How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

After a very active and productive June and July, I've been feeling exhausted and crappy the last couple of weeks and can't seem to shake it. I get home dead tired and take a nap, get up and listlessly shitpost or watch Youtube videos until bedtime, then go to sleep and do it all over the next day.

Maybe I've got a cold coming on or something, but this would be one hell of a lead-up.

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I'm just glad summer is almost over, I'm ready for the cold weather.
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Well, it's back to reality tomorrow which is always a mixed bag but I'm not dreading it so the battle is already half won. Hard to describe things without powerleveling but all in all life ain't so bad.
Reconnected with a friend I'd been out of touch recently so I might go hang out with her. I'm not very good at being friends with people, I'm selfish and overly blunt which burns all but the sturdiest of bridges. Still, it's good to practice putting myself second and it's great knowing someone who actually deserves to be treated kindly.
Since this is my 100th post I reckon I'll take a week off, touch some grass and the like. Gotta focus up a bit across the board but hopefully the content dry spell will be over soon and there'll be some fresh tard shit to discuss in an overly serious manner.
 
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Irritated at not being able to have any kind of peaceful night life without having to feel constantly on guard because all the worthless meth and fent zombies come crawling out of the woodwork. Wondering if I make a run to grab something to drink or a snack from the 7-Eleven if that’ll be the night I get shot by some drugged up nigger for my wallet and phone. And if I were the one to ventilate the beast I’d be doing 10-20 in the clink for protecting myself.

I left my previous state to get away from that shit but it feels like it’s fucking everywhere now
 
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Day five of anti-depressant tapering:

It's been a great day. Decided to not break my fast and keep going until I'm at least another ten pounds down. I forgot how much my meds had made me crave large amounts of food.

Just two more days of my lowest dose and then I'm off it 100%. Other than my head feeling a little 'swimmy', the physical withdrawals haven't been that bad.

My biggest gripe with myself is I'm having a hard time organizing my work space. I know it would take like, a solid hour and then I'd be extremely happy/productive. But I always get distracted with something or get motivated right when I'm about to fall asleep. On or off crazy pills it's a bitch to do. Hoping I can do it tomorrow.

Oh, and I took a five mile walk today just for fun. Hope I can do it again tomorrow. With extreme fasting my energy levels can vary so we'll see.

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thanks for reading. I know this is gay but it's been nice to ramble about this somewhere since this is my social media outlet.
 
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Unnecessary Surgery Land said:
Day five of anti-depressant tapering:

It's been a great day. Decided to not break my fast and keep going until I'm at least another ten pounds down. I forgot how much my meds had made me crave large amounts of food.

Just two more days of my lowest dose and then I'm off it 100%. Other than my head feeling a little 'swimmy', the physical withdrawals haven't been that bad.

My biggest gripe with myself is I'm having a hard time organizing my work space. I know it would take like, a solid hour and then I'd be extremely happy/productive. But I always get distracted with something or get motivated right when I'm about to fall asleep. On or off crazy pills it's a bitch to do. Hoping I can do it tomorrow.

Oh, and I took a five mile walk today just for fun. Hope I can do it again tomorrow. With extreme fasting my energy levels can vary so we'll see.

View attachment 5285632 thanks for reading. I know this is gay but it's been nice to ramble about this somewhere since this is my social media outlet.
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Just be careful!
Sometimes the withdrawal actually hits hardest when you're 100% off. This often results in a big symptom spike/mood swing- don't be fooled that "I guess I should go back on the crazy pill." It depends on the drug (especially the length it stays in your system), but give yourself some grace for at least two weeks after you go 100% off.

I love Pusheen.


I wanted to type something up on a desktop computer (not mine). It's never been connected to the internet.
I opened Word.
"Oopsy Doodles! You don't have an active subscription! We have disabled most features!"
Doesn't fucking matter, I just want to type a list and print it. Clicked to open a new page.
"Whuh-Oh! You aren't connected to the internet! We can't verify your account!"
APPLICATION CLOSES ITSELF

I really had to go home and get on my own computer and open libreoffice in order to type up a few words and make it big font.

Why can't tech just work? They could make it work. They just choose not to.
 
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bliblblblbbllb said:
I really had to go home and get on my own computer and open libreoffice in order to type up a few words and make it big font
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Is Wordpad not installed anymore? If it's never been connected to the internet did it even have a license for office in the first place? Some computers will have stuff pre-installed with the assumption that you will pay or activate it to use.
 
Betonhaus said:
Is Wordpad not installed anymore? If it's never been connected to the internet did it even have a license for office in the first place? Some computers will have stuff pre-installed with the assumption that you will pay or activate it to use.
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I needed to do some specific formatting Wordpad doesn't have.

I don't WANT the entirety of microsoft office pre-installed if I don't have a license. If the big icon "Word" is on the screen and I click on it, I should be able to use Microsoft Word. Especially because it clearly all loads up and is all there. Just paywalled.
 
I just had my job interview, and I'm a little concerned.

So basically the machine shop is literally a mom-and-pop operation where they had the husband operating the two lathes and mills (one CNC one manual each), but then he got really sick and is in the hospital indefinitely. They just moved to a new building so all the machines need to be set up, hooked in, tested, and since the mom and daughter don't really know how to operate them and there's no one to train me I'll have to figure it out on my own.

Jobs I find on Kijiji are always cursed. I have to thin about it.
 
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Betonhaus said:
I just had my job interview, and I'm a little concerned.

So basically the machine shop is literally a mom-and-pop operation where they had the husband operating the two lathes and mills (one CNC one manual each), but then he got really sick and is in the hospital indefinitely. They just moved to a new building so all the machines need to be set up, hooked in, tested, and since the mom and daughter don't really know how to operate them and there's no one to train me I'll have to figure it out on my own.

Jobs I find on Kijiji are always cursed. I have to thin about it.
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Let me guess, they are going to get mad at you for not magically know what to do.
The red flag is glowing here, proceed with extreme causation.
 
Vingle said:
Let me guess, they are going to get mad at you for not magically know what to do.
The red flag is glowing here, proceed with extreme causation.
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They effectively need a job foreman, something that I haven't done before. I have to digest what I saw and heard a bit, but i might get back to them to try to clearly describe what I can and cannot do and what they need. I think I can do it, but I would not be very good at it. I can try to explain what they need better, but I think I'm better off phoning some old machinist friends that may be more suitable for this. There's one that that would be a whiz at the job leadership stuff and manual machining, but may need some help at the cnc programming stuff which I may be able to cover.
 
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Betonhaus said:
They effectively need a job foreman, something that I haven't done before. I have to digest what I saw and heard a bit, but i might get back to them to try to clearly describe what I can and cannot do and what they need. I think I can do it, but I would not be very good at it. I can try to explain what they need better, but I think I'm better off phoning some old machinist friends that may be more suitable for this. There's one that that would be a whiz at the job leadership stuff and manual machining, but may need some help at the cnc programming stuff which I may be able to cover.
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If they call you back, you should be sincere with them at tell them exactly what your concerns are.
Diplomatically, of course, and (assuming you still want the job) expressing a willingness to learn so long as they're willing to give you the tools and the training you may need. Make it clear that you cannot be expected to fulfill unreasonable expectations, or take responsibility for things you were not prepared (by them) for.
 
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Nick Obre said:
If they call you back, you should be sincere with them at tell them exactly what your concerns are.
Diplomatically, of course, and (assuming you still want the job) expressing a willingness to learn so long as they're willing to give you the tools and the training you may need. Make it clear that you cannot be expected to fulfill unreasonable expectations, or take responsibility for things you were not prepared (by them) for.
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The job looks scary, but I think I can do it. I just have to ensure they have realistic expectations for how long it would take to get things up and running. I should be able to do it. It is way outside of my comfort zone, but my comfort zone is not suitable for this economy.
 
I did get some clarification of the role and it's not as overreaching as I initially thought. the pay is okay, better then nothing. I'll see if i get it. it sounds like it may just be a temporary position


I wish I won the lottery and could escape the job market. My work history has a red flag I can't realistically hide from prospective employers in my industry, and I'm basically not wanted if i try to apply for basic bitch work at anything else.

I got a haircut before my interview and oh my god I'm going grey

I can feel myself shutting down as I've had money problems nonstop for years and finding work is so difficult and I'm just tired. My luck is statistically average at best and I can't find anything to improve my situation, and trying to set up alternative career solutions requires time money and energy I don't have. I can try applying for construction jobs but i don't know if I can physically handle them.

I hate how job applications ask what your race and sexuality is. And this is a conservative canadian city, so all answers are equally likely to be wrong and get your application thrown out.
 
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I finished my first major 3D printing DIY project, I made a giant Batman logo with RGB backlighting to stick on my wall, and it actually didn't turn out as badly as I thought it would. Looks pretty neat at night.
Also the girl at the drive-through complimented my sunglasses today, marking the second compliment I've ever gotten on my appearance from a woman, as an adult.

I think I feel good about it.
 
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