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I have been miserable recently. I have been attending online college, and it's awful. I barely learned anything as a kid, so I struggle with it. I'm feeling depressed. I have nothing going on in my life. I'm fat. I'm miserable. I moved back in with my parents a couple of months ago because I couldn't get a job that paid well enough. I don't know what to do now. I feel too old to do anything with my life.
 
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#FreeRoss said:
I have been miserable recently. I have been attending online college, and it's awful. I barely learned anything as a kid, so I struggle with it. I'm feeling depressed. I have nothing going on in my life. I'm fat. I'm miserable. I moved back in with my parents a couple of months ago because I couldn't get a job that paid well enough. I don't know what to do now. I feel too old to do anything with my life.
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There was a dude once who was sentenced to prison and only released at the age of 36, only to go on and become the head of state of his country and have a series of massive military successes.

Well, okay, that was Hitler. But you get the idea.
 
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#FreeRoss said:
I have been miserable recently. I have been attending online college, and it's awful. I barely learned anything as a kid, so I struggle with it. I'm feeling depressed. I have nothing going on in my life. I'm fat. I'm miserable. I moved back in with my parents a couple of months ago because I couldn't get a job that paid well enough. I don't know what to do now. I feel too old to do anything with my life.
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What are you studying?
 
I'm so frustrated with the medical system. Piss poor communication has made it take forever to get my tests done and I'm getting really sick of having IBD symptoms. At least I was able to get my other meds without much trouble but still.

And then I found out my rent's going up $50 starting in May so I guess it's time to look for an income restricted apartment. I thought I didn't qualify but I actually might based on current 80% income limits.
 
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#FreeRoss said:
I have been miserable recently. I have been attending online college, and it's awful. I barely learned anything as a kid, so I struggle with it. I'm feeling depressed. I have nothing going on in my life. I'm fat. I'm miserable. I moved back in with my parents a couple of months ago because I couldn't get a job that paid well enough. I don't know what to do now. I feel too old to do anything with my life.
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I feel like there are many like us in this exact situation. I'm trying to deal with mental bullshit at the moment and piece together some semblance of "normalcy". It hurts being older and feeling like you've missed out on so many social milestones.
I've never had any relationships or any positive female attention in my life. My family was/is incredibly abusive and I'm trying to process the fucked up shit they've done to me this day.

My parents seem to believe there is a "normal switch" I can just flip at any time and no longer have autism and other lovely disorders. This shit is lifelong and I just have to learn how to cope and manage it. It hurts knowing I'm probably never going to live a full normal life.

Carry on with your college man, it never hurts to learn anything. I need to go back myself but I'm a fucking mess so I think I need to fix myself mentally *first*.
You should also pick up weightlifting as well, or just any physical activity. Even when I'm doing it and I am still depressed, at least I can know I did something other than just rot. Feel free to ask me for advice about it, I've been doing it for a long ass time now and I enjoy trying to get people in shape.
 
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Whats your regiment broskie?
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Push, Pull, Legs with 5/3/1. It's kinda disorganized since I am very depressed atm (literally just *doing* anything is an accomplishment)
Just the big 4 compounds and whatever accessory bullshit related to them. I need to get some nicer gear and more strictly train, I've gotten disorganized lol.

I am the strongest I've ever been which is cool I suppose.
 
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You know, I was so tired this week that I can't even smile thinking it is over and I can have a proper weekend. On Monday it is going to start again and honestly I feel done. I just hope that having some good sleep will put me back in the right mood, if not - well, I am fucked.
Take care and have a good weekend.
 
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My mental health has been pretty dogshit lately. Losing my beloved cat a few months ago and seeing my grandmother’s dementia get so bad she’s turned violent has been devastating to say the least. Add my boss being very creepy and making work a living hell as the cherry on top. I always pull through, but it fucking sucks majorly in the moment.

Despite all the shit life throws at us, we need to find reasons to keep going; even if purely out of spite. We all got this, frens. My heart goes out to all of you going through it.
 
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Ran into a crazy/intoxicated homeless woman last night. She looked me straight in the eye and started babbling in (what sounded like) some Slavic language. When she realized I didn't understand her, she switched languages and simply said: You're gonna die tomorrow.

I don't know if this was a threat, some gypsy curse or a prophecy, but this single sentence has made today slightly more interesting to go through.
 
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The 'here comes the sun' video that was pinned on the front page for a while, does anyone else think it's painfully depressing? If so, why are we like this?
 
Getting so increasingly angry at raccoons and squirrels ruining my garden and scaring my dog, that I am thinking of doing research on being a trapper and/or wildlife control so I can shoot the little shits myself than calling people who might not do anything.

My dog can hunt rats in the house, but I don't really want to run the risk of rabies on bigger creatures.
 
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