How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

nigger of the north said:
Day 3 of dying from food poisoning/unknown viral shit. Anybody got any tips or tricks to make existence bearable?

Your kindness will be rewarded
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My family is full of doctors (I'm not, but I have an estimated guess): Hydration and antibiotics. Gimme reward (jk, I'm not that rude.)

Therapist assigned me grounding skills to do over the weekend, but I haven't done them not out of neglect but due to other shit such as sweeping the floor of the apartment (where my helicopter mom threatened that we should separate if I'm unable to do one chore and nearly gloated that my tard bux isn't sustainable for a solitary life)

It escalated when at our shitty Costco, two white women without face masks brushed past me; nearly grazing me at separate occasions and freaking out I stated "If someone brushes past me again, I'm leaving!"
Her tactful response: "Go outside then. Hey, that institution is just nearby: want me to take you there now?! You can't even stand yourself!!"
(For Context: I was sent to a mental/drug rehab center nicknamed "Holly Hell" by disgruntled residents where the ambulance also diagnosed me as 'Socially Retarded')
I then started to re-write a suicide letter, but am waiting long-term due to my upcoming medical appointments. Also wavering between despair, watching videos to distract from suicidal ideation or actual suicidal ideation....not much today.
I utterly apologize for Power leveling hard
 
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Sped Xing said:
Taking a shower all night long is very wasteful.
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I often take several hours long showers. Just browsing on my phone while hot water is running down on me. Not directly on the phone, because yes. It is water resistant, but the seals weaken over time.
Waifuwars said:
Sucks when you're always the one initiating.

Might be a bit reckless and spend some money tomorrow in an effort to quell this shitty feeling. Retail therapy is still cheaper than seeing a psychologist, ironically.
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Feels, why I rather chose to be alone. The problem isn't contacting people, but they rarely if ever initiate with me. You feel disrespected and hurt, and it's better being alone.

Before I came to peace with being alone, I was of course afraid of ending up that way. Suggesting therapy for that is retarded. It wouldn't deal with the problem. Just paying someone to "learn" me to cope with it. Sorry not sorry, that's a scam.
I burned about 4000 usd this month. Luxury stuff to my apartment. If no one is going to appreciate me, might as well larp as a rich cunt. Used way more than that, it's a project.

Workout, do skincare and being the best version of yourself. So others see what they miss, because it has already happened. With fuckers turning me down in the past, and crawled back at me after I began improving myself. Even had one beg me with "But you liked me so much before", should thought of that before.
When others gets old and ugly, I get better looking. Best feeling ever and the best way to "kill" them legally.




Just set up Brave browser, in hopes of donating bats to dear leader Because well, me donating real money is a bit naive. Even though I really want T&H badge.
As ChromeCast only works with Chrome. Only going to stream stuff with Chrome.

Last few workouts have been "bad". Experimented with the sunscreens I bought, and lo and behold. Both were the kind you can't apply around the eyes, because it stings. And make my nose stuffed and runny.
Sir, I'm not sick. It's sunscreen.
 
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Feelin fine. Went to lunch today had a burger with what I thought was a very tangy dipping sauce, turns out it was spoiled and now I have the liquid shit fire.

6/10

Can't tell if lonely or bored.
 
verygayFrogs said:
Super touch starved
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You may look into dakimakura's :)
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Meat Target said:
I ran 2 miles in the morning, then 3 miles in the evening, plus leg day.
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Are you already pretty fit? It sounds like a lot.
 
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Waifuwars said:
Been feeling a bit restless and anxious. Mg fourth of July weekend plans have gone kaput so I'm trying to wrangle something up to do, but a certain someone has been pretty unresponsive and I shouldn't push my luck with them. Sucks when you're always the one initiating.

Might be a bit reckless and spend some money tomorrow in an effort to quell this shitty feeling. Retail therapy is still cheaper than seeing a psychologist, ironically.
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Sigh I’m always on the same situation so I get what you mean. Accepting the fact it’s ok to be alone is a way to live in peace with it but I still go back to reaching out to people and initiating.

I was about to just be on my own for the 4th but managed to get somebody to hang out with. The rest of my friend group is mostly going on over our chat about how they are all depressed and don’t wanna hang or do stuff due to it. I feel like I might have ended up pairing up with a lot of somber people in college I don’t know but it’s crazy how 3 of my friends already admitted they are taking meds and going through therapy.
 
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Tired, angry, depressed, the world is going to Hell and yet there are still so many people asleep to it. Temptation to buy junkfood is there. Not worth the the weight gain or health issues, resisting the urg to buy. The weed isn't working like it used to. I assume I have had too much and for too long, it used to ease my anixety, anger and depression now it barely affects it. I am not hopeful for the future.
 
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nekrataal said:
My neighbor gave me his dog because he decided he wants a burmese python. I feel bad because she’s waiting for her owner to come back.
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What kind of doggo?

Also on my end changed my day yesterday, nothing happened. Fireworks are annoying as shit and I'm coming to terms with that I'm a shit human being and people are faking nice because I'm depressed. It sucks knowing my asshole brother and racist grandma are more wanted than I am. But hey, I have sparkly anime boy clouding my brain
 
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I feel very happy right now. Recently I'd been feeling out of place where I am, but in a short period of time I've more or less made, depending on how you look at, three or five new friends. What I found is that some people I knew but didn't hang out with - people who I'd interacted with positively many times, but had been somewhat shy to invite to things - were eager to do things with me, and then there were some I met that seemed to appreciate my style of goofy, high-energy interaction that others seemed to stick their noses up at. It's like I've kind of realized all of a sudden that you can make friends easily if you just choose to be happy and let whoever wants to come to you come to you.
 
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