhotoDNA, or any other kind of predatory behavior where you do not want to alert the perpetrator. If he is being truthful and didn't accidentally throw the email into the bin, he just implicated himself heavily by saying this.

I bet the SSD is in the microwave right now as we speak.

So since he's back with a new account, does that mean you can report the account for ban evasion and get him whack a mole'd by discord.

 

[Catgirls are Love]

So since he's back with a new account, does that mean you can report the account for ban evasion and get him whack a mole'd by discord.

In theory yes, as ban evasion is against their Teams and Services, though I don't see a way to quickly and easily report someone for ban evading; it's not one of the options that comes up when reporting a profile.

 

[Trombonista]

In theory yes, as ban evasion is against their Teams and Services, though I don't see a way to quickly and easily report someone for ban evading; it's not one of the options that comes up when reporting a profile.

Also, weening is stupid. Let's let Alex dig his own grave a little longer.

 

[Edict of Expulsion]

“No guys I’ve totally changed” sounds like that israeli scam BetterHelp. Find someone that tells you what you want to hear. A leopard doesn’t change his spots and Alex wouldn’t even take basic programming advice, which was literally unanimous, and yet he claims he’s making entire lifestyle changes and they will be permanent?
It’s like we’re talking about ethan ralph.

I’m waiting for the flee to mexico arc after the family of the girls he’s abused take action