- Joined
- Sep 29, 2022
My siblings have suggested that if I were to troon out they'd totally accept it, and while I guess that's good that they'll still love me I feel a bit weirded out since the only reason I brought it up was a joke. But, at the same time, my brother has compared my personality difference to trans people, which he has the belief of being disliked just because they are different (I wholeheartedly disagree, it's FAR more complex than that). Rather than arguing that trans people are wrong, I had made the statement that I believe that for troons there's a choice involved when it comes to interacting with society as opposed to just different personalities (not in the schizo/garbage way) with those who can't help it nor are being told that they're doing anything wrong.
Still, if I apply the same empathy, I have to wonder if there are trannies who don't want to be trannies. First off, it can't be natural since their numbers exploded between 2015 and present, and secondly, they all tend to be left-wing and/or coomers; feels that if this was natural there'd be a LOT more right-wing ones.
I only ask this because the thought of it haunts me. Have I just spent too much time staring into the abyss? Am I repressing it? Am I just some depressed sadsack who will believe obvious bullshit? I know that I can be swayed by suggestion in dark times. I remember listening to The Biggest Problem in the Universe and I had thoughts that I knew were bullshit. "Man, Los Angeles sounds like an awesome place to be!" and "Dick Masterson is hilarious and it would be cool to hang out with such a fun and funny dude"...so I know there can be influential ideas that are bullshit but I believe it.
When I think about it doesn't make sense. I'm not "in the wrong body", I don't larp as a woman online, gay shit disgusts me, and I still think troons have generally terrible taste in video games and anime. I don't think I've watched any anime in months. A few years ago I speculated about only pretending to troon out for money (which I did not do, pretending or otherwise, though it was bad optics on my part)...but why would such a thing come up if I had no tranny disposition? Thinking emoji indeed.
Still, if I apply the same empathy, I have to wonder if there are trannies who don't want to be trannies. First off, it can't be natural since their numbers exploded between 2015 and present, and secondly, they all tend to be left-wing and/or coomers; feels that if this was natural there'd be a LOT more right-wing ones.
I only ask this because the thought of it haunts me. Have I just spent too much time staring into the abyss? Am I repressing it? Am I just some depressed sadsack who will believe obvious bullshit? I know that I can be swayed by suggestion in dark times. I remember listening to The Biggest Problem in the Universe and I had thoughts that I knew were bullshit. "Man, Los Angeles sounds like an awesome place to be!" and "Dick Masterson is hilarious and it would be cool to hang out with such a fun and funny dude"...so I know there can be influential ideas that are bullshit but I believe it.
When I think about it doesn't make sense. I'm not "in the wrong body", I don't larp as a woman online, gay shit disgusts me, and I still think troons have generally terrible taste in video games and anime. I don't think I've watched any anime in months. A few years ago I speculated about only pretending to troon out for money (which I did not do, pretending or otherwise, though it was bad optics on my part)...but why would such a thing come up if I had no tranny disposition? Thinking emoji indeed.