How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Phalanges Mycologist]

I slept nearly 20 hours in the last day, the new meds are doing wonders but god damn are they having weird side effects.

I finally got paid!
Which in itself is stressful as I have to prioritize what bills and expenses to cover first while resisting every $20 impulse buy that can definitely wait

Good on you! I'll give you some advice mentally readjust your payday to about 5 days after you do really get paid - it cuts down the impulse to buy just little treats.

Congratulations! One neat trick you can do is schedule most of your bills to be split in half over the month. It really lightens the load and makes your phone bill and utilities more affordable.

I have a bank account set up just for my reoccurring bills, every month on the first I put my regular bills into it and have a DD set up I always pover pay by £20 a month because it all adds up and at some point there will be a cock up i don't notice like a DD fails and it builds me up a buffer and I earn even somewhat meagre interest on it, I have a shared account with me an the mrs where we both pay in our shared bills and another for household stuff like shopping etc anything left in my account it's mine and I save half of it an the rest I just let mount up for odd treats like days out or me finding something old I like.

Did something quite stupid earlier this week but gradually rebounding from the cringe nicely.

If it makes you feel any better this whole last few weeks I've been a big ugly mess non stop.

 

[TheRetardKing]

I'm on the plane to Washington, D.C.

 

[eatler]

I'm on the plane to Washington, D.C.
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Sounds like a great time to use your repertoire of terrorism jokes, I’m sure nothing bad would happen.

 

[DavidS877]

I'm on the plane to Washington, D.C.
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Is it a Boeing?

 

[TheRetardKing]

Is it a Boeing?

Probably.

Edit: It's a Bombardier.

 

[Yamamura]

I spent the day cutting up old gift cards to recycle them into guitar picks.

 

[Chiang Kai-shek]

I'm reaching the point where I'm tired of all the dooming. I know shit's bad in a worldwide level but I don't want to be all negative thoughts anymore.

Same here, but I think I’m just prone to dooming. Which isn’t great and I’d like to change it but not sure where to start.

 

[eatler]

Same here, but I think I’m just prone to dooming. Which isn’t great and I’d like to change it but not sure where to start.

Do you frequent A&N?

 

[AnOminous]

He told me how he likes that I just treat him like a normal person instead of bringing attention to his race. Granted, I know race relations are way more complicated than that, but I like knowing that there are black people who want to be seen as individuals.

I think there is a literal conspiracy to prevent that from happening. And it isn't coming from the right.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

I'm reaching the point where I'm tired of all the dooming. I know shit's bad in a worldwide level but I don't want to be all negative thoughts anymore.

I want people to get angry. Very, very angry. Things won't get better until blood is in the streets, and I don't want it to be mine.

 

[Chiang Kai-shek]

Do you frequent A&N?

Rarely, but that’s still more than I should.

 

[GoysGoneWild]

Very, very bummed. Angry too. Very high likelihood I'm going to end things with a girl I really liked a month ago, this week. I'm so in shock at how this all shook out that to an extent I'm kinda sick to my stomach.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

Gushy family life shit

Ah I'm happy on your behalf. Peak nuclear family goals right there. Happy to hear your kids are growing up in such a loving and stimulating environment.

I may not want children of my own but it always makes me all giddy when I hear the endless gushing from families with healthy and nurturing dynamics.

I'm reaching the point where I'm tired of all the dooming. I know shit's bad in a worldwide level but I don't want to be all negative thoughts anymore.

Yeah I relate to that. It's partly why I tend to be avoidant of the news for long stretches of time before I give in, just to make sure I'm somewhat up to date with the rest of the country. I don't fucking look forward to the American election however. Just negativity and spite and bullshit and arguing. So over it.

Ugh... I just had a sneeze where I had to scrub the couch after.

Damn that's rough. In that case I shouldn't complain about pollen allergies and how I have the bad habit of withholding my sneezing so the jolt makes my bones ache.

This last week, I actually had a nice conversation with a black colleague about race. It was brief and in passing, but he brought it up because he was really irritated about my coworker Soyman being over-the-top with his white guilt. He told me how he likes that I just treat him like a normal person instead of bringing attention to his race. Granted, I know race relations are way more complicated than that, but I like knowing that there are black people who want to be seen as individuals. I wish race relations could be fixed that easily.

I found it amusing, but not too surprising, that my coworker Soyman's excessive white guilt actually pisses off blacks rather than making them feel validated.

That coworker sounds like a gem. PL as a black person but I'm so over getting treated weird because of my race. It's not even a white person problem exclusively.

I'm also over other black people latching onto me because they assume I must have the exact same perception of the world and attitudes towards race relations as them. I don't. I fucking do not.

Good Friday

Sounds better than what we call it. "Long Friday"

Same here, but I think I’m just prone to dooming. Which isn’t great and I’d like to change it but not sure where to start.

I remember reading somewhere that humans are prone to negativity, a remnant of our survival instincts from our days as monke. That's why negative news, negative top tens and drama and wtf else is so enticing.

In other news, things are calm on my end. It's Easter week so shit is calm. I'm considering calling some other family but I hate phone calls.

Also some Jerkass almost ran me over with his car on my way home from the gym yesterday, then had the gall to fucking shake his head at me as if l was the one doing an u turn in a dual carriageway without considering that the divider in the middle is for pedestrians crossing the road.

You fucking cocksucking boomer ass douchebag. Fuck you.

Also I have a random craving for a durum.

 

[Shadfan666xxx000]

I just got some Moondrop Chu IIs and they're amazing. I'll hand these out as gifts to anyone my friends who are into music if I get the opportunity. As for other news, my grandma is apparently sick or something and I think I should check on her at some point. I hope it's nothing big since I had a lot of bullshit today and I'm going do overtime this week but she's hardy enough. Maybe I can save for a car soon too.

 

[VargReallyDidNothingWrong]

i'm so goddamn tired of my job. been putting off putting real serious effort into it for months now and have just been coasting along procrastinating the big projects. feel like shit every day because half my day is spent stressing out over shit i have to do, and then don't do what i have to do anyway because i can't.

 

[LonesomeDud]

The neighbor said something mean to my wife and now I have to live with the consequences.

 

[JamusActimus]

I've been feeling grateful and satisfied with my life lately.

Feels good man.

 

[黒 ん ぼ]

I haven't eaten anything for two days. I just don't like food anymore, I don't know why. I get sort of hungry but it doesn't bother me. The longest I've gone is a full week.

 

[Chiang Kai-shek]

I remember reading somewhere that humans are prone to negativity, a remnant of our survival instincts from our days as monke. That's why negative news, negative top tens and drama and wtf else is so enticing.

I heard that too, though I feel like I easily give in to it.

My current troubles are job related, mainly I can’t fucking find one. The AI news doesn’t help either as I fully expect companies to embrace this stuff regardless of how good it is so they can fire everyone. Sure you have to adapt but I don’t believe I can. Call me a useless faggot all you want (I may even agree with you) but so much goes over my head. I’m just an eternal beginner that can never get past that. Unfortunately, people like me are the first on the chopping block when it comes to AI. Though that could just be my pessimism affecting my thoughts.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

I heard that too, though I feel like I easily give in to it.

My current troubles are job related, mainly I can’t fucking find one. The AI news doesn’t help either as I fully expect companies to embrace this stuff regardless of how good it is so they can fire everyone. Sure you have to adapt but I don’t believe I can. Call me a useless faggot all you want (I may even agree with you) but so much goes over my head. I’m just an eternal beginner that can never get past that. Unfortunately, people like me are the first on the chopping block when it comes to AI. Though that could just be my pessimism affecting my thoughts.

To be fair to you, it's fair to worry about the whole AI thing.

It's gonna be difficult to adapt when the job market's most shifty find a way to replace human workers with AI. I don't think they consider the societal impact it could have. Well, them and redditors but that was a given.

(In my honest opinion, AI is a tool and it should be considered as such. On par with a screwdriver. It shouldn't outright replace humans but rather aid us)

But even without AI, employers can be weirdly picky. Back when I was healthy, I had an unreal difficult time finding a job and the pandemic being in full swing didn't help either. Evidently some people don't want graduates or people without experience but heaven forbid you have too much experience or too high a grade of higher education and you better not be a parent or over 45.

Fuck you if you got any illnesses or disabilities. Fuck you if you're a foreigner (in name and race only. No one cares that you have lived here your entire life)

I have a bachelor's degree. I was advised against taking a master's because there was a chance I'd be outright unhireable. I also just happened to have a bad case of burnout so that was an easy decision.