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[eatler]

PSA time if you can not handle something do not fucking do it!

I just had these two dumbasses inside my store and they decided they would attempt to carry their own furniture. One was an old woman another was a blind man. We have dollys, I do this on a daily and they still attempted He-Man-ing it themselves. I didn’t even catch that they were trying this until it was too late, We’ll come to find out since the FUCKING BLIND MAN is walking backwards he not only tripped into a bunch of our glass wear, breaking a couple of pieces, he also HIT HIS FUCKING HEAD OFF OUR DOOR WAY. Good job DUMBASS! I even tried screaming “HEY THEYRES A CABNET, STOP THERES A FUCKING CABNET but they charged right into it. They were lucky I don’t charge them because it took every inch of my being, all 7 trillion nerves in overdrive to just not scream my head off at both of them FUCKING! STUPID! YOU HAVE SUCCESSFULLY WON THE DARWIN AWARD! I’m also pissed because were a small store so everything comes out of our pocket. Very cool. thanks for attending my rant. This is the only thing I can hear in the back of my mind right now.

 

[Triple Flutz]

Had my birthday a while ago and thus am fixed and entirely free from the Spleen I get every year around this time.
The older kids have started a new activity and they're really excited, the thing we're looking at costs twice as much as our original, ideal budget, but it's still well within our means and it functions on a membership basis where you can visit as often as you'd like, and there are organized children's classes every morning and every afternoon. If they keep on enjoying it this much, we're thinking about making it a recurrent thing due to how often it could be worked into the schedule, and it's an activity that fosters love of physical activity and self-discipline, which are values we already instill at home quite a bit, but it never hurts to hear the same message from outside sources.

So this is apparently now a thing?

It's always been a thing in that I know of people who used to shoplift from within stores and returned said objects within the same visit for store credit/gift cards that they then sold at a small loss in the early to mid 2000s, but it's insane to me that even stealing used to be more righteous than it is now. I don't want to sound like a foot-stomping curmudgeon, but this level of risk aversion whilst doing something that is inherently risky disgusts me even more than the stealing itself, not to mention the extra scumminess in taking advantage of people's kindness and selflessness.

 

[McMitch]

I had this happen a couple months ago for the first and only time and I was so shocked by this faggotry I just yelled FUCK OFF.

So this is apparently now a thing?

I had a manager who was making $70k on her own have her friends boost baby supplies from the nearby Walmart for her. I hold the same contempt for such parents that I do for the parents who won’t feed their kids without free food from the public school system.

 

[Rekeita's Kidneys]

I had some Hispanic girl who barely spoke English ask me to pay for infant formula and diapers for her baby at a grocery store today. Tugging at my heartstrings doesn't part me with my money. I didn't make the baby. The baby is not family. I have no duty to it. If she can't afford it with her money, then she should make the guy that knocked her up pay it himself. And if not him, then she should get her mother whom she was shopping with do it. This is allegedly a common scam tactic too. People will beg for assistance and then turn around and exploit a return policy to run off with their target's money.

Famous words... "Get a job nigger."

 

[Carnavoyeur]

At least you weren't my ex who called me once with a suicide threat and I basically said "do a flip."

Wish I had your balls. Every guy I've been with has threatened me with suicide over something and I used to fall for it every time. If anyone does it to me again I will, in all seriousness and without hesitation, say "do it faggot".

Funny story. The last guy I dated told me he was going to kill himself because I didn't call him to wake him up so I could take him to GameStop so he could buy a fucking gaming headset. He turned his phone off so I couldn't reach him and in the 2 hours until he turned his phone back on, he had gone by himself and bought a headset.

I have been single for quite a while now.

 

[gorgoroth7134]

I would like to move on now.

 

[Betonhaus]

I got a job interview in the morning, hopefully it works out

 

[Nick Obre]

Man, what a day.
I wake up to find a coworker quit and now I'm the only one in charge of a particular account, permanently, and he left a bunch of unfinished work that had to be delivered today.
Then my dog (who you may remember is a kinda old, blind, rescued greyhound) was horribly scared by a loud noise outside my window while he was sleeping, and was shaking and panting and whining for hours after. So much so, I asked his vet if she thought it could be something to do with his heart, and she just instantly dropped by to check him out. He's ok now (gotta get his heart checked tho), but it took a long time for him to calm down and more for him to be ok with being in the room where he heard the noise.
And at the same time, my kid calls me to tell me she's feeling kinda sick at school, but I can't go pick her up while dealing with this. I contact her mom, and she was at the doctor with her dad (there's a whole story, my kid's grandparents on her side are declining in health rapidly and may require continuous medical care soon), so neither of us could go pick her up. Eventually she felt better and it wasn't necessary to go take her out of school for the day.

STRESS

 

[Betonhaus]

I should really start jogging or something that gets my heart rate up, I've been having this concerning dull pain for quite a while now.

Before lockdowns I was actually doing pretty good, but that year where it was illegal to leave the house broke every good habit I had.

 

[Neighborhood Curmudgeon]

I REALLY need to relax. Things are going well and all, but I desperately need downtime. Lots of it...

 

[AnOminous]

It's always been a thing in that I know of people who used to shoplift from within stores and returned said objects within the same visit for store credit/gift cards that they then sold at a small loss in the early to mid 2000s, but it's insane to me that even stealing used to be more righteous than it is now.

I knew a junkie who did that, would literally go steal receipts out of the trash cans, then go and steal high ticket items and take them straight to the refund desk. I still never before very recently encountered people aggressively begging IN THE STORE ITSELF.

That said, doing pretty well. I just got an electric bike so I now go out daily on it, and since the various settings on it from "off" to above that amount to the level of laziness I feel up to, I can either just plain ride a bike or decide it's time to go home and let the battery do the work. It's fun. I've even started wearing the retarded looking helmet. Yes, I know it looks retarded, but I've decided at this stage in my life that it would look even more retarded to be an actual retard because I took a header onto pavement and got a subdural hematoma.

Wish I had your balls. Every guy I've been with has threatened me with suicide over something and I used to fall for it every time. If anyone does it to me again I will, in all seriousness and without hesitation, say "do it faggot".

It's not really balls so much as experience. I used to be such a sucker for that shit. Experience burned that out of me.

 

[Womble of Wimbledon]

Wish I had your balls. Every guy I've been with has threatened me with suicide over something and I used to fall for it every time. If anyone does it to me again I will, in all seriousness and without hesitation, say "do it faggot".

Pretty much anyone with a heart will take a suicide threat seriously... the first time it happens. When it becomes a pattern, you get jaded and start saying, "yeah, I can't really help with that. Get a therapist." Been there, done that.

 

[gorgoroth7134]

I should really start jogging or something that gets my heart rate up, I've been having this concerning dull pain for quite a while now.

Before lockdowns I was actually doing pretty good, but that year where it was illegal to leave the house broke every good habit I had.

You can work your way back up to it. It helped me to make a list of all the things I wanted to do regularly. Then instead of the dumb habits I picked up during covid, it was easier to pick something from that list.

Although if you think that dull pain has anything to do with your heart, maybe jogging isnt the best idea.

 

[LonesomeDud]

I thought about getting a CDL but it seems like class B start very low and top out at not great while Class A require OTR for the first couple of years but I struggle with insomnia so I'm not sure that would be safe.

If you have any other suggestions or things I should look at I'm all ears.

Have you considered your EMT?

 

[Betonhaus]

Had a Job interview today and I think I got it, theres a day scheduled for a drug test and I start training on the 13th. I also got another job interview lined up but not sure if I'll get that job

 

[The Cunting Death]

I want to die but too many people around me like me and I don't want to upset them so I'm in a state of unhappiness.

 

[Betonhaus]

I bought a bunch of Costco cookies to portion out, vacuum seal, and stick in the freezer.

 

[56 others]

Blew a breaker and left a scorch mark on an ice machine

 

[Nick Obre]

Man, what a day.
I wake up to find a coworker quit and now I'm the only one in charge of a particular account, permanently, and he left a bunch of unfinished work that had to be delivered today.
Then my dog (who you may remember is a kinda old, blind, rescued greyhound) was horribly scared by a loud noise outside my window while he was sleeping, and was shaking and panting and whining for hours after. So much so, I asked his vet if she thought it could be something to do with his heart, and she just instantly dropped by to check him out. He's ok now (gotta get his heart checked tho), but it took a long time for him to calm down and more for him to be ok with being in the room where he heard the noise.
And at the same time, my kid calls me to tell me she's feeling kinda sick at school, but I can't go pick her up while dealing with this. I contact her mom, and she was at the doctor with her dad (there's a whole story, my kid's grandparents on her side are declining in health rapidly and may require continuous medical care soon), so neither of us could go pick her up. Eventually she felt better and it wasn't necessary to go take her out of school for the day.

STRESS

Dog is still kinda jumpy at loud sounds, and of course, today is the loudest day in the world.
The apartment above is doing renovations it seems, so a lot of hammering and drilling. Outside, there's people with chainsaws cutting branches off the trees. Somewhere near, someone is seemingly cutting metal with power tools. And more.

AND the kid is full on sick today. Not the coof, but some kind of flu.

 

[bliblblblbbllb]

Pretty much anyone with a heart will take a suicide threat seriously... the first time it happens. When it becomes a pattern, you get jaded and start saying, "yeah, I can't really help with that. Get a therapist." Been there, done that.

It's one of those hard things because there's such a pattern to suicide attempts for attention vs. seriously trying to kill yourself, BUT sometimes a not-serious attempt accidentally works, or a serious attempt will fail, and people are all different, so you can't say 100% "someone who does this isn't ACTUALLY going to do it." Especially when drugs, alcohol, or mania are involved, sometimes people do really impulsive things they don't really mean.

So it becomes hard to actually find resources on "how to tell if I should just ditch this person from my life for being a manipulative nutcase" vs. "how to help my friend with being suicidal."

Spoiler: iblblilbl has a friend who has seriously attempted suicide

I have a friend who, for the entirety of his life, has had some serious reoccurring depression, to the point of once buying a gun and giving away his possessions including all of the furniture in his house because he didn't want to bother anyone after his death. Twice I've had to have serious conversations about "It's time for you to be hospitalized" and actually driven him to the hospital etc, where each time he stayed for weeks. I've seen him quit his jobs and start starving himself and neglect his hygiene and do nothing for days on end, and I've seen him crawl out of it and get new jobs, get a new apartment, start making friends, etc. Over years and years. He's a great guy and of course he's lost friends in the periods where he stops talking to anyone for months on end but I made the decision years ago to stick with him the same way I would want someone to stick by me if I had the same issues.

I cannot express how different that entire situation is from the people I've known that go "WELL FUCK YOU I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF" in arguments, which I've dealt with too. Suicidality is much different than threats of suicide.

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I feel aimless lately. I was looking forward to major life plans about 6 months from now, but it fell through. Now I don't really have any mid-term goal so to speak. I really, really hate it when the plan is just "continue living life for... years.... in this exact same way."
I figure instead of what I was planning on, which involved moving etc., I will go back to getting a certain license for my profession. But that will only take a month or so.....

I don't think I'll even enjoy it per say, but I think it's time to repaint my house. It still has horrible "building quality" white paint, covered in stains from the decades, and I've been wanting to repaint for many years.

So instead of moving and getting a new job and a new life, I'll.... further my education a little, and make my house slightly nicer? I dunno. I guess I should pick up a sport or something too.... But that's still.... not really the level of change I was looking for. It's so plebian. I want to go on a journey.