How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

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I'm feeling surprisingly chill and good-humored given the fuckload of retardation I've had to deal with in the past month. And I'm not talking about my own. Must be the booze...
 
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My post from yesterday is gone, and I’m ok with that. I was struggling with procrastination on an important thing, and I’ve taken care of it so I’m feeling lighter. Some sadness/life-change hangover with all kids back to college and now likely permanently empty-nesting , so a bit of “now what,” but for the moment just glad I took care of the anxiety-producing task and thinking about how to manage/organize life from here forward.
 
PLEASE HELP my Body is Infested by cats.

the cats have made their way in.thecats are inside pulling the Strings. Please help my body is becoming shaped like a cat. pLEASE HELP They are telling me what to think and Feel. Please Help there is a cat at the helm.

how What do i do? there's billions of them miaoewing very Loudly inside. I'm hearing intense chittering, I'm hearing all kinds of kitty-cat noises.
 
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Fucking terrible. Getting back to work has been a dreadful waiting game. Despite all my experience and follow up calls after interviews, no one who's even remotely involved with the interviews ever gets back to me. Couple that and the fact that I haven't been able to get any peace and quiet or recreational time outside of bedtime, I feel I'm at my wit's end.
 
Neither job I got, sadly. The machinist job wanted someone with more manual experience and were unhappy with my jattempted career change, and the gas station job wanted someone with more cashier experience and sociability
Don’t give up, fren.
 
This week I'll do more job hunting. I'll have to borrow a little money from family to cover some upcoming bills. I did do applications for income support, but god knows when I'll hear back from them - let along if I'll be approved.
If I do get a temporary funding source then I'll be able to go back to school next year as enough years have passed from my bankruptcy that I'm eligeable again. No idea what i'll do but I have a few months to decide, and to determine if it's necessary or if i have established a career path. Based on my personality getting my CPA and becoming an accountant would be the safest and most stable path, but i do see the draw of getting into politics - providing I can survive with the schtick of brutal honestly and introspection.
None of that is relevant if i don't secure income soon.
 
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Life's pretty swell overall. New job is good enough that I don't dread going every day, financial concerns are quickly fading, my gf is moisturized and flourishing. I'm walking the line between being consumed by Starfield like I was with Skyrim.
Sort of annoyed with how dumb people are about tranny shit being in games. I like troons even less than I like niggers but I don't go into an autistic fit every time there's a mixed race couple in a movie. Looking back, I was such an unpleasant asshole to be around when I thought disliking something meant I had to make it my personality. Kind of think it's cool that presumably younger people have that kind passion but also think it's pathetic when all of that fire is pissed away on being a keyboard warrior.
Idk, just less thrilled about interacting with people online more and more these days. So much juvenile vitriol, so many meaningless arguments about dumb shit with people who think they're more interesting than they are, no meaningful outcome. Just cold takes lifted from podcasts/streams, regurgitated at any passerby.
TL;DR jazzed about IRL, blackpilled on Internet shit
 
mum died in july , was very close to her
would talk her afterwards on WhatsApp (listen to her voice etc)
lost my phone and am a retard so no back up, still barely processed it
ive no parents now
death is funny, not haha funny (like a woody allen movie) but strange funny (like a woody allen wedding)
I dont talk to the rest of my family
 
My Jeep finally bit the dust. Thing's so rusted out that it's not even worth fixing at this point. Now I have to get a new offroader/farm rig. Everything's too damn expensive to justify for solely offroading, though. Plus I gotta get a new family hauler. I can't fit three car seats in our current car, so prob gonna have to go for a three row. For all the part kiwis, figure this shit out ahead of time. Don't be like me.

This week I'll do more job hunting. I'll have to borrow a little money from family to cover some upcoming bills. I did do applications for income support, but god knows when I'll hear back from them - let along if I'll be approved.
If I do get a temporary funding source then I'll be able to go back to school next year as enough years have passed from my bankruptcy that I'm eligeable again. No idea what i'll do but I have a few months to decide, and to determine if it's necessary or if i have established a career path. Based on my personality getting my CPA and becoming an accountant would be the safest and most stable path, but i do see the draw of getting into politics - providing I can survive with the schtick of brutal honestly and introspection.
None of that is relevant if i don't secure income soon.
Good luck on your job search, man. And hoping things look up for you. If nothing works out, you could try a union apprenticeship, if you don't mind manual work. The IBEW will pay for you to become an electrician, and the benefits are really good.
 
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I'm self-employed and I took a bit of a longer vacation than I usually do (2 months instead of just one) because I made a killing in the first half of the year. I wish I stayed a week longer because the first two clients I got since I got back were the worst clients I had to deal with in the 3 years I've been doing this. I swear I've spent more time haggling over the price with one of them than actually doing my job. €2.50. That's what he's been haggling over when his quote is €802.50. So he can pay me the 800 without issue but that last 2.50 creates a fucking problem somehow. The other one wants a cheaper rate because he keeps insisting that the contract I'm translating isn't a legal document because it's just a template.
 
My friend of many years just ended our friendship over text. Honestly don't know how I'm taking it rn. Apparently I remind him of people in his past and I've "gas lit him". I've took this man shooting, showed him how to change his oil and spark plugs, played D&D and video games with him, been there for him in some of his toughest moments... and he just threw it away. I don't know what I could have done better.
 
Neither job I got, sadly. The machinist job wanted someone with more manual experience and were unhappy with my attempted career change, and the gas station job wanted someone with more cashier experience and sociability
Sorry to hear that. But I admire that you're still working on getting something better. Hang in there. I know you already have been but hang in a little more. You will get something. And once you have your fingers on a ledge I know you'll keep climbing.
this was always meant to be my last attempt at getting my shit together. i give up. into the cave i go
I gave up once. Depressingly, it didn't actually make anything better. If it helps, start small. That's what worked for me. Small victories and tiny improvements that became habitual. Eventually I reached some sort of tipping point and achieved something meaningful.
 
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