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I love the Farms, and I don't want to disappear without someone knowing what happened to me. I have been diagnosed with super -rare renal small cell neuroendocrine carcinoma. Picture is bleak...I will be getting hit hard with chemo, but I may not make another year...unless I am very lucky.

I always hate when my favorite posters stop posting and I never know why, although I doubt I am anyone's favorite.
Viva Les Farms!
 
Post those cats
Okay. These came out huge and I don't know how to shrink them. These are the cats that make January bother to live just now.
Stanley
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Dinah (post-spay baby picture, she is a huge fluffbomb now)
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Charlotte
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Hahahaha..... they're gonna want me to take his job, but if I've learned anything, it's to not do that. [I may regret this statement.]
My granddad got offered a promotion to commissioned officer in WW II and turned it down. He told me it was because he'd still have to deal with the same people he already was but suddenly be an officer and they'd have to sir yes sir and shit to him and he hated that.
 
I love the Farms, and I don't want to disappear without someone knowing what happened to me. I have been diagnosed with super -rare renal small cell neuroendocrine carcinoma. Picture is bleak...I will be getting hit hard with chemo, but I may not make another year...unless I am very lucky.

I always hate when my favorite posters stop posting and I never know why, although I doubt I am anyone's favorite.
Viva Les Farms!
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Well, my boss didn't mention anything about putting me on any PIP today. She gave me a negative review, but she seemed to like the things I had said in the review and the goals I had outlined. She was in a pretty good mood overall, probably because she's going on vacation for like the next 3 weeks. Which also means I don't really have to deal with her for that time.
Overall I'm feeling a lot better. This means I have a lot more time to find an out before things get bad.

Imagine thinking of art as a hobby imagine thinking of it as work etc...
Modern Art has lowered the barrier to entry, but if you're really good you can demand a lot for your services.
Even if you just have something simple. One of the local artists here just puts automotive paint on picture-sized sheets of metal and they are so beautiful I would get one if I could afford it. Most of them are just a solid color but the color is so vibrant.
I hear the furry porn artists make good money.

I love the Farms, and I don't want to disappear without someone knowing what happened to me. I have been diagnosed with super -rare renal small cell neuroendocrine carcinoma. Picture is bleak...I will be getting hit hard with chemo, but I may not make another year...unless I am very lucky.

I always hate when my favorite posters stop posting and I never know why, although I doubt I am anyone's favorite.
Viva Les Farms!
Praying for you, for whatever that's worth.
 
I had my second day of customer facing training. I won't lie, I wanted so badly to unplug the ethernet cable and claim network issues but the day went okay, the two cases I handles went well.
To powerlevel I did the same thing you did for some time and as a blithering autist if I could give you any advice. You eventually get used to it and it gets better with time.

Speaking to people is somewhat of a skill you can develop. This is coming from someone who used to barely be able to talk to people in a video game.

Some advice I can offer that worked for me back then is write what they say in a notepad as they talk. You will not remember what they say just from memory, because in their minds they already understand their issue and think everyone must understand it too. The other tip is hold a foam or rubber ball in your hand when you aren't using it to type and regulate your breathing.
 
Planning a small trip with my husband, the kids, and my in-laws who I get along with great- nothing too crazy, just going to the beach for a week and renting a place for us all to share, and I'm really excited. Only one of the kids has seen the ocean and he was a toddler then, so they're chimping out with excitement.
My husband and I are really enjoying this stage of parenting- the youngest one is the happiest toddler I've ever met and his development has accelerated so much recently, the middle one is just such a thoughtful, sweet kid and her mind is pure chaos in the most ''classic kid'' kind of way where I'll look over her drawings and ask what she's illustrating and she'll blurt out something absolutely fucking insane like ''it's a spider, and it's approaching the Leprechaun, and the ''Lep'' is DEAD and also eating a fish's leg'' like it's the most normal thing in the world, and the eldest is just such a funny kid, constantly making puns that are genuinely funny and his curiosity is so much fun- I'd say that about 30 times a day, he'll come to me with one of his books and his children's dictionary and ask for us to look up something together, or ask a surprisingly complex and compelling question. SO much fun.
Lots of opportunities for gratitude lately, and I'm genuinely so happy with the life my husband and I have built and thankful for our marriage. It's kind of cliché but I married my best friend and it was the best decision I ever made, he and I were talking earlier about how we constantly see peers who are in marriages of convenience or ones where there is contempt between spouses, meanwhile he'll skip lunch at work to be back home 30 minutes earlier and I'll put myself through insane days at home between homeschooling, cleaning, errands, and general child rearing so that he can come home to a clean, comfortable, welcoming house where everything is already taken care of so that we can spend all of his off-time together.
 
First, I've had yet another long couple of weeks. Fortunately, I got through it all. It all comes to pass.

Also, I wish I could power level at work so badly. But I value my job too much to throw it all away to political sperging. The levels of delusion my coworkers exhibit make me long for a Trump victory this year. I want to see them meltdown as their liberal fantasies are crushed. Of course, that means I'll have to listen to their never-ending TDS if/when that happens.
 
I got a job! And it pays better than the previous one.
Such a huge weight has been taken from my shoulders.
Good for you! I was catching up on the thread yesterday and saw you posting about jobs and interviews a bunch, was really rooting for you and the turnaround for the culmination of the job-seeking arc was A+. Good job, I hope the tasks are stimulating and interesting and that the people you will work with and for are kind. Is this the job where the interview was in English, I remember you saying something about being nervous since it wasn't your first language? If so, it seems like you killed it, so I hope this serves as a well-deserved reminder that your efforts have yielded fruit and that your English is not only adequate, but good enough to land a job where you are expected to be fluent. You've earned this!
 
This last week, I actually had a nice conversation with a black colleague about race. It was brief and in passing, but he brought it up because he was really irritated about my coworker Soyman being over-the-top with his white guilt. He told me how he likes that I just treat him like a normal person instead of bringing attention to his race. Granted, I know race relations are way more complicated than that, but I like knowing that there are black people who want to be seen as individuals. I wish race relations could be fixed that easily.

I found it amusing, but not too surprising, that my coworker Soyman's excessive white guilt actually pisses off blacks rather than making them feel validated.
 
Good for you! I was catching up on the thread yesterday and saw you posting about jobs and interviews a bunch, was really rooting for you and the turnaround for the culmination of the job-seeking arc was A+. Good job, I hope the tasks are stimulating and interesting and that the people you will work with and for are kind. Is this the job where the interview was in English, I remember you saying something about being nervous since it wasn't your first language? If so, it seems like you killed it, so I hope this serves as a well-deserved reminder that your efforts have yielded fruit and that your English is not only adequate, but good enough to land a job where you are expected to be fluent. You've earned this!
It isn't the English one but it is in my area so everything is fine. I will start an English for Business course in the future so I can improve it and have better chances at international jobs.
Thank you so much!
 
Probably one for the "What have you cooked recently?" thread but i like posting ITT the best. Made the best pasta i cooked in what feels like years, was just Penne alla Puttanesca but it came out fantastic. I'm overly critical of the food i cook even if i know i am a good cook (i suck major dick at presentation though) but this time it was restaurant quality. Made me very happy
I am more into cooking again lately, watching a lot more cooking content on YT and noting down dishes i want to try that i haven't cooked before. I most want to do a deep dive into mexican and tex mex cuisine but i just can't get most of the ingredients used here. There's like five mexicans living in my country and there's only one mexican/latin american specialty food shop in the city i live in, which isn't just hideously overpriced but also ~2 hours away. Amazon is a similar story regarding prices.

Apart from that i still feel unusually good, not too stressed out and i am focusing hard on family and friends lately, was at grandma's today again, this time with my mother and one of my brothers and it was swell. Planned my Easter weekend, have the big family meet up on Easter monday and am at my cousin's house on Good Friday (why the fuck is it called that in english? :story:).

I think i subconciously try to make good with all the people that are dear to me before i spiral into addiction again where i turn into an unemotional robot more or less for most of the time. This is planned for the middle of April.
 
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