How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Lukie]

We're back! Missed some of you - hope you're all doing okay!

 

[Éamonn Ceannt]

Kinda bummed out but ok. Aontu only picked up one seat in the Dail and the Green Party didn't get completely wiped out. But they doubled their first preference vote count, got state funding, and preformed really well in some races even if they didn't win a seat. Also I went to Mass today so that has me feeling good.

 

[Betonhaus]

So yeah turns out germs don't respect the ten second rule so I'm not doing great at the moment.

This pain feels completely different then the nausea I've had before so I'm mildly concerned. If it doesn't go away after dinner I might try to get it looked at.

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

Chest pains started back up; probably the result of stopping my workout regimen for a few days due to work. So, that's been fun.

Aside from that, work went well, actually; we got hammered hard, but we weathered the storm fairly well. Boss even complimented us on our work, which was nice.

Writing's going well, as well; got some ideas down, and I think I can start making some real progress soon. I need to talk with a few people about a few things, but overall, it's good.

A trip that I had been planning for quite some time with my family, that I was supposed to take tomorrow, got cancelled last minute; my mother had signed up for a church thing last-minute, so naturally we had to throw our plans out for her. Not exactly upset, mind; we were planning on going on it at a later date, and it gives me an opportunity to recover after Black Friday and Thanksgiving stuff. So, that's something.

 

[Commander Kneewing]

Now that everything's in order...

Last night my younger brother got dumped. I think it was his first relationship.

Now we're on the same boat.

 

[missnaptime]

i'm worried i'm never going to amount to anything. seasonal on top of regular depression has been kicking my ass for weeks, and this is the first day i've gone to lectures in over 5 weeks. i'm so sick of being depressed and continually apathetic and listless about life until it gets to a point where the anxiety of failure compells me to actually go on. i gotta get my shit together and reach out for help, i'm already resitting the year. i need to go back on my meds and i need to get help, and i'm scared. i don't want to fail. i want to have a comfortable and peaceful life. i don't want to be struggling like this.

 

[bliblblblbbllb]

Probably my worst thanksgiving performance. I got up and left and walked miles home within minutes of arriving. I'm having some sort of mental break. I'm going to beg for help like a dog asking for scrapes (or that's what it feels like at least) but I have pretty low hopes.

 

[DavidS877]

I hate the holidays. After you get old enough everything/everyone dies. I visit the family ranch where there used to be horses/cows/pigs/goats/etc. now there's 2 dogs and a couple chickens. I keep looking at the spot where the bird cage used to be in the house and it's gone too.

I also hate technology. My heat pump went out a month or two ago. Diagnostics said it was a bad power control board. So I ordered one. But it's been raining. Finally got a weekend without rain. Opened it up, double checked all the connections one more time. Turned it on and now it works fine. Well, at least I have a spare power board for when it finally rusts away.

 

[missnaptime]

a very brief update;

- reached out to my personal tutor to discuss my concerns, lack of attendance etc and get advice. thats on thursday.
- seeing my mom tomorrow and i'm going to ask for a little more support from her and tell her that i'm struggling.
- i've reached out to my university's mental health resources. waiting on an email from them.
- i've started planning my final essays early so they can contribute to a better grade. seeing as one of them constitutes for 70% of my grade and the other 50%, i think i can pass my modules pretty comfortably if i put nose to grindstone.
- i also spoke to a chaplain at my university for some spiritual advice and to get a little bit of courage.

i'm also planning on getting in touch with my gp again tomorrow and asking for psychiatric support and to see if there's any sort of long term therapy that i can access on the nhs - as my university only does short term to address an immediate concern. i hope to go back on my medication.

i realise this is a short turnaround from the 'oh shit oh shit' post i posted earlier, but i'm very much a type of person where if i see there's an issue, i should correct it, even if it feels embarrassing to do so. nobody else has to live my life, and i'm responsible for making it a good one.
thank you very much for all the people who reached out and have asked if i'm okay, i really truly appreciate it <3 i'm going to do my best!

 

[Anonitolia]

melancholy

Kind of wild looking back on my posts here a year ago and finding myself in a similar position lol. Interesting coincidence.

I think I've grown since then, at least. That's a positive.

2025'll be better, I know as much with absolute certainty. I don't know if it'll be the year I figure everything out or anything, but I have high hopes. I'm done sitting around trying to ignore things being shitty-- next year I'll keep fixing things like I have this year, and with enough effort and smarts I'm sure it'll work out.

Hope all you Kiwis had a great Thanksgiving, btw. Merry Christmas in advance to you all as well. I'll be hoping you guys have a peaceful holiday season while I enjoy some super-late latkes and sufganiyot.

Seriously, what a neat coincidence that both our latest holidays decided to coincide this year. It's gonna kick so much ass when it happens. Totally going to bring my Christian acquaintances some high-quality Hanukkah foods. You will eat the jelly-filled donuts for Christmas and you will LIKE them!

 

[Rekeita's Kidneys]

melancholy

Kind of wild looking back on my posts here a year ago and finding myself in a similar position lol. Interesting coincidence.

I think I've grown since then, at least. That's a positive.

2025'll be better, I know as much with absolute certainty. I don't know if it'll be the year I figure everything out or anything, but I have high hopes. I'm done sitting around trying to ignore things being shitty-- next year I'll keep fixing things like I have this year, and with enough effort and smarts I'm sure it'll work out.

Hope all you Kiwis had a great Thanksgiving, btw. Merry Christmas in advance to you all as well. I'll be hoping you guys have a peaceful holiday season while I enjoy some super-late latkes and sufganiyot.

Seriously, what a neat coincidence that both our latest holidays decided to coincide this year. It's gonna kick so much ass when it happens. Totally going to bring my Christian acquaintances some high-quality Hanukkah foods. You will eat the jelly-filled donuts for Christmas and you will LIKE them!

L'chaim! (I really should make matzo ball soup, even if it makes me fart and shit like mad t. gluten intolerant)

 

[Core Theorist]

I just had some cookies. They were store-bought goyslop cookies but I still liked them.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

I have some project in the works, but I get more and more conflicted. I want to finish it, but then I don't want it to be the sole thing I do, I have other interests. Also, I need to rest and just fuck around to clean my mind out of it. But when I look at it, I feel guilty that I am not doing enough. What's worse is that every time I move it an inch further, I realize that it is going to take even longer. I wish there was someone equally dedicated and autistic to help me or at least some AI companion l, but I doubt there is.
Take care, people, and good luck.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

Wanted to read up on financial stuff, only to realize how poorly I'm sat. I didn't work since 18 so I'm already behind, but also got a relatively modest student loan debt. So I got the education that took away from just hustling since 18, failed to capitalize on my education, AND ended up in a literal bottom gig.

This next year will decide whether the house of cards fall as I'll return to trying to find work in which my education may be the deciding factor. It's a master's regardless of field, which should prove me some. And yet I'm kinda aight. I hear about coworkers spending 2 entire payslips towards a summer holiday. Id sooner car trip and hostel than that, so what does the money matter? Hm.

 

[✨Tard-Star✨]

The last couple of days have been *ok* I guess. Functionally there's nothing wrong, it's just the holiday blues starting to come up here and there.

I do have an on and off stomach/abdominal ache though, that's getting annoying.

I did watch the LOTR extended cuts with my husband over the weekend and I loved it. We don't get to just sit around and watch things very often, we're usually too busy.

I started wrapping up the gifts I'm handing out this year. They actually look very nice, I just need to add bows.

 

[Dumcumpster]

I think I'm having a mental health crisis. But idk it's been overall fine in terms of setting myself up for a decent future.

Spoiler: My ramblings if interested

I'm feeling a way I don't think I've ever felt before. I'm diagnosed as a severe depressive and I've been trying to get my doctor to test for adult ADHD but that's been unsuccessful so far. I'm gonna try to really push for it next visit. But the point is, I don't feel particularly depressed, just, disassociated. Maybe that's a strong word but I feel like I've taken a back seat in my own mind. I still can function through the day, laugh, make jokes, work, etc. but I still feel... far away. It started about a week and a half ago. And I think there was a trigger and I know what it is. I don't want to go into detail but recently i have crossed a private line i nevee thought i would cross. I havent hurt anybody or anything like that its all mental. I've always had a loud and obtrusive mind and often find myself thinking the same thoughts over and over and over for long periods of time. It's kind of like a mental white noise while I'm thinking of other things. Best way I can put it is like, I'm thinking "ok here's this work thing I need to do, I gotta do this, this, and this." But in the gaps it'll be a sentence or idea that plays again and again. Idk if that makes sense or not. But the rolling repeating ideas in combination with the disassociation is making it difficult to do things like sleep and focus. And all of that is making me feel depressed and anxious.

 

[Éamonn Ceannt]

Great, the news out of Seoul really cheered me up.

 

[Betonhaus]

Currently have to go on a cover letter zoom meeting for income support that's mandatory, but I shouldn't have to be in as I guess I already have a job. It was supposed to start Monday but it was suddenly delayed because they wanted to do drug testing and the company they worked with were delayed a few days due to some sort of event in the states that didn't affect us.

 

[Éamonn Ceannt]

Great, the news out of Seoul really cheered me up.

Now I'm doing terrible and getting drunk to copee. The coup saidly failed!

 

[Commander Kneewing]

I forgot that I ran out of my anti-allergy meds the other day so I didn't take the time to replenish my supply yesterday. I've had hives on my upper thighs for about two hours now.