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My birthday is at the end of this month, and I'm really dreading it. I don't have it in me to even pretend I'm happy. I don't want to see my family or friends. I was just starting to do better, and then someone gave me a present and I've just been fixating on it since then.
 
I am sick of being abandoned for no reason.
If you are anything IRL like on here there's plenty of reason.
I wasn't referring to people in this thread.

Rather, I was expressing in this thread that the content on the farms sometimes gets me down.
I misread your first post then and thought "I get what he says, some users posting ITT are really down bad :heart-empty:".
 
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One of my coworkers just "came out as transgender" and took over a meeting for their narcissistic song and dance about their new "identity" and I hate the fucking antichrist ttd ttd ttd ttd ttdttdtdfydt
Fuck, I'm sorry. I already despise when a meeting devolves into that one asshole holding everyone else up to ask questions he definitely could have waited to ask until the meeting was over. If some mental case stood up and made the meeting about lopping their dick off, I don't think I could contain myself.
 
Fuck, I'm sorry. I already despise when a meeting devolves into that one asshole holding everyone else up to ask questions he definitely could have waited to ask until the meeting was over. If some mental case stood up and made the meeting about lopping their dick off, I don't think I could contain myself.
And it's never something simple with "I'm no longer John Smith, it's Jane Smith now" it's always "I'm sure you're wondering where John Smith went, well 👋voila👋 here I am!!! But now it's Josephine Foucault Guildenstern and I'm sure you're all super excited to meet the new me!!!" and it's a shlubby IT nerd in a filthy hoodie and clown makeup and I'm beginning to wonder if white collar work is really worth the fucking money
 
I am curious if anyone is from a big city and has since relocated to a rural location very happily.
Many things have happened in the last 10 years which have rendered my contemplation. I'm from the Bronx and I have left home many times- to join the military, to live in Australia for 5 years, Argentina for 2 years, contract work around the US many years.... and every time I leave, I miss the city enough that it actively bothers me everyday till I get back. It's not family ties; my parents have died now along with my grandparents and my uncles, aunts, cousins & siblings live abroad.
I'm simply in love with my city. But it's killing me. Is there any possibility I can leave for good and not exist heartbroken?
From bughive dweller to bughive dweller, i think we'll miss the city no matter where we go. I curse my city (capital of where i am from) daily, but i have been all over the country plus around internationally a lot and every place i went to just seemed like a cheap copy or an even bigger shithole than the one i come from. The farthest i would move is to the outskirts of the city, where it is indeed rural but i'd be at the city center via train in an hour, tops. Not gonna happen because rent is almost as expensive when living on the outskirts as it would be city center, shit has been out of control since forever.

Edit: We are also at 99.2% capacity regarding rentable space and all these faggots rising new houses are doing is either making the rent unaffordable for middle class and below or it's outright not for rent (i think the law says only 2% of a new multi-party house needs to be for rent to be legal) and targeting rich arabs and russians as potential buyers. Should be fucking illegal for foreigners to buy in the first place.
 
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Can’t get shitty healthcare in my shithole country. Chronic pain due to an extremely routine and simple procedure I need, but can’t get for years. But hey, at least it’s free!!! fucking kill me
Be grateful. You could easily end up like that guy who had his ass removed.
 
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I am curious if anyone is from a big city and has since relocated to a rural location very happily.
Many things have happened in the last 10 years which have rendered my contemplation. I'm from the Bronx and I have left home many times- to join the military, to live in Australia for 5 years, Argentina for 2 years, contract work around the US many years.... and every time I leave, I miss the city enough that it actively bothers me everyday till I get back. It's not family ties; my parents have died now along with my grandparents and my uncles, aunts, cousins & siblings live abroad.
I'm simply in love with my city. But it's killing me. Is there any possibility I can leave for good and not exist heartbroken?
It only worked when moving to a small student town which had most amenities that interest me in cities but in smaller quantities. What personally attracts me to metropolitan areas is the art scene ranging from the run-of-the-mill concerts and cinemas to opera and ballet. The town feels alive because young people keep moving in an out whilst being the driving force behind organizing cultural events. There is a wide variety of sports and arts with accessible language and writing groups. The meeting places and venues in the town also accommodate these groups and steer away from the usual greasy pubs found in the countryside. The church is also noticeably more active with actual young people joining. While it might sound stupid to some, I recommend to look for places where there is a constant or growing number of educated young people. The issue with most rural locations is that they are greying and becoming increasingly populated by the elderly who usually only support the local health care industry. The main downside is that you will also experience all the negatives of the youth culture.
 
One of my coworkers just "came out as transgender" and took over a meeting for their narcissistic song and dance about their new "identity" and I hate the fucking antichrist ttd ttd ttd ttd ttdttdtdfydt
Work in a psych ward, mostly with boomers. Saw a fem-tranny walk past; impressive ginger beard with a generic kpop middle split hairdo. Suspenders? Basically had no tits so didn't need them removed but the voice was just 100% female. In a fucking psych ward. This brainrotten tard is gonna educate normal, healthy but mentally sick people on how to live their life? Imagine that. 58, alcoholic, depressed. In walks this mockery of the Lord's image. I'd fucking kill myself.

Anyway. I too have sent out applications but I've no idea if I'm more employable than last time. I got 1 year of 6 to 2 work under my belt, and lack of current employment is always what these mf'ers strike down on, but I'm also 4 years out of my master's, meaning it's literally useless to many of these tards, regardless of yknow. Being capable of completing higher education, which clearly means nothing compared to some bimbo with no aspirations having waited tables since 18 and thus getting a lowly job I'd be overqualified but driven about. Sucks.
 
Elections are coming up and I'm going to be working them. I usually get excited as they only happen every four years, but this year I can't seem to be bothered to care.
 
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I work for a big company that every American here knows and may use, and many non Americans have probably heard of. It bought out competition in a dumb way and fucked itself up, three fold:

1) The competition is competent, while the amoeba blob monster owner is not. A lot of the best (or at least most primadonna) talent is going to leave the second the market improves.
2) It fucked its own SEO by ruining the brands people actually liked, lol.
3) The most well known and loved brand was hollowed out and is worn like a skin suit by the new corpo-monster.

I am, of course, trying to fix this, which is what I do: I try to solve intractable problems created by morons and assholes. I am stupid, do not be me.

Working here is mediocre, or as the kids put it, 'mid', at best. You can't get in trouble for lacking off, but you also can't get shit done. Everything is a gigantic mess, like someone sewed together a few startups that never grew up out of being startups.

I am doing the most retarded kind of research imaginable, that is, gleaning information other people actually know in detail, to give a recommendation based off of this shitty research, to the people who already know. I am almost certain what I recommend will end up lost in the shuffle and the dumbest laziest way to fix things will be done instead.

I'm real tired, boss.
 
I work for a big company that every American here knows and may use, and many non Americans have probably heard of. It bought out competition in a dumb way and fucked itself up, three fold:

1) The competition is competent, while the amoeba blob monster owner is not. A lot of the best (or at least most primadonna) talent is going to leave the second the market improves.
2) It fucked its own SEO by ruining the brands people actually liked, lol.
3) The most well known and loved brand was hollowed out and is worn like a skin suit by the new corpo-monster.

I am, of course, trying to fix this, which is what I do: I try to solve intractable problems created by morons and assholes. I am stupid, do not be me.

Working here is mediocre, or as the kids put it, 'mid', at best. You can't get in trouble for lacking off, but you also can't get shit done. Everything is a gigantic mess, like someone sewed together a few startups that never grew up out of being startups.

I am doing the most retarded kind of research imaginable, that is, gleaning information other people actually know in detail, to give a recommendation based off of this shitty research, to the people who already know. I am almost certain what I recommend will end up lost in the shuffle and the dumbest laziest way to fix things will be done instead.

I'm real tired, boss.
Maybe time to shop around for a new gig. People who move onto different companies approximately every 5 years throughout their career typically end up making over a million dollars more over their lifetime than people who stay at one place for 20+ years. If you work for a company, trust me there's plenty like it.
Also I've found that it comes to a point where you either leave your job because you're miserable, or you're not actually miserable so you simply stop letting it make you miserable. If you're miserable and you work for someone else, why stay. If work isn't ultimately miserable but it's making you feel miserable all the time, maybe you need to just stop taking it as seriously. It's a job. It is serious certainly but it's only 1/3 of the day. Fill the rest of your day with things you actually enjoy and fulfill you; go on vacation, create an exercise routine, find a weekly restaurant or reach out to a friend or tryst you haven't seen in a while. I love my job but it definitely makes me miserable when it begins to feel like all I ever do. Stupid decisions and tedious variables from above me that make my effort feel futile; I can't let those instances bother me because I get paid to do a job, not to set or accomplish the goals of my company. If they want to pay me to show up and work & then not use my work to actually progress the goals.... the check still cashed for me, you know? It's not my goal, not my failing infrastructure or bleeding revenue. If you feel passionate about pursuing those kinds of large scale goals maybe you should start your own business?
 
Reading all these work-malaise posts reminds me why I'm so grateful for my tolerable wagie situation.

I have a lot of problems with my employers wider culture and I work with some useless contemptible freaks, but the fools gave me a lab to run with zero oversight because no one really cares about or appreciates what my department does. The pay isn't great but I've got way more control and less stress than I would have if I moved to a different employer to do the same thing.
In 2024 terms i'm living the fucking dream: I can instigate moderately interesting projects. I live in an affluent area and don't commute. And most of all- no DEI or pronouns shit yet. (don't know if my employer realises what great effect thats having on staff retention but from talking to people I think it's a big factor).

2 years ago I was going to apply for everything and chase more pay and better colleagues; a greater institution, but having talked to so many people in my field I value avoiding the political DEI HR minefield so I'm going to stay put unless something I can't refuse comes up. I've got a unicorn job in a lot of ways.

Don't get me wrong, being a wage-slave is sucking away my life but I'm well aware my wage-slavery is positively luxurious.
I feel for all my fellow kiwis for whom earning a wage is now dependant on bowing to troon ideology, working with outright lunatics, or putting up with bloated corporate dead hands holding down all effectiveness.

Ninjad but ETA: quote @owed to joy
If work isn't ultimately miserable but it's making you feel miserable all the time, maybe you need to just stop taking it as seriously.
This is very true.
 
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Maybe time to shop around for a new gig. People who move onto different companies approximately every 5 years throughout their career typically end up making over a million dollars more over their lifetime than people who stay at one place for 20+ years. If you work for a company, trust me there's plenty like it.
Also I've found that it comes to a point where you either leave your job because you're miserable, or you're not actually miserable so you simply stop letting it make you miserable. If you're miserable and you work for someone else, why stay. If work isn't ultimately miserable but it's making you feel miserable all the time, maybe you need to just stop taking it as seriously. It's a job. It is serious certainly but it's only 1/3 of the day. Fill the rest of your day with things you actually enjoy and fulfill you; go on vacation, create an exercise routine, find a weekly restaurant or reach out to a friend or tryst you haven't seen in a while. I love my job but it definitely makes me miserable when it begins to feel like all I ever do. Stupid decisions and tedious variables from above me that make my effort feel futile; I can't let those instances bother me because I get paid to do a job, not to set or accomplish the goals of my company. If they want to pay me to show up and work & then not use my work to actually progress the goals.... the check still cashed for me, you know? It's not my goal, not my failing infrastructure or bleeding revenue. If you feel passionate about pursuing those kinds of large scale goals maybe you should start your own business?

Market's shit atm or I would be already
 
Reading all these work-malaise posts reminds me why I'm so grateful for my tolerable wagie situation.

I have a lot of problems with my employers wider culture and I work with some useless contemptible freaks, but the fools gave me a lab to run with zero oversight because no one really cares about or appreciates what my department does. The pay isn't great but I've got way more control and less stress than I would have if I moved to a different employer to do the same thing.
In 2024 terms i'm living the fucking dream: I can instigate moderately interesting projects. I live in an affluent area and don't commute. And most of all- no DEI or pronouns shit yet. (don't know if my employer realises what great effect thats having on staff retention but from talking to people I think it's a big factor).

2 years ago I was going to apply for everything and chase more pay and better colleagues; a greater institution, but having talked to so many people in my field I value avoiding the political DEI HR minefield so I'm going to stay put unless something I can't refuse comes up. I've got a unicorn job in a lot of ways.

Don't get me wrong, being a wage-slave is sucking away my life but I'm well aware my wage-slavery is positively luxurious.
I feel for all my fellow kiwis for whom earning a wage is now dependant on bowing to troon ideology, working with outright lunatics, or putting up with bloated corporate dead hands holding down all effectiveness.

Ninjad but ETA: quote @owed to joy
This is very true.
Glad to hear there's other workplaces out there that aren't forcing the DEI shit down their employees throats. I was surprised when I came into my first meeting here, it sounded like I was back in a team room again which helped me open up immediately since I didn't need to put on the filters I was used to with my prior workplace. I'm nowhere close to that 1% pay for my field, but this place is pretty give and take with us as long as we're getting the work done, and time off is worth its weight in gold to me.
 
Reading all these work-malaise posts reminds me why I'm so grateful for my tolerable wagie situation.

I have a lot of problems with my employers wider culture and I work with some useless contemptible freaks, but the fools gave me a lab to run with zero oversight because no one really cares about or appreciates what my department does. The pay isn't great but I've got way more control and less stress than I would have if I moved to a different employer to do the same thing.
In 2024 terms i'm living the fucking dream: I can instigate moderately interesting projects. I live in an affluent area and don't commute. And most of all- no DEI or pronouns shit yet. (don't know if my employer realises what great effect thats having on staff retention but from talking to people I think it's a big factor).

2 years ago I was going to apply for everything and chase more pay and better colleagues; a greater institution, but having talked to so many people in my field I value avoiding the political DEI HR minefield so I'm going to stay put unless something I can't refuse comes up. I've got a unicorn job in a lot of ways.

Don't get me wrong, being a wage-slave is sucking away my life but I'm well aware my wage-slavery is positively luxurious.
I feel for all my fellow kiwis for whom earning a wage is now dependant on bowing to troon ideology, working with outright lunatics, or putting up with bloated corporate dead hands holding down all effectiveness.

Ninjad but ETA: quote @owed to joy
This is very true.
I feel the same way. Highly tolerable wagie life on my end. And honestly, as much as it's an existentially debatable lifestyle, I find that it's enormously beneficial to the human experience to have a job or something that duplicates the characteristics of a job. As in, commits you to do something at a specific time for a specific duration of time and interact with other people every single day. Even better if it gets you out of the house, makes you get dressed and focus on something besides yourself and your own life.
I'm very fortunate to work for a terrible company but to have the best job in the whole operation. I have a boss who lives across the country, we speak monthly. I have a work pick up truck to take home, personal use acceptable, gas and tolls and maintenance fully paid for, extremely generous salary and I get to travel all over the world, work outside & hold multiple offices in multiple locations, meet all kinds of people, learn all kinds of things. Bonus, expenses paid, complete control of my own schedule. The only drawback is my company is cheap so I'm one of one in my role and therefore extremely busy. Not a bad thing! But more importantly, it's highly rewarding to do something you enjoy, that you're good at and simultaneously challenged by, and for me personally, to help teach young men and women new skills to advance their careers in the same way mine was.
 
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