How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Nick Obre]

One of my all-time favorite bands has just announced they've disbanded.

Fucking god dammit.

 

[Cemetery Support]

I took the gum advice to heart and I am at this stage. I've had 2mg today and I am like 2 and a half weeks free from cigarettes.
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Can't wait to get this shit over with holy hell.

I'm completely off that shit niggaaaaaaaa
Its been a month since I touched any nicotine. I'm FREE

 

[Mandy Stroyer]

I'm so frustrated with the medical system. Piss poor communication has made it take forever to get my tests done and I'm getting really sick of having IBD symptoms. At least I was able to get my other meds without much trouble but still.

In the same boat. I've done multiple tests over the last 2 years and still have no idea what's happening. Already knew I had celiac years prior, didn't know it was causing chronic anemia via malabsorption. Coming up on 2 years of eating low FODMAP soon which helps with only the minor issues. The diet is supposed to be a few months at most. A nigga needs to eat hopefully getting my meds soon.

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

In the same boat. I've done multiple tests over the last 2 years and still have no idea what's happening. Already knew I had celiac years prior, didn't know it was causing chronic anemia via malabsorption. Coming up on 2 years of eating low FODMAP soon which helps with only the minor issues. The diet is supposed to be a few months at most. A nigga needs to eat hopefully getting my meds soon.

My care team seems to think I have food allergies because of a blood test but I still think it's crohn's or colitis because of other non GI tract symptoms I've noticed. They referred me to an allergy specialist. But elevated allergens for different foods on top of all my other symptoms is a sign of IBD.

 

[Core Theorist]

I'm getting pretty happy with my models!

My electric toothbrush ran out of battery mid-way while I was brushing my teeth so that was a little annoying.

I've been feeling a little low energy though. I can't decide if I should go outside (eww!) or try and exercise (boring!), though. I was supposed to start exercising a while ago but I lost interest and have been trying to focus on my 3d hobbyist project. I know getting some blood flowing from mild exercise would probably help but I'm used to being a fatass so it's a bit of a catch-22 there.

 

[SergeantAutist]

a spiral into apathy so insidious, one forgets even the meaning of care

 

[BABANGUIDE64]

It's got worse, I numbed my sentiments with booze but as for today its effect is over and now I'm feeling bad as I was supposed to feel yesterday.
Even drunk I knew this would be going to happen.

 

[Mandy Stroyer]

My care team seems to think I have food allergies because of a blood test but I still think it's crohn's or colitis because of other non GI tract symptoms I've noticed. They referred me to an allergy specialist. But elevated allergens for different foods on top of all my other symptoms is a sign of IBD.

The first thing I did was get allergy tested and everything came back fine, but other tests showed even with the gluten free diet my immune system was going apeshit so I feel you there. The food allergen thing is interesting, I didn't know that. I was aware of FODMAPs but that's due to overfermentation in the gut and not an immune reaction to the food. It's possible for random allergies or autoimmune conditions (like crohns and colitis) to kick in through life too. I got a solid 21 years of gluten before my immune system decided it'd rather kill me than eat any more so it sounds plausible it'd randomly develop at some point. You don't need a family history to have it either, you are the family history now.

I don't know if you've had a colonoscopy or endoscopy, which will tell you immediately if you have inflammation/ulcers/erosion. Unfortunately without visible active damage, you just get an IBS diagnosis thrown at you but colitis and crohns tend to be extremely visible and have distinct signs and definitions so that'd be a promising route if you haven't tried it already. I'm currently waiting on a SIBO test which may explain the immune system throwing a tantrum along with every single other symptom. It's so frustrating how long it takes and how often things are overlooked. Everything gets a tummy ache label slapped on it until something else goes wrong to make the issue more obvious. It's a constant cycle of "Doc, it hurts when I eat this", "then don't eat it" until there's nothing left you can eat.

 

[Rekeita's Kidneys]

I am considering entering faith again, even though I am an agnostic.

I believe having community and people with (mostly) shared morals is something great to have.

I'm sure this will come to absolutely bite me in my fucking ass... but I want to join an Orthodox synagogue. I was raised reform and it always just irked me. It felt like the people there didn't even practice any of the faith at all. Fucks sake my old Rabbi was a dyke. She was a nice woman sure, but blasphemous as all hell.

On another note, my acne is basically fucking gone now which is absolutely mindblowing lmao, no more chronic pain!!!!
The downside is I'm covered in scars but fuck it honestly. I'm a man, I'm supposed to be a rugged bastard anyways.

Idk I am just rambling rn lol

 

[Loris Yeltsin]

The 'here comes the sun' video that was pinned on the front page for a while, does anyone else think it's painfully depressing? If so, why are we like this?
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Hadn't put much thought into it, but now that you mention it, it does have a very weird vibe. It has all the elements that I would find endearing or cheerful, but they come together in an emotionally detached/alien way that puts me off.

Report to us tommorow and tell us if you avoided death

I did not die, neither literally nor figuratively. It was a pretty unremarkable day overall.

Just to be a bit more serious about this, I'm not a very superstitious person, and I don't really believe in anything paranormal, but when it comes to my life/health/lives of loved ones, I tend to err on the side of caution no matter how ridiculous the potential threat is, so I didn't just laugh this random encounter off entirely. I'm glad the crazy person was in fact just crazy.

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

The first thing I did was get allergy tested and everything came back fine, but other tests showed even with the gluten free diet my immune system was going apeshit so I feel you there. The food allergen thing is interesting, I didn't know that. I was aware of FODMAPs but that's due to overfermentation in the gut and not an immune reaction to the food. It's possible for random allergies or autoimmune conditions (like crohns and colitis) to kick in through life too. I got a solid 21 years of gluten before my immune system decided it'd rather kill me than eat any more so it sounds plausible it'd randomly develop at some point. You don't need a family history to have it either, you are the family history now.

I've had gut problems since I started puberty and just thought it was IBS but then they got really weird after I turned 18. And then it would get really bad for seemingly no reason, like when I was doing smokeless tobacco I'd literally be shitting mucus. Then it got better after I quit but I still had problems with constipation. And then I had a minor flare up that lasted a few months, and a couple years ago I had one that lasted like 6 months and I have no fucking clue what set it off. I got the flu last January and my guts calmed down a bit, but it never goes away completely. Couple that with the test results and it looks like my immune system has gone haywire but the doctors still aren't sure. I have high IgE levels for a bunch of different foods but low calprotectin by IBD standards (it's still higher than normal). I also tested negative for celiac disease.

These symptoms are fucking bizarre and it's a big part of why I'm such a recluse.

I don't know if you've had a colonoscopy or endoscopy, which will tell you immediately if you have inflammation/ulcers/erosion. Unfortunately without visible active damage, you just get an IBS diagnosis thrown at you but colitis and crohns tend to be extremely visible and have distinct signs and definitions so that'd be a promising route if you haven't tried it already. I'm currently waiting on a SIBO test which may explain the immune system throwing a tantrum along with every single other symptom. It's so frustrating how long it takes and how often things are overlooked. Everything gets a tummy ache label slapped on it until something else goes wrong to make the issue more obvious. It's a constant cycle of "Doc, it hurts when I eat this", "then don't eat it" until there's nothing left you can eat.

Colonoscopy is a last resort for me. I'd prefer to do more less invasive tests to see wtf is going on in my guts.

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

Literally in the last half hour the only Facebook group I enjoy, a large women’s farming group, has torn itself apart over a moderator post asking if nonbinaries and transwomen should be allowed in. The poll was about 40/60 yes/no before I was suddenly unable to access the group. It’s either been closed while they sweep up or I’ve been removed for voicing my disapproval. What a mess. It was full of great information and decent people.

How many people do I have irl who aren’t caught up in all this? One. And so conservative-leaning groups online are my refuge. If this is all some kind of op to break me down and make me feel like I’m the only person on earth who isn’t in this cult, it’s working.

It really feels like we're living in Reddit: Containment Breach, doesn't it? Everyone must conform or be exiled. I've started pulling back from all the liberal leaning communities I'm in because they got kind of unhinged after the election. There are people in there with viewpoints like mine, but you can just TELL they're hiding their power levels.

removed my powerleveling, but yeah get yo ass looked at. It’s nbd and you will be much happier with an answer and treatment.

I just hope the treatment isn't as crippling as the symptoms have been.

 

[Señora Airi]

Mentally and physically burned out, and spiritually drained. Drove a ton Saturday through Monday for a get together at my parents, now I'm working 8 solid days, including a closing shift tonight and opening up at 2am tomorrow.

Ive missed Church last Sunday and Thursday, and even if I get off work early, I'll end up missing 80% of it tomorrow. That's

 

[IKOL]

Well I'm pretty much jobless now (as of 21st of January). Our cluster manager is basic faggot with kike tendencies, been called out by me on few important occasions when he visited the store I worked at, was a matter of time before he'll look into yeetin' me out from workplace.

Do I regret? Nope. Well, not quite. My only regret is that the collective that have been build from the ground is now fading away, person by person, and that's saddening because realising I was their anchor is, at some point, both good and bad to feel for.

Now I'm in search for a new one. Kind of found one, problem is to pick more optimal option there. I have two. One would allow me to work within my house eradicating transport issue at all, or picking second one which is another store admin job but less stressful and having better pace, with better work schedule while maintaining same wage.

 

[Neighborhood Curmudgeon]

I've had a long busy month, but things are finally slowing down at work again. Also, my family drama has subsided again too. So now I can finally "catch up with myself." I don't ask for much. I just want to relax and not deal with crazy bullshit. I know it's going to eventually happen anyway, but I still love it when it doesn't.

 

[EzRolling]

I guess just wearing down. I work a lot and just keep having some insane expense hit. I live out of a van (which doubles as work vehicle). Engine failed. Replaced the engine ($4k with labor) last month and was hopeful that was it for a while. Driving to my other job on a 16hr shift the transmission won’t go above third gear. So now most likely a transmission replacement is on the table.

 

[AnOminous]

I'm completely off that shit niggaaaaaaaa
Its been a month since I touched any nicotine. I'm FREE

Awesome! It gets a lot better after that initial stage. Because smoking paralyzes your cilia which are the little filaments in your lungs that chase out phlegm. The coughing in the initial stopping smoking stage sucks. That's probably why the gum is so good, because you separate the physical stage where you're hacking your lungs out worse than when you were even smoking from the psychological stage where you're still hooked on nicotine.

The only thing that still happens is I still sometimes dream of smoking. But it doesn't make me want to smoke. I'm more disgusted that I had a dream about smoking. I'm 20+ years on.

 

[Mandy Stroyer]

I've had gut problems since I started puberty and just thought it was IBS but then they got really weird after I turned 18. And then it would get really bad for seemingly no reason,

That is around the time they can start kicking in. I think IBS is a bogus label used when they can't figure out what's actually wrong since IBS is considered to have no specific causes and no specific treatments for a giant range of symptoms. Things in your body don't happen just willy nilly and even if it is purely genetic and develops by chance, there is something your body is reacting to that it doesn't like. Narrowing it down is the hard part.

I have high IgE levels for a bunch of different foods but low calprotectin

Colonoscopy is a last resort for me. I'd prefer to do more less invasive tests to see wtf is going on in my guts.

My IgE was moderately high but my calprotectin was extremely high. Rapid weight loss alone prompted a referal for a colonoscopy and endoscopy on my first visit to the GI but finding that out got me switched with someone who had scheduled sooner. I found out my entire GI tract was mildly inflammed but not much else which was a relief since the other options were IBD or cancer. It is invasive in the sense that you're getting a camera shoved up your ass but as Haloperidol said, it is worth it to know what's going on so you can narrow down a cause, make sure it's not something worse, and take action. I'd take drinking a bottle of clenpiq weekly over my current symptoms. I understand the sentiment though and if you want something less invasive, abdominal xrays/fluoroscopy can also be used to find abnormalities.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

I hate the world and everything in it. Mom finally got us evicted with all her screaming, and is blaming it on dad and her boyfriend. To be fair they also suck. But she won't take responsibility apart from saying she's sorry and wishes she were dead.

Now, my brother and I will be fine, we can and likely will just move in with our grandparents. We already weekend here so it's just a matter of moving our stuff. Though his fish tank might be an issue as it's salt water. Our cats can come up here too, there's plenty of room for them. More than our house actually.

And I'll be around people who are able to actually motivate me to do shit and start my adult life. (Executive dysfunction and depression have made me rather useless. And yes it's partially my fault, I understand this. Don't lecture me on that right now.)

Mom, though, I don't know where she'll go. I don't even... feel much about it. I'm just numb. I'm not upset, my brain just started thinking about the logistics of what me, my brother, and the cats will do while I listen to mom cry and say she did nothing wrong on the phone. I'm not sad, or particularly angry. I'm just numb.

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

That is around the time they can start kicking in. I think IBS is a bogus label used when they can't figure out what's actually wrong since IBS is considered to have no specific causes and no specific treatments for a giant range of symptoms. Things in your body don't happen just willy nilly and even if it is purely genetic and develops by chance, there is something your body is reacting to that it doesn't like. Narrowing it down is the hard part.


My IgE was moderately high but my calprotectin was extremely high. Rapid weight loss alone prompted a referal for a colonoscopy and endoscopy on my first visit to the GI but finding that out got me switched with someone who had scheduled sooner. I found out my entire GI tract was mildly inflammed but not much else which was a relief since the other options were IBD or cancer. It is invasive in the sense that you're getting a camera shoved up your ass but as Haloperidol said, it is worth it to know what's going on so you can narrow down a cause, make sure it's not something worse, and take action. I'd take drinking a bottle of clenpiq weekly over my current symptoms. I understand the sentiment though and if you want something less invasive, abdominal xrays/fluoroscopy can also be used to find abnormalities.

Whatever it is, I have insurance and I'm getting really fucking sick of the symptoms limiting what I can do IRL.