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Went to sleep as soon as I got home from work. Now I'm going to be up until 4am shitposting and watching pointless internet bullshit. Oh well.
 
I feel weird about getting older. It's like I don't mind getting older. In fact, I like it! The older you are, the freer you are! And we get to why I don't like it, cause that's also just not true. In a perfect world it'd be true, but it's not. I'm not just talking about wage slave shit, but socially. There's only so many things you can like the older you get until it's considered "weird", I'm in my early 20s and I already get weird looks from people for reading Warrior Cats. And it feels so bs cause like I contribute to society, I'm getting an education, I help people, I'm getting a job. And that's still not enough for people ig. Picky bastards.

Tho ultimately ig it doesn't matter cause it's not like anyone's going to break into my house and send me to be drawn and quartered for collecting LPS, at worst certain people won't want to hang out with me. And when I kinda like- think about that I realize it's just not a big deal, even if I acted "Perfect female adult, only hobby is Instagram and makeup" people still wouldn't like me cause I don't like people like that and there's probably more of "me" out there. And I think all of that is ok. So ultimately this rant was pointless, thanks for reading. :)
Nick Wilde said:
up until 4am shitposting and watching pointless internet bullshit.
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I like you.
 
My apotheosis is at hand. My revised cellular biology has been confirmed; just like garfield, my cells have infinite regenerative potential. Soon enough... bullets won't work. I'm training my body to resist bigger bullets by shooting myself with smaller bullets first. I'm up to .357 now.
 
Core Theorist said:
My apotheosis is at hand. My revised cellular biology has been confirmed; just like garfield, my cells have infinite regenerative potential. Soon enough... bullets won't work. I'm training my body to resist bigger bullets by shooting myself with smaller bullets first. I'm up to .357 now.
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>not developing psychokinetic powers to jam every gun in a 10km radius
ngmi
 
Banquet Meal said:
im so scared right now..long story short, my kid started having seizures last night, they wouldnt respond to rescue medications, so we called an ambulance...they couldnt get them to stop, and we got to the ER, and STILL he was having seizures...and eventually they gave him enough drugs to kill a horse, and they did stop..but when doing an xray, his bp bottomed out, and they had to give him this stimulant to get his blood pumping..but now when they try and decrease it, his blood pressure is still tanking...even worse, the neurologist says hes completely unresponsive, and they dont know why. they think hes in septic shock, but hes not showing signs of infection, so i dont think anyone knows...they are recommending against intubation too..we are on our way up there, any good thoughts are appreciated, this is going to be a very difficult time for our family, i honestly dont even know what to do next. its all so terrifying and sad.
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Good thoughts for your family and your little one. ♥️🙏
 
Caddo Cobgang said:
honestly in comparison to the last couple months i’ve been feeling excellent like actually excellent over these past couple months, i’ve really begun to re-evaluate my beliefs, like I’ve begun to accept the fact that things don’t change over night, Nothing Ever Happens but you have the power to prepare if things happen, honestly explains why i haven’t really been posting much

In the past week ive:
started drinking water
Increasing my attention span
Eat less (not a fan of most healthy food but i’ve actually been spending less on take out and saving money instead)
learned how to shave
re-evaluated some of my economic beliefs

I honestly have realized that a lot of my grievances with life stem for the fact I was completely and utterly unprepared for adulthood, like i’m now learning things i should have learned like 10 years ago, honestly felt like I was on the verge of becoming another Terry Davis but i am starting to actually fight back against being upset all the time for the first time in like 15 years

Politically I do feel concern about things but there’s people on the left and right who are way too attentive to it, like you should pay attention at times to know what’s going on and to keep the federal government accountable

Going to up to my cousins house to watch mania this weekend with his adoptive brother and his friend, sometimes I question what my parents actually think of me but i feel at peace with whatever happens in the future, oddly enough my sister started to turn things around the same age i am now
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Any tips to help with attention span that aren't drugs?
 
Ancap Virgin said:
Any tips to help with attention span that aren't drugs?
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depends took me a long time to figure out but for me:
1. don’t be on edge about missing out things, like if you have no irl friends just say “ok”
2.figure out the things you care about the most, hobbies,religion,etc don’t let fear rule you but engage on those things to a healthy dose, do not multitask doing hobbies unless it’s music
3. try to think about why you got to where you got, the socratic method but for your actual opinion like for example think about why you hold a certain opinion and what caused you to hold these beliefs
 
I moved in, now I must return to the old abode for another two days to wash carpets, last lawn mow and spray. However, my power was still not on when I arrived at new house tonight and I was so pissed off in the dark with 3% battery left. Guy I like immediately jumped into his car to deliver lighting and power essentials even though he was tired after work and about to sleep. I didn’t ask him to, I had already accepted my fate of darkness with a joke, but he said “I’ll be there in 5 minutes” and he was. Let there be light indeed. Whatever universe I just stepped into fucking rocks.
 
PetiteFeet said:
I have to actively remind myself of this because if I don't, the soulcrushing reality of my daily life would drive me off the edge.
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I think more people than you realise feel this way.
Banquet Meal said:
my kid started having seizures last night,
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I’m so sorry. Sending you strength and thinking of you.
 
Honestly have not been doing well for a couple weeks at least. I am completely burned out at work, every minute im there is just pure boredom and torture. My sleep schedule has been completely blasted from orbit I've been getting about an hour a night.

Idk I think im just having my early life crisis (im 26) and realizing that work is going to just be painful until I retire. I need hobbies.
 
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Ancap Virgin said:
Any tips to help with attention span that aren't drugs?
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Turn off everything. Set a timer for 20 minutes. Stare at a white blank wall. You may blink but do not deviate. Do this for one week.

Each time you do this, it will get harder and you may feel dissociated when you do this. But by the 4th day you will see results as your brain begins to reset and you will concentrate better.

Do not deviate. Keep staring at the wall no matter how much you want to turn your head or move your eyes to look at something else.
 
Pargon said:
My mom died this morning. So, not the best.
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I’m so sorry. Had she been ill or was it unexpected?
Lonjil said:
I think im just having my early life crisis (im 26) and realizing that work is going to just be painful until I retire. I need hobbies.
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I had a total burnout in my mid forties. Just woke up one day and couldn’t function at work at all. Years of crushing pressure on top of being a bit of a miserable bastard and some health issues finally floored me. So in that context - you must pace yourself and have outside things to live for. That doesn’t mean ignore work - work is important as an anchor and as a means to be paid. But balance.
 
Otterly said:
Had she been ill or was it unexpected?
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Thank you for the condolences. Ill for years; Parkinson’s. So there’s a lot of suffering that’s now over, which she needed and deserved. It was a number of weeks that she clung on after she started going in and out of consciousness, so I was able to start processing, once the doctors had said that it was only a matter of time. Everyone in her life got to say goodbye to her while she was still aware of things, and she passed in the morning. Honestly, short of what led up to it, I think she got to go exactly the way she’d wanted to. It hurts, but for something inevitable I’m really glad she got the end she did, and that helps.

Mostly there’s a bit of “fuck, I hope I was a good enough kid to her” but I don’t think that’ll linger.
 
Otterly said:
Such a cruel illness. We are dealing with a family member with this at the moment, you have my sympathies.
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We were all so fucking lucky that the dementia by and large never took hold. She remembered everyone and near the end was only just confusing who was present for certain events, but otherwise she was a steel trap, which knowing her character I don’t think would’ve been something God could’ve taken from her without drawn blood.
 
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