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been keeping it to myself but my mom had been served an eviction notice 3 days before xmas. today got the news that she's going to have to be placed in a women's shelter (and by proxy, me, as i live with her outside of university term time) because housing is so unnaffordable and all the social housing has been taken up by fucking illegal immigrants.

i fucking hate every single one of them and their shithole countries.
You need to talk to the Dean of Students or similar at your university. You may be able to be housed in the dormitory for free over breaks. It really depends but all universities are going to have some sort of support for people who live in the dorms and suddenly are unable to return to their off-season housing. I'm talking from American pov but I have to hope it's similar elsewhere.



Surprisingly well. Sleep deprived, but got my apartment blessed, and Father at the church said he's aiming to baptize me on Lazarus Saturday, so I'm excited.
Wonderful news!!!


I am so tired and busy lately, idk how this happened.
 
You need to talk to the Dean of Students or similar at your university. You may be able to be housed in the dormitory for free over breaks. It really depends but all universities are going to have some sort of support for people who live in the dorms and suddenly are unable to return to their off-season housing. I'm talking from American pov but I have to hope it's similar elsewhere.
i wish it was the case. they offer *paid* accom over the summer, but i'm not sure i can afford that presently. tenatively looking into work to help pay for it if needs be.

i have a meeting today with a homelessness agency with my mom. please send cute dog/cat animal pics my way, i could use the whimsy.

also, i somehow managed to fucking sprain my big toe; so no martial arts for me until it fucking heals properly apparently. i have no idea how i managed it?????
 
been keeping it to myself but my mom had been served an eviction notice 3 days before xmas. today got the news that she's going to have to be placed in a women's shelter (and by proxy, me, as i live with her outside of university term time) because housing is so unnaffordable and all the social housing has been taken up by fucking illegal immigrants.

i fucking hate every single one of them and their shithole countries.
Ninja'd by @bliblblblbbllb, but talk to your dean. Also an excellent time to either talk to your pastor or start going to church if you're religious and seek the help of private charity.

I'm good. It's URI season, and I seem to keep a cold these days. I think it's probably shorting myself on sleep - I generally choose work and family over sleep, and it's catching up a little bit. Could be worse.
 
There is quite a bit of money from refunds and stuff that would be in my bank account right now if every single system in this entire country hadn’t been handed over on a platter to retarded fucking third worlders. I’m so sick of every single day of my life being a giant fucking pain in the ass because some variety of nigger is in charge of something they shouldn’t be. I could punch straight through a brick wall right now.

Sorry I’m mad as shit and need to not take it out on my (equally retarded and equally brown) colleagues so I’m whining here.
 
I don't know if it's just the winter, but I've felt so down lately. Hard to get motivated. I've been going to the gym more, try to do at least a couple hours each time, and I'll feel better in the moment but then I get home and depression swallows me whole again. It could be due to where I am in life, or rather, where I'm not. I'm 40 with no girlfriend, or wife, no children of my own. I've been wondering a lot if I'll even have anyone to mourn me when I die.
try thorne d3 + k2 supplement. If it doesnt work, you have work to do
 
Did another copy-paste of my resume to enact some drastic changes. In this case reduce text bloat and simplify. Less pixel-moving and such. Sad thing is, I can't really tell if it's any better. My first page looks a lot more condensed and worthwhile, but it can't stand without my page 2 which in turn doesn't have enough info to fill it out. I still don't believe the companies I apply for use AI to scrub applications, and I've generally gotten positive feedback on the design. Ultimately no amount of visuals will make up for a lack of experience.

It just sucks. I'm a few months off 2 years of employment here and I generally aim to never go below 2, but this isn't improving my chances. I could be doing more I guess, but I fear the private sector and the stories of "2 days sick and you're out" despite being one of the most consistent people at my workplace. To grind 3-4 years in a public job would be great but they're so fucking rooted in single mothers working 30 hours that it's impossible to get in as an >actually IT competent and driven male.

I don't know if it's just the winter, but I've felt so down lately. Hard to get motivated. I've been going to the gym more, try to do at least a couple hours each time, and I'll feel better in the moment but then I get home and depression swallows me whole again. It could be due to where I am in life, or rather, where I'm not. I'm 40 with no girlfriend, or wife, no children of my own. I've been wondering a lot if I'll even have anyone to mourn me when I die.
Funny thing is all it takes is joining some random club, but even stooping to something like that takes such effort if you're not used to it. We got a do-it-all lesbo at work who does salsa, choir etc. She roped a guy into it and not a month later he not only found another dance partner, but also got another 2, who also in turn invited him for other things. One decision and the guy had 3 weekly appointments, personally, from (married) women to do something. I too hate the fact how fucking easy it is to get a better life; all of one decision. I randomly get these bursts of energy when I'm already out and about to just, do something. Google nearby clubs or whatever. Then I get home and I lose all motivation.

I asked myself the other day: What am I even #hustling for? The day I get a partner and need to have savings? I live a simple life with low aspirations; I'd sooner dream of being someone of importance in a club with 12 other people than a senior director in San Fran or whatever the fuck. So what am I waiting for, that I can't achieve right now? "Well I kinda wanna get into WoW; the only people who play it are my age peers and people who opted out of the modern titty gaming climate", yet I won't stoop to finding an actual guild and going "Yeah, I wanna fucking raid and socialize". I want it to just happen into my lap. And it won't.
 
The power of clubs are pretty amazing. I joined a couple language clubs, even a drama club. I feel kinda bad for not going to them, as my schedule is fucked beyond recognition thanks to college.
If you come from gaming you feel borderline retarded with all the loopholes and shit you have to get through to get even close to the simple gatekeeping mechanic of "Paying for a membership and going". Discord killed any reason to log in and idle in an mmorpg. Group chat culture removed any peer2peer relationship building. Ey bro archery sounds fun? Go. You'll meet people who are 100% mentally there. For example, the fighting game community is dead as shit compared to other genres, so you need to actively communicate, plan, and even meet up irl to get anything going. That is closer to club culture than most things- again, which is out there easily available for non-gaming contexts.

A coworker kicked the bucket recently, 100s of attendees at the funeral, not 30% were family + coworkers. It was from her other pretty low-investment clubs you'd see pensioners partake in for the sake of going out. Ask any entitled mf'er with a fat wallet what good they did for their community and chances are, not half as much as anyone making half as much. That's who you're meant to aspire to be.
 
Just got the call from the people that scanned my leg . Apparently they still don't know what it is , they need mri with contrast . I am sorry why the fuck did you made me drive 4 hour roundtrip and spend 20 minutes in the bloody mri machine for you to say sorry you have to do it again see ya next week.

Is it hematoma? cancer? ripped muscle? cyst? alien egg? Nobody knows .

I just got beer because I cant cope with this lunacy . Thank god for mama san

On the subject on mama san she decided my 2,5 year old is old enough to be read kardemomme by and give it to him on Christmas .

A book that is read to kids twice his age and I cant read it without butchering the language

RIP norwegian language , butchered by slavic housewife circa 2025.
 
If you come from gaming you feel borderline retarded with all the loopholes and shit you have to get through to get even close to the simple gatekeeping mechanic of "Paying for a membership and going". Discord killed any reason to log in and idle in an mmorpg. Group chat culture removed any peer2peer relationship building. Ey bro archery sounds fun? Go. You'll meet people who are 100% mentally there. For example, the fighting game community is dead as shit compared to other genres, so you need to actively communicate, plan, and even meet up irl to get anything going. That is closer to club culture than most things- again, which is out there easily available for non-gaming contexts.

A coworker kicked the bucket recently, 100s of attendees at the funeral, not 30% were family + coworkers. It was from her other pretty low-investment clubs you'd see pensioners partake in for the sake of going out. Ask any entitled mf'er with a fat wallet what good they did for their community and chances are, not half as much as anyone making half as much. That's who you're meant to aspire to be.
I had no idea and I consider myself to be a bit of a gamer. I don't do a lot of clubs as the ones I know don't operate on the weekends. I do volunteer but most of the people are old men, nice people.

It's kinda annoying seeing people volunteer and be surrounded by people in their age group.
 
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My car battery keeps draining. No idea what’s doing it. I was told the alternator is fine, and I never even turn on the lights since my eyes are too shot to drive in the dark, so it’s not me leaving them on. Very, very aggravated to be dealing with this on top of all my other problems, of which there are many. I seem to have the worst luck with cars.
 
Just spent the past half hour being taught the most bafflingly complex way to do a task which, once I understood the underlying reasoning for this task, I realized can be done in like three steps. But I'll have to do it the way the old guy does until he retires otherwise he'll just spend another half hour teaching me again how to do it his way. (It's to determine what to set the safety limit to for the machine when using the tail stock using a mind boggling amount of math which turns out to be exactly the programmed tool length of the current tool + distance from the part, or the distance from the turret face to the distance from the part you want to be.
 
I look like this and say these things.
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A certain yellow flower is starting to bloom, all over the place, and the pollen just kills me, even with various types of medication, such as pills and eye drops. Right eye is the worst. This will last for a couple of months. Affects all sorts of people here.

Today went to commissary, paid $9.07 for a dozen jumbo eggs. Most ever paid. Other eggs are rather less expensive; like the jumbo eggs. Dozen lasts me two or three weeks.
 
A certain yellow flower is starting to bloom, all over the place, and the pollen just kills me, even with various types of medication, such as pills and eye drops. Right eye is the worst. This will last for a couple of months. Affects all sorts of people here.

Today went to commissary, paid $9.07 for a dozen jumbo eggs. Most ever paid. Other eggs are rather less expensive; like the jumbo eggs. Dozen lasts me two or three weeks.
Have you tried buying local honey? I've heard a few people state that it really helps with pollen allergies. If it does nothing you at least get a sweet treat while you're suffering. :)
 
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