A Big Update — Please Read
Posted by kiynaria - 20 hours ago
TL;DR: i'm trans go join my new discord old ones getting nuked:
https://discord.gg/7KQWE4Wn56
Hey everyone. I’ve been thinking a lot about how to share this, especially because for some of you it might feel like it came out of nowhere. Here’s the full story, with the context it deserves.
I’m changing my artist name from Lockyn to Kiynaria, and my real name from Kyle to Aria.
For people who follow casually, I totally understand why this might seem sudden. But for those who’ve been with me closely, you probably noticed I haven’t streamed or shown my face much for a long time. And there’s a reason for that.
The truth is: I’ve been struggling with how I look and how I feel in my own skin for years. This didn’t start recently — it goes all the way back to when I was around 17. A friend helped me crossdress for the first time, secretly, and at the time we both treated it like a joke or something silly “for fun.” But the way it made me feel stuck with me. It was the first time I felt a version of myself that actually made sense.
Since then, it’s been a cycle of ebbs and flows. Some days I’d feel extremely dysphoric — like I couldn’t stand how I looked or sounded or existed. Other days I’d convince myself, “No, I’m fine, I’m not trans, I feel okay today.” It was confusing, exhausting, and honestly pretty isolating.
What finally made things click was realizing something simple but huge:
cis people don’t think about this.
They don’t wake up wondering if they’re “actually okay” in their gender. They don’t have waves of dysphoria followed by denial. They don’t have this constant internal tug‑of‑war. That realization hit me hard and made everything make sense.
So this name change — both artist and personal — isn’t a rebrand or a whim. It’s me finally aligning with who I’ve always been inside. It’s me choosing honesty, stability, and a future where I don’t have to fight myself every day.
I know not everyone will understand or support this, and that’s okay. If this change makes you uncomfortable or you can’t accept it, you’re welcome to unfollow or step away. No negativity, no hard feelings.
But if you’re willing to accept it, move forward with me, or even take a moment to learn and understand — thank you. That openness means more than I can express.
I’m stepping into this next chapter as Aria / Kiynaria, and I’m excited to create again from a place that finally feels real.
Thank you for reading.
BTW: huge shoutout to Tom Fulp for helping me get my username shenanigans sorted out on NG! Thank you Tom!!
