How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

Summer's coming to an end and it's making me depressed already. I feel like every day of sunshine I don't go out and do something is a day wasted now. And it doesn't help I have to go visit relatives for the Labor Day weekend. I'd prefer to do something more fun and maybe take advantage of the last nice days of the year, but family comes first, I guess.
 
I'm feeling confused and ostracized today. I mean, babies kick pregnant women every day, but I do it once and suddenly I'm banned from public transportation!?!
just get police'd and all will be forgiven. worked for georgie boy
 
I haven't spoken to my "Internet Friends" in 20 days, or my IRL friend in about a week. I've essentially resigned myself to either just eat myself to death or wait for a good chance with a passing bus.
I've lost interest in fighting or arguing anything because it seems pointless and like a waste of time.
My PC application got denied because I'm too fat to help poor Africans learn to make money.
Honestly just kinda hoping my poor eating finally catches up and I have a heart attack behind the wheel of my car.
 
I've been... coming to terms with just how little I cared for myself pre-COVID. I'm not quite staring down the barrel of the big 3-0, but a recent health scare has me uncharacteristically contemplative. I know I'm still young, but I can't help but feel the impact of bad decisions I made in my teen years now and I'm dreading what impact my choices now will have on me when I'm staring down the barrel of the big 4-0.

To all my fellow Hebrews and Shebrews, brothers and sisters in Christ, the wider ummah, anyone reading this post: please stop ignoring your health because you think you can handle the discomfort; a death by a thousand cuts is still a death nonetheless!
 
Last couple of days for me had me being given my father’s old desktop, keyboard and mouse. The fact that he’s been using it ever since I was in my teenage years and it still works, even while going slow, speaks volumes as to how much DELL technology has changed.
 
Just got home from Innawoods. The wildnerness is so refreshing. Wish I could move out there.

I climbed a mountain, hiked nearly 70 miles, fell in a lake, and got about 20 feet from a bighorn sheep, a grizzly bear, and a bull moose, respectively.

(Not that that last part is really a flex. Animals in national parks are chill. They're used to humans and don't give a shit if you gawk at them).
 
I've been trying to quit smoking lately (or at least cut back). Tried vaping, but it sucks ass honestly.
I found the gum was the best way to quit. It's just enough to keep cravings away and not pleasant enough you just get addicted to the gum instead. I.e. takes a minute or two to kick in instead of the near instant hit from smoking or vaping. Started with the 4 mg just chewing one any time I felt like I needed it, then tapered down over a couple months, switched to the 2 mg and then tapered down off that.

By the end the tapering process was more frustrating than just quitting for good.
 
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