How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Cheerlead-in-Chief]

It's unfortunate in many instances that personality is largely influenced by genetics. Being mentally aberrant often comes with having mentally aberrant parents. Doesn't help. Further, like attracts like so you're probably gravitating towards mentally aberrant people because those are the people you can most easily relate to. Remember no one is entitled to honesty, this is something expected when we cooperate not when someone wants to hurt you or doesn't care.
Tell your mom what she needs to hear. Tell everyone what they need to hear. Find the least fucked up person who will hear you out and stay next to them. Good luck.

Thank you so much, unfortunately she's not a fan of how I say things and instantly detects my anger.
Her stellar advice: "It's better to be silent and to not hurt other's feelings"

The only idea I have now is to discuss with the therapist on anger management; oh and I'm told to "not curse to the therapist because it's disrespectful when I assumed that it was venting. And in my first session she made me apologize to the therapist for the grave sin of being bilingual and speaking Spanish at home, and having to excuse myself since she yelled at me in said language. I'm dead serious: My mom deliberately taught me to be bilingual "So I can get closer to my roots." and it's now a horrible thing.

 

[Sped Xing]

Didn't work out with the lady.
Been on a speed-fueled drunken binge the last two days.
I'm ok.

I read that as "sped-fueled chicken binge," which would have probably been better.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Max went and injured Wallop. It's not awful. There's no skin broken or anything, but there's a fuck ton of missing fur and inflamed skin. I took vet science so I tried to wrap it. But for an old cat he's. Incredibly wiggly and I know he won't let me try again. I just... he's an old cat. An infection would be bad, and an abcess would be. Well. Nasty.
So I'm worried about my old man

 

[Catman from cat town]

I hung out with my sister and ended up having dinner with her and my mom. It was great!
My anxiety is still there but not as much as it was a week ago. I’m trying to improve my self-esteem one day at a time. Today, I wrote down the stuff I accomplished and next to it a smiley face because it’s something I want to be proud of myself for.

 

[Shameimaru Aya]

Wrist has recovered from a minor injury coming from me being dumb enough to think drawing nonstop for 9 hours is a good idea. While I'm eager to get back into drawing, I will probably try to take it a bit easier for a while.

Am also compiling a workout plan to maintain a good enough body so that if shit ever hits the fan and I don't get accepted into Uni, I can still enlist into the Army and pass the Physical requirements. It's not a glamorous solution, but it beats doing fuckall with my life.

 

[Meat Target]

People have never met their political idol (Biden, Trump) and yet devote their entire lives to them, defend them, donate to them, are entirely emotionally tired up with hem, lose friends over them and go to the grave for them.

And they get fucking nothing. So does he really have to meet someone for it to be real?

As they say, don't meet your heroes.

 

[Jonah Hill poster]

Today I was not really liking the vast amount of peer pressure for government agencies to now force mask mandates on people for fully vaccinated individuals, while gaslighting unvaccinated individuals to get the vaccine or they’ll lose what’s left of their personal freedoms.

I’m already vaccinated so I can’t do anything about it, but I don’t think it’s okay to force people to do something that they’re not comfortable to do, at least when it’s publically manipulating individuals to get it when they don’t really need it.

 

[Meat Target]

I hate July and August.

 

[Vapid_Idiot]

Today I was not really liking the vast amount of peer pressure for government agencies to now force mask mandates on people for fully vaccinated individuals, while gaslighting unvaccinated individuals to get the vaccine or they’ll lose what’s left of their personal freedoms.

I’m already vaccinated so I can’t do anything about it, but I don’t think it’s okay to force people to do something that they’re not comfortable to do, at least when it’s publically manipulating individuals to get it when they don’t really need it.

Yeah, I have been having anxiety that one of the big conspiracy angles will be true, either us vaxxed are fucked, or the unvaxxed are fucked, or we are all fucked. The fact that governments, CDC, and WHO keep fucking up and changing everything and contradicting themselves should be alarming to everyone, regardless of their political views or stances on vaccines.

 

[Morch Ponkey]

Yeah, I have been having anxiety that one of the big conspiracy angles will be true, either us vaxxed are fucked, or the unvaxxed are fucked, or we are all fucked. The fact that governments, CDC, and WHO keep fucking up and changing everything and contradicting themselves should be alarming to everyone, regardless of their political views or stances on vaccines.

Always remember bro, if they were winning this propaganda would be unecessary.

You should see that type of shit as acts of desperation. They don't come from a position of strength.

It is a sign that their power and influence are waning.

We are gonna make it.

 

[naaaaiiiiillllll!!!]

It's hot here.
Take a shower? Fuck you you're just going to sweat more. Be gross and suffer

This might sound silly/retarded, but I figured out a way to cool down in retard-hot climates fairly well. Try laying/taking a nap in a hammock:

https://www.amazon.com/Vivere-Double-Hammock-Space-Saving-Tropical/dp/B004YJCP7O

I have this exact model hammock (comes with the stand and everything) and you can be in 90+ deg F weather, but as long as there's a breeze (or better yet a fan) blowing on you while in it, you will start shivering (at that point, turn off fan and you can stay perfectly comfortable). Whole thing comes apart and fits into a duffle bag, which is just awesome (better than an air mattress IMO as a backup/portable bed when not being used to cool off). There is an art to using it (you have to lay diagonally and on your back to get a flat profile and relieve pressure points), but once you get it right, it's amazing.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Thought that I'm putting my life back on track, turns out I was merely choosing between two evils.

 

[Carnavoyeur]

After my ex's brother messaged me saying he and his dad didn't know where my ex was, guess who texted me the next day from a new phone. I told him everyone here's fine and I'm glad he's okay but I don't want to talk. He left me some voicemails that were obviously bait to try to get me to talk but I didn't respond. I know better now. I'm not going to fall for his dramatic games and give him the opportunity to love bomb me and then treat me like shit after a while. I think about him a lot. I miss him a lot. But I gave him too many chances and he fucked up all of them. I hope he gets better someday.

I had another date with the nice guy today. This was date #3 and I'm still all shy and nervous and full of butterflies. He's so sweet and adorable and totally not the type of guy I usually go for, but I really dig hanging out with him and he's an amazing kisser, jeez Louise. It's really nice having someone to go on calm, casual dates with instead of falling head over heels and immediately jumping into a relationship.

Nicotine cravings have been pretty bad lately. I haven't bought a pack of cigarettes since February but I've bummed a few and I'll have a cigarillo when I'm drinking (haven't been able to shake the urge to smoke while drinking yet). For the last week or so I keep finding myself wanting to smoke during what used to be regular smoking times for me, like right after waking up, eating or taking a shower and during breaks at work. Yet no cravings any other times. Weird. This is the longest I've quit and the first time I've gotten these kinds of cravings so I'm not sure what's causing them. It's not like this is the first time I've been stressed out since February.

 

[Vingle]

Thank you so much, unfortunately she's not a fan of how I say things and instantly detects my anger.
Her stellar advice: "It's better to be silent and to not hurt other's feelings"

The only idea I have now is to discuss with the therapist on anger management; oh and I'm told to "not curse to the therapist because it's disrespectful when I assumed that it was venting. And in my first session she made me apologize to the therapist for the grave sin of being bilingual and speaking Spanish at home, and having to excuse myself since she yelled at me in said language. I'm dead serious: My mom deliberately taught me to be bilingual "So I can get closer to my roots." and it's now a horrible thing.

I admire your patience with her. If she doesn't want to correcting her, then she can stop being a passive-aggressive cunt. I guess that's what's meant when not being a fan of the way you say things.
But it's surprising that the therapist didn't say anything, because it was full-on child abuse.

Worked out for almost 4 hours in the gym yesterday. Squatted 5kg/11lbs more than before the rona shut down the gym, and now my butt is slightly sore. There is a unique happiness for that

 

[JustSomeDong]

This might sound silly/retarded, but I figured out a way to cool down in retard-hot climates fairly well. Try laying/taking a nap in a hammock:

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https://www.amazon.com/Vivere-Double-Hammock-Space-Saving-Tropical/dp/B004YJCP7O

I have this exact model hammock (comes with the stand and everything) and you can be in 90+ deg F weather, but as long as there's a breeze (or better yet a fan) blowing on you while in it, you will start shivering (at that point, turn off fan and you can stay perfectly comfortable). Whole thing comes apart and fits into a duffle bag, which is just awesome (better than an air mattress IMO as a backup/portable bed when not being used to cool off). There is an art to using it (you have to lay diagonally and on your back to get a flat profile and relieve pressure points), but once you get it right, it's amazing.

Hammocks are awesome. I have an almost identical hammock, but grey and black. I recommend everyone have one on their patio. I have a covered patio and deck so I enjoy relaxing in it during storms. Super Zen mode.

 

[Cheerlead-in-Chief]

Forgot to mention: Celebrities that have anxiety my mom has a bleeding heart over Simone Byles, and Justin Bieber. "You must have compassion for them and their struggles, and Simone was sexually molested by Nassar!"

Me: She admitted yesterday that she refuses to talk to me because of the "hurtful things I say"

"Do you want to end up like your father's sisters that are hated?!"
Hell, even a sarcastic statement to her is as bad as a slur.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Old man's off to the vet
Good luck old asshole.

 

[Гиджет]

Finally decided to have a neighbor’s derelict Ford Expedition towed by the sheriff from in front of my mailbox after 5 weeks of not receiving mail. Turns out the dude has expired registration since April 2020, no insurance, five warrants, and more drug paraphernalia than Studio 54 back in the day.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Update. Wallop is fine, he just has some naked leg going on

 

[Catman from cat town]

I believe I’m doing a good job at raising my self-esteem and confidence. I still feel upset about the breakup but that pain isn’t that bad anymore. I’m pretty sure I have a gym routine now and I didn’t cry afterwards so the good brain chemicals are really working.