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I hate that my old gym closed significantly more now, now I'm going to a cheaper gym because it's the only option which isn't a pain to get to and I've realized that as much as rich people could be annoying, the visibly poor are much worse. I miss the days when the worst I had to experience is some thots hogging the leg areas, and guys with dumb ideas about lower body exercise.

There's a segment of the cheaper gym that brings kitchen rags to wipe down the equipment, and I've never seen people sticking their paper towel in their pocket before going here. At the same time I see and have experienced people screaming at those without masks with the elegance of homeless crackheads.
 
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TheSockiestSock said:
Drinking desire rising.
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I've been feeling that too for different reasons. I don't drink for personal reasons, but sometimes my current job makes me want to. Granted, I'm getting laid off soon and I'm genuinely thrilled about it like I've said before, but I hate dealing with entitled pricks. Most people are exhausting to deal with. Especially since nearly everyone has their trusty victim card at the ready.

I won't make this a big rant or get too preachy, but I really think most Americans have a serious case of affluenza. They take too much for granted. If even something like COVID or a recession doesn't snap them out of it, I somehow doubt World War III or an asteroid would either.

Then again, maybe I'm just cynical and jaded these days. Sometimes, I don't know anymore.
 
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Shitted Scaredless said:
Its me, I'm the tard. I meant how do I convince myself I'm fine.
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Uncle Joe's no-shit answer: You are far better off than many, if not most people. Just look around you. Lots of people far worse off, guaranteed. Think about what you have and what you have going for you. "I cried because I had no shoes, then I met a man who had no feet." Every time I think I have it tough, I am quickly brought back to reality, seeing/learning of others who are much worse off.
 
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Still dealing with the aftermaths of anxiety attacks (mainly the feeling of existential dread, often over nothing) and fighting the urge to go back on meds. Ordered CBD to see if that'll help.

Even if I wanted to go back on meds I'd have to go see the doc and get yelled at for everything, and schedule a day off of work using one day of the pitiful PTO my shitty employer so graciously allows us to have.
 
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JosephStalin said:
Uncle Joe's no-shit answer: You are far better off than many, if not most people. Just look around you. Lots of people far worse off, guaranteed. Think about what you have and what you have going for you. "I cried because I had no shoes, then I met a man who had no feet." Every time I think I have it tough, I am quickly brought back to reality, seeing/learning of others who are much worse off.
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I totally agree. Thank you for your wisdom.

There have been plenty of times in my life when I thought no one had it tougher or shittier than me. Granted most of the drama in my past was almost always self-induced. Living between a rock and a tough place sucks balls, but it's not the worse place a person can end up. I had a good friend who used to say, "your sad story and 50 cents can get you a cup of coffee anywhere in town."

I'm at the age now were I honestly count my blessings every day. Getting close to death as I did back in September brought it all home for me. Being alive, breathing, watching the sun rise and set are just two of the things I enjoy immensely. I have put the petty back and forth political, class warfare, sports, etc.. in the rearview mirror. I enjoy my time with my wife, family, and my dogs. In the end, that's what I came home to when I left the hospital.
 
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I have been going everyday to the gym for a little while now, and I can already tell It's good for me. Usually I lack the energy to do daily tasks, but it feels kind of easier now.
It feels good to just zone out too, since I've been somewhat "down" lately. I easily use about 3-4 hours on my non-cardio days.

I have more progress too, as I can lift more + less noticeable sore after including cardio.
 
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A huge wave of depression wanted to crash onto me earlier this week but I've managed to keep it almost away by making the most of my days anyways. Just taking everything a little slower, allowing myself a few more breaks etc. It might be a weird thing to say - but I'm honestly little proud of myself for not letting it pull me under this time and still being productive all throughout this week.
 
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Just trying to get by. I still feel depressed about the fact that I'm nearly 30, yet still live with my parents, can't hold down a proper full-time job to save my life, and tend to waste my money on things like food and video games. Like, I know I should act more mature for my age, yet its hard to let go of the stuff I still enjoy.

I have started to write stuff though, so that does help my mood a bit.
 
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Obsessing and reading into all the terrible stuff. Seems to be my new obsession. Retard conspiracy shit. Regardless if it's real or not. I am addicted to the negativity and yet wonder why I feel so devastatingly depressed all the time. Despite it consuming my soul, it fills a void. I'm taking steps to improve my life: therapy, exercising, improving diet. But I just cannot stop consuming negative shit. Most conversations I seemingly hijack and nosedive with cynicism and vitriol. Infecting and spreading my poisonous views on the world in a bid to awaken people to 'the truth' and reality. It is clear I am heavily projecting my shadow and tragicly believing it to be an act of heroism. All I am doing is burning bridges and driving wedges between my loved ones. I have support from friends and family, an objectively good life, no abnormal amounts of suffering compared to others. Yet I am laser focused on everything that's bad. Blind to the good.
 
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Doing pretty good :) From Hawaii and we just got absolutely fucked by COVID cuz tourism fuels pretty much everything here. 2020 and 2021 were really rough but tourism is coming back and being a waiter pays decent enough while I go to college. You get shitty bacon-burnt Karens once in a while but generally they tip pretty well. Locals are actually more often cheap assholes LOL. Weather is always nice here, but a lot of tourists hate that we don’t have AC indoors. Welcome to Hawai’i LMAO
 
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I've always found it difficult to square the concept of a General Discussion subforum (particularly regarding topics such as this) with things such as hiding your powerlevel and the concept of halal. The two would seem largely incompatible at first glance.
 
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