- Joined
- Jan 19, 2021
So, half of those bullet points are the same excuse/reason, worded differently.TLDR for stream:
- Break was mostly medical (think I posted a while back about the member post/tweet she had about being in hospital) vocal/throat issues + mental.
- Felt like her singing wasn't improving/was getting worse despite the 3 weekly lessons, mentally led to issues recording her original song/other things. Went to hospital to see if was a physical reason and had some sort of throat/lung inflammation (place your coof rrats here).
- During recording "something" (presumably 3rd fest related) she felt like was starting to really struggle mentally, had to ask for a break and broke down a bit.
- Also been having multiple dance lessons with others for "something secret" (again I assume 3rd fest). Kept messing up her part and getting in her own head about it.
- Not singing/recording well + letting other members down made her mentally worse. Outright said she was feeling depressed for a while which for a Japanese person is surprising.
- Did her few collab streams lately to see if she could do longer ones with her current vocal condition/not feeling herself. (She was noticeably quiet in collabs other than the TTRPG stream imo but believe what you want).
- FBK/Mio/Subaru kept inviting her to collabs/irl things to try and improve mood. Went somewhere with Polka, also went to Okayu's house and was invited to Noel's food collab? (I missed exactly what the Noel thing was, Noel/Lamy/Choco were involved).
- After the TTRPG FBK/Mio saying how much fun they had + her manager saying how happy she looked after it helped her improve some.
- Watching all of HoloX debuts also helped seeing how energetic they were, wants to try and collab with more people she's been too shy to ask until now (EN unlikely I assume unless one of the less socially exceptional members she's close to is involved).
"I wasn't happy with my progress, so it messed up my head and needed time to recover"
This was a nice birthday compilation for Selen, and it made me remember her no laugh challenge, which she should do more of if only because she made massive chat bucks, but I think she might fail it even quicker now.
Seeing that compilation makes me regret not being able to engage more with NijiEN. I tried to stick to Pomu and Selen but I couldn't follow through with it, As we've said recently, too many good options to keep up. And given how they are on a completely different "ecosystem" from what I'm accustomed I dropped them pretty easily.
Shame
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