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Was crying for no reason other than hormones. Younger brother got me cheerios. He's a good kid.
Maybe you should eat vegetables or anything that's healthy, when you got these periods? Because unhealthy shit do fuck up the mood, look at deathfats.
Roasted and salted sunflower seeds is quite nice, or nuts. But be careful with too much nuts, as they're quite calorie dense.
 
Maybe you should eat vegetables or anything that's healthy, when you got these periods? Because unhealthy shit do fuck up the mood, look at deathfats.
Roasted and salted sunflower seeds is quite nice, or nuts. But be careful with too much nuts, as they're quite calorie dense.
I would, but my allergies are fucked. I can't eat a majority of healthy things without cooking them, and when they are cooked my body rejects them due to texture aversion due to being autistic. So I just tend to only eat dinner and sometimes a couple snacks in the day.
 
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I would, but my allergies are fucked. I can't eat a majority of healthy things without cooking them, and when they are cooked my body rejects them due to texture aversion due to being autistic. So I just tend to only eat dinner and sometimes a couple snacks in the day.
What about the minority of things you can eat? :thinking:
 
My week's been kinda shit with some good mixed in. Alternator on my car went kaput so I had to work outside in the negative weather to fix that, ate some gas station food that gave the worst case of the shits I've had in 10 years on the jobsite, and my gf's dad convinced me to do the electrical on the cabin he's building this summer. Dude just knows he has to throw a few boxes of ammo my way and I'll do pretty much anything.
 
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One of the people I was closest to on this site has decided not to use it anymore. I'm not sure how to feel about that. Otherwise it seems like my life is more or less the same more or less.
 
One of the people I was closest to on this site has decided not to use it anymore. I'm not sure how to feel about that. Otherwise it seems like my life is more or less the same more or less.
I’m going to assume that individual is @Blamo?
 
What about the minority of things you can eat? :thinking:
Well it ends up being calorie or carb dense, especially my favorite things. Like spaghetti. What I can eat isn't exactly healthy things but I'm trying to figure something out.
 
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Got fired just before Christmas. In a year of setbacks and constant hits in the face over my old habits, that had to hit me perhaps the hardest and right before I had one hell of a paycheck to look forward to.
I've got a skill and certification so I got employed again in basically 3 days so money isn't an issue. I filed my appeal a bit too late and my boss ended up in tears over it like a bad breakup so I doubt I'd want to ever work with her again anyway so I don't really have any regrets over that. Mainly, I'm just sad over the girls there and one in particular who really liked me. I spent the year reeling over a breakup from the 2020 holidays from a previous coworker that I had a hard time getting over and honestly, this kid (just turned 21) and her little clique helped me move past it just by being so stubborn about getting to know me. I never seem able to solidify my feelings with these girls I meet for whatever reason but at least we both knew it was mutual.
I mainly just hope I get to see her again. I know now that my main issue is clinging on to the past too much so I won't anymore. Hopefully, I'll meet someone new and I'll be man enough to actually follow through on a relationship that I want and to keep a job that makes me comfortable.
 
I'm so stressed out and exhausted lately. Nothing seems to want to work out, and my anxiety disorder and depression are in overdrive making it so much worse. To top it off, I haven't been feeling well, so I'm just a 24/7 mess right now. Nothing really seems to make it better, so I'm just kind of coasting and hoping things improve on their own.. or something. idk.

I did get my little happy lamp (for seasonal affective disorder) that I got for Christmas set up, so maybe I'll spend some time under that and see if it helps me feel more like a human being. Fingers crossed.
 
Scenario in image didn’t happen but I’m feeling just like it just happened.
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Going to the gym in a few hours, finally not too sore anymore. I'm not even fit in the cardio department yet, but I've still noticed that I have begun to eat a little bit more. This is good news, as I'm 6 feet/183 cm and only 154 lbs/70 kg. On the other side, I need to be more coordinated about when I make food. And I'm lazy.

I don't want to be a dainty boi *sigh*
 
Going to the gym in a few hours, finally not too sore anymore. I'm not even fit in the cardio department yet, but I've still noticed that I have begun to eat a little bit more. This is good news, as I'm 6 feet/183 cm and only 154 lbs/70 kg. On the other side, I need to be more coordinated about when I make food. And I'm lazy.

I don't want to be a dainty boi *sigh*
Anything Nicocado can do you can do better.
 
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I'm constantly pissed off, and keep getting angrier. I see so much evil going on in the world, much of it a repeat of events from earlier times-- but with a technological twist.

I can't help but notice how freedom of speech has been crushed online in so many places. There is so much people aren't allowed to say nowadays.

I long for the internet of the 1990s, where you could at least attempt to get some useful information from well-meaning people.

I keep hoping for some "good news", but I don't see any good ending in sight.
 
My uncle came down with the 'cron last week, and then today my mom woke up with some kind of coughing, scratchy throat, funk. Now I'm feeling far more achey than I usually am after a Sunday workout and I'm super tired. I've not been sick since the end of 2019 so I'm gonna be so goddamn mad if the Coof has finally come for me.
 
I'm constantly pissed off, and keep getting angrier. I see so much evil going on in the world, much of it a repeat of events from earlier times-- but with a technological twist.

I can't help but notice how freedom of speech has been crushed online in so many places. There is so much people aren't allowed to say nowadays.

I long for the internet of the 1990s, where you could at least attempt to get some useful information from well-meaning people.

I keep hoping for some "good news", but I don't see any good ending in sight.
There’s nothing you or I can do about it. Things will eventually even out, all we can do is live out our best lives and rise above it all.
 
There’s nothing you or I can do about it. Things will eventually even out, all we can do is live out our best lives and rise above it all.
Yeah that’s pretty much what I had to do in order to not be a nihilistic pessimist. Holy shit the world is so screwed up. And it’s been that way forever, but technology lets us put humans to a microscope and it’s hard to have faith in the human race after being online for nearly 20 years.

Watching the internet go from being something businesses, schools, and nerds use, to it being integrated to the daily lives of everyone is how it shifted into the mockery it is now. Can’t have freedom of speech when there’s the potential for things to go viral and the wrong audience catching wind. Now most websites are an echo chamber, and when someone goes against whatever narrative is being pushed, they’re accused of being nazis.

Anyways. I hope everyone feels better. I have been feeling like garbage for a long time over my own imperfections, and with my 30th birthday closing in I feel the need to have some miraculous metamorphosis over night.

I always put too much pressure on my future self and don’t work hard enough in the present. Or maybe I just don’t work smart enough.
 
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