How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Clitonium]

You sleep with that chick who everyone hates and was trauma dumping?

No.

 

[Core Theorist]

I'm full of yogurt and various forms of meat and carbohydrates, so I got a full belly, it's warm and toasty inside while it's cold outside, and I'm wearing my favorite pair of jammies. I'm reading about California getting what it deserves, I had a nice session in Skyrim of cutting people's heads off, and I've been feeling good about my little CGI hobby. Life is fucking great, this is a level of comfy that shouldn't even be possible!

I finished that tub of vanilla yogurt, and now I have strawberry-banana yogurt!

I open up the lid...

I tear off the film...

...It's got chunks in it...!

Still tastes good though. Yey! Chunks always just looks weird and unappetizing but I can thug that shit out.

...Am I eating too much yogurt?

 

[Soup ‘n’ Salad]

Had my first day of work today and finally got my schedule for the month… they’re gonna have me flip-flopping between first and second shift, which isn’t ideal but I guess I just gotta LOCK IN

 

[Mandy Stroyer]

I hope every single person involved with the medicaid site for my state kills themselves. I truly believe it was designed and maintained shitty on purpose to deter people from getting coverage. If I die of a treatable disease because they keep giving me fucking error codes for just ticking a box, someone find the dev and shit on their doorstep.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

Have had a few days to myself and haven't done much with them, kind of disappointed.
I find this happens every time I have some break or stretch of time when I can be productive, I usually end up failing miserably. It feels like only deadlines can motivate me to do anything.

Maybe I should set goals for myself, or maybe not buy food or something when I haven't done the shit I should be doing. Idk.

Granted, it feels nice to sit around and play Elden Ring for a few days but I often think back to times when I've done a lot of work in a short span of time, and I wonder how much time I've wasted on bullshit. Sometimes that extends to this place as well, but at the very least this place requires very little time or serious attention to enjoy.

People have different rhythms. Some are naturally disciplined or naturally diligent, and some need to practice it more and consciously work on it. I go faster, harder, better when immediate pressure is on, and I can crank. But when pressure is off, I feel like, enh...I could that tomorrow. I have learned - and am now in a state of continuous improvement for - how to keep slogging when the pressure is off. But it's taken a lot of intention and making myself do the daily planning and habits.

And I will say that keeping going and some momentum before the high-intensity stuff strikes is fantastic. Bc then when critical things hit I am not now also running up against what once were low-key deadlines/obligations and then stuck cursing myself for not taking care of basic business when I had the time. Result: clear conscience and sense of accomplishment - and getting shit done, clutch or otherwise, without panic.

So all of that is to say, understand your rhythms and accept them, but push to improve, and develop some regular look-ahead and planning habits - and stick to them even when you don't want to (and DON'T LET THE PERFECT BE THE ENEMY OF THE GOOD). Forgive yourself for dropping the ball, but also remind yourself how miserable it is when a ball-drop happens. And remember the costs of doing that - both internal and external.

I'd also say to check for any internal negative criticism. Listen to your thoughts and what you tell yourself all day long. If that's potentially going on, it might be useful to figure out where it's coming from and make big efforts to stop it. Imagine experiencing days without guilt/having a clear conscience bc you know you've spent your time well. Not necessarily perfectly, but respectably.

And if you're not giving yourself credit when you do accomplish things, pause a second when you do even a minor thing and give yourself an acknowledgment. It may inspire to do another little thing, who knows.

 

[Lance 45]

I keep putting off making hair for my newer 3D character models. Then I kick myself because if I spent less time stressing out over it, they'd be finished by now and I could move on to the next thing I wanted to make without keeping these on the back burner anymore.

Looking up guides for different techniques has been a mixed bag with few really going into detail about a workflow and just skipping to the finished piece. Sure its just a hobby but at least I have something unique to show for it when all is said and done.

 

[Betonhaus]

...I'm aware I'm a dumbass but sometimes it still catches me off guard.

In October I took apart my computer desk and replaced the system I was using with a laptop that had everything wired to it by a Thunderbolt port. That way when I travel for work i can bring my laptop with me
Ever since then I have been dealing with a computer that would have video playback stutter during downloading and have a really annoying problem of not connecting to all the monitors when waking from sleep, requiring me to constantly unplug and plug in the thunderbolt cable in the different ports until it finally starts working again, which has been wearing out the ports and making them more fussy. Alongside that i've been messing with my server trying to figure out a way to do remote game streaming so that i could still play all my games, resorting to putting my old desktop by the server to use that.

in the past four months I have not once used the laptop unplugged, and since i changed jobs i no longer travel for work, making this entire headache 100% pointless.

 

[666NASTYFUCKINGFREAK666]

virgin incel: hates women because they won't fuck him
chad incel: hates women because the manager delegated his timesheet signings/approval to a woman and she fucked up my timesheet by editing it so that my holiday day off on the 31st was an 8 hour work day (it was not.) and then signing it a day before payday and not telling me (so I can sign it as well) so my paycheck isn't in my bank account right now.

Well... time to pull $500 out of my emergency savings (retard) and buy the monitors I wanted... Atleast I don't depend on my job for income, though.

 

[BABANGUIDE64]

she fucked up my timesheet by editing it so that my holiday day off on the 31st was an 8 hour work day (it was not.) and then signing it a day before payday and not telling me (so I can sign it as well) so my paycheck isn't in my bank account right now.

Why don't you tell the manager about it?

 

[666NASTYFUCKINGFREAK666]

Why don't you tell the manager about it?

I did a couple hours ago, hes looking into it.

 

[Pierre D'Olnique]

Coworker looked suicidal today. Didn't want to answer why. Found out that on January 3rd, he and his wife went for a scheduled fetal ultrasound. The machine detected heart and kidney abnormalities along with limb deformation. First time in mu life I've felt so completely stupefied. How do you even comfort a person receiving such grave news? Hope that the readings were wrong?

The readings were wrong. A second scan at a different facility revealed no abnormalities. The future dad barely had the energy to tell us.

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

Trying to figure out how to combine a fairly dark plot with a design meant to be a homage to game I adore. To elaborate:

Still writing out that personal story idea on my end; managed to get a plot idea all figured out and I decided to go ahead and make it a full story instead of a one-shot, so that's been fun. Basically, think a more grounded "urban fantasy" plot, with our protagonist tracking down various types of supernaturals and dealing with the aftermath of their incidents, like tracking down a paranormal serial killer in Seattle. My main issue right now is, unironically, the protagonist's design; the only idea I can think of was a design that's a homage to a rather light-hearted fantasy game I used to play, so I'm left trying to figure out how in the hell I'm suppose to get that to work.

The readings were wrong. A second scan at a different facility revealed no abnormalities. The future dad barely had the energy to tell us.

So, is the baby going to be okay? What about the mother; is she alright?

 

[WhatInTheActualFuck]

Had my first day of work today and finally got my schedule for the month… they’re gonna have me flip-flopping between first and second shift, which isn’t ideal but I guess I just gotta LOCK IN

Yeah, new guy always gets the short end of the stick when it comes to that kinda shit. Just gotta keep at it until you aren't the new guy any more.

 

[Pierre D'Olnique]

So, is the baby going to be okay? What about the mother; is she alright?

Everything is fine, they were simply both exhausted beyond belief. Like, he told us and almost broke down crying from happiness and relief.

 

[BABANGUIDE64]

I'm being obsessed with a female coworker for several months. I understood recently that I couldn't convince myself that I had no sympathies towards her. She's a nice girl but she's in relationship with another man and I was unlucky to lose my heart to her. Maybe she has sympathies towards me too but I suppose it is merely my overreaction to her every day behaviour.
Having such sentiments and understanding unhealthiness of these aggrieves me and it feels like a punishment but not a moralistic one. It's making me more lonesome, it's making me more resentful, it's making me even worse of a person I've been until recently, not better. I don't like it and I don't understand why I'm like this and how to get out from this fen.

 

[Clitonium]

No.

I have blocked her. I am moving on, expanding my horizons.

Life is getting better.

 

[JosephStalin]

Been a while since I posted anything here. Had left retina fixed surgically in August. Went well. Have a cataract in the same eye which will be coming out in the spring. Seeing doctor next month, going to have him check both eyes for cataracts, have him take out one at a time. Otherwise hanging in there. No doctor's appointments this month than back at it come 1 February, basically routine. Allergies up some since due to the rains the place is greening up and, as always, some things are in bloom and releasing pollen. Lots of people sick with allergies.

My urologist retired, seeing a new one in March.

Went to the commissary yesterday. Found the jumbo eggs I usually get going for $7.83/dozen, highest ever seen in my lifetime. Dozen lasts me 2-3 weeks so no big deal.

 

[Local Wordmason]

Been dealing with a lot of mental shit for the past few years, but I'm making improvements. 2024 was actually quite a productive year for me personal growth wise. Been trying to quit smoking as much weed so I can actually enjoy it again, and to stop using it as a crutch. I'll probably try to go all of February and maybe March without. I've been slowly working myself up to a point where I no longer need to be on an SSRI as well, its crazy how emotionally numb you can feel on them, which has its uses if you're overwhelmed. It's worth saying that not being on them makes me feel "myself" again, almost like a nostalgic feeling as if you went someplace you haven't been in years. I'm still getting used to wrangling my untethered emotions, but it does feel like I'm getting there by learning to be in control of my thoughts with practice. I even downloaded a mood tracker app on my phone, so I'm interested to find out what patterns I see and what insights they give me. I started 2024 at around 240lbs, and today I am down to 200lbs which is always a good thing. All it took was an adjustment to my eating habits. All I really need is a good job that I'm happy with, or at the very least doesn't make me want to kill myself. It'll improve my life even more by getting paid well and having shit like benefits and some kind of retirement plan. At that point, I think I can actually feel like I am where I want to be for someone turning 30 this year.

My 2025 goals are: I would like to buy a decent car that I can rely on for a while without being a money sink, have zero debt, and have a job that I plan on staying with long term. I hope 2025 is good for all of us. Godspeed Kiwis.

 

[TheRedChair]

How I'm doing? Been one of "those" days.

Heh...

 

[Frederica Bernkastel]

I hope every single person involved with the medicaid site for my state kills themselves.

I would just call them at this point or go in person. It's better to deal with a human being when dealing with the government than technology. You just have to make sure the person you're talking to is sympathetic. A lot of them can be really retarded foreigners or independent contractors so you ought to be persistent when dealing with them.