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I'm going to be working Christmas day, but I honestly don't mind too much. And I've got a three week trip to Japan and South Korea to look forward to in January, so that's good. I've got a big stack of Yen and Won sitting in my safe, and the flights and hotels booked. Now I just have to wait...
So that means you get to enjoy historical areas/neighborhoods and delicious food. Oh, how I envy you. Have a great vacation!! :)
 
I wish death on every single construction worker on earth, three years of this shit now, right next door. Never expected they'd start to gentrify this particular shit part of town, can't wait for the ensuing chaos when middle-class people move here and are confronted heads-on with all the gypsies and shitskins, that is what they voted for. Six houses in a 100m radius are getting worked on, unreal.

Apart from that, i'm having some good days.
 
So that means you get to enjoy historical areas/neighborhoods and delicious food. Oh, how I envy you. Have a great vacation!! :)
Well, the trip to Korea is only for one day on the way back. The best flight options I could find were with Korean Air, since the only direct flight from the UK go to Tokyo rather than Fukuoka, I'm going via Seoul, so I don't have to bother going through immigration and airport security until I'm at my final destination.
But the return flights all had long layover at Incheon, and since there was a 24 hour layover option, I thought I might as well make a day out of it. My main plan for Seoul is to see the statue of Yi Sun Shin in Gwanghwamun Plaza, and after that, the plan is mostly shopping and restaurants.
Since my boss is Korean, I'll probably be a good idea to get him something too.

Pics! Currency is cool.
Always happy to show off cool stuff.
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I got a job interview Friday for a teaching position. I included on my resume that I am a social studies teacher and applied for their social studies opening, but they are having me demo a language arts lesson. Hopefully that just means that I will be teaching both.
 
I had a horrible nightmare last night. One of those that wasn't about clearly impossible things so it takes a minute after waking up to realize it never happened. I was dreaming that something possessed me to snark about DEI shit at work on normie social media. Despite not even mentioning where it was or ever interacting with coworkers, it was found, commented on, and shared by ~10 terminally online people within seconds, and had a manager raging about "shitbags like you making the world unsafe for my trans kid" with a nastygram text from work in about 30 seconds.

I woke up and realized I'd absolutely suspect those people of doing exactly those things. Which is why I don't do that.
 
Thinking of leaving my girlfriend of about a year and a few months. She's been job-hopping thrice in the time I'm with her and there's always the excuse of "muh mental health" and "I can't today". Kind of more than tired picking up her tab.

Have an interview for a new job confirmed too after a delay on their side, and leaving my current workplace. Also an architect lady I met online earlier this year wants me all for herself, so that's a big plus.
 
I got a job at a local fast food franchise, went in Friday last week to start my training, manager decided to dip out after a few hours without checking in on me or planning out anything else further. I gave my number and a message of "Bro wtf" essentially on Saturday, didn't hear back at all, had to make another call today. Now someone is getting the GM involved because it's pretty obnoxious how a new hire can't even be put through proper onboarding/training procedures.

I put in applications to some other places (most of them remote jobs), better to keep myself open than anything else at this point. It's disappointing too when I consider the fact that the job offer I accepted isn't even that bad, $14.50/hr with benefits? Of course I'm gonna sign the fuck up, so I'm really hoping everything actually gets sorted out the way it should. Which, it should, it's just stressful as fuck.
 
I'm on leave from work, and can't get back into the system to work again, i have to pay a $200 fine by Tuesday, my electric bill is due, and my web development project is due in two days. Been up all night, sleeping 3-4 hours and trying to finish my project while bugging our tech staff to hurry up and get my work ID to work again, and looking into getting a job slaving away at a paper mill 72 hours a week...

Fuck everything right now.
 
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I had my first serious DMT breakthrough a couple days ago, and I'm still physically recovering from it. Tried to get in some exercise regardless, but didn't last long, only a little over an hour of cardio with some weights. I've felt really mellow since. Not as depressed, not as actively angry. What an experience. I can scarcely describe it, and despite being very frightened a few times during the trip, I look forward to diving down that hole again. My grandmother, who's 96, is in the hospital after catching COVID. But she beat it. She's very tired, but she made it. Still, she's prepared to go and has even said so. Has trouble walking now, and she's in a lot of pain because her body is just breaking down. She's probably going into a home soon. It breaks my heart, and also gives me pause (those places are hotbeds of abuse) but I'm trying to remain hopeful. It's selfish of me, but I hope she's around for a little longer. I hope to get to see her at least one more time. My mom's side of the family all used to live very close together, but now most are in different states and it's been years since we all gathered.
 
She's very tired, but she made it. Still, she's prepared to go and has even said so.
Don't know why, but old people prepared to die just hits me hard. She has lived a long life and is tired. She deserves a needle to just go eternally to sleep. Just so she doesn't need to suffer anymore.

On another topic. My weight gain haven't seemed to stop yet. Awesome, I always wanted to be a big boi. But to be honest, I'm surprised myself. The weight gain is increasing so fast, so I thought I would get more fat instead of more muscular.

I was surprisingly sore in the thighs after what I believed too not strain myself too much after doing deadlifts 2 days ago. I don't really feel it now, but a day ago.
But yea, it's easier to eat the amount of food I'm eating now and the body seems to have relaxed with the bloating.
 
Something happened in my meatspace life that made me hugely MATI.

I wan't to be MATI and I wan't to be MATI hard. I want to fucking fedpost.

But I won't due to huge levels of power leveling, because of the utter level of denial by all parts involved in certain type of happenings (especifically regarding how those come to happen) and because I don't want the FBI knocking off my door.
 
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