How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

Haha. When we moved to "self-coordinated teams", they hired a third coordinator, cause of course they did. This woman had no IT skills or coordination experience. We all wondered what that was about. Fast forward to today, she's "moving back to her original team" after 3 months, several wasted courses and generally just throwing in the towel on the whole thing. Months WASTED. Literally. Why? She was moved over there to avoid drama. That's it.

That's the second god damn fucking time I've lost a career progression cause someone else was moved to avoid drama. The public sector is a joke. Fired? You get a ticket to be offered another job. Bullying someone else into sick leave? Oh you just get moved a few doors over. What's that, a MAN who can use Outlook for more than sending mails full of typos? Fuck no, over my dead body. Hire another mid-50s single mother!

My own boss has jokingly said I should come up and help them. If they do not just fucking hand me this job I am gonna hurt someone. My own boss, my primary reference, whom I should aid in the future if given the job, in charge of choosing who gets the job, not choosing me? Very likely.

 

[Betonhaus]

went to pick-n-pull and got a new side mirror for the van

 

[three_little_rats]

I am doing so really bad. I think one of my rats is dying, i don't think i should make a thread about it but fuck it hurts - so maybe this thread is where i can pour out my pain...
I took her to a vet today but she "suddenly became better (masking much)" so vet said she's fine.

But she's crying out loud, labour breathing, looks anxious... I don't know how to help her

 

[Betonhaus]

I am doing so really bad. I think one of my rats is dying, i don't think i should make a thread about it but fuck it hurts - so maybe this thread is where i can pour out my pain...
I took her to a vet today but she "suddenly became better (masking much)" so vet said she's fine.

But she's crying out loud, labour breathing, looks anxious... I don't know how to help her

Is there some sort of pain medicine you can give her, like crusing a baby aspirin and giving her 1/10th of it or something?

 

[three_little_rats]

Is there some sort of pain medicine you can give her, like crusing a baby aspirin and giving her 1/10th of it or something?

She's never been easy to give her any medicine. Shes 2 years old which makes me think its just her time to go .
I am afraid to even touch her, as she cries out loud... I got her water, she didn't seem to drink all day, so when she started it took her almost a minute to finish drinking. She seems to have a sudden panic attacks where she cries and looks very anxious...
I can't believe she looked so normal at the vet. Fucking masking redard

 

[PaleTay]

I live in a smaller part of a metro area and the loneliness is pretty unique. The commute is too long to visit people frequently. Most white collar jobs I'd be working mostly by myself on projects and it's not like there's a lot of people around my age at the gym before or after work. It's wild how quickly people trust and love me, yet it still isn't quick enough to actually matter.

 

[The News Crews]

I was born with glass bones and paper skin. Every morning I break my legs, and every afternoon I break my arms. At night, I lie awake in agony until my heart attacks put me to sleep.

 

[Lovely Kin]

>Rips ticket out roughly like the nigger she is
>Nuh uh, why ain't it working?
>Y'all betta hurry up i gotta eat lunch
>My son getting out of school soon
>Sucks teeth
Dealing with this while having a headache was fucking wonderful

 

[suckfest]

Girlfriend broke up with me. Was gonna propose. Gonna miss her a lot.

 

[Jason Wynn]

My sister had her car stolen while at work. No cameras nearby to see anything. Police in Portland are fucking useless and won’t do shit.

Story of our life, we get one step ahead and then something has to come along and fuck it up. I already know it was some worthless homeless junkie who did it. Really wish we had a serial killer in the area who specifically targets the homeless at this point, I fucking hate them all and there needs to be a culling.

 

[Lady Round Buns]

Haven't been great for months. I don't know if it's a middle aged existential crisis thing or what. Read through a few of your guys' posts, and now I feel like a real asshole, but at the same time I can commiserate with a lot of folks here. I just feel empty too, like a lot of you Kiwis. I can't concentrate, feel like I'm terrible at my work and my self esteem is at an all time low.

The eldest blocked me on Instagram, I'd sent her a cute video of an animal she's liked since childhood. No message, just the video. Blocked. Well okay then. Adds to the hopelessness I feel every day, but trying to let it go. She's not terribly pleasant to be around sometimes, but I still miss her very much. She's an adult, what can you do.

I just feel very stagnant in my life, and it's a result of my own choices I know. I'm not close with any of my immediate family, and I find myself jealous of friends who have loving relationships with their parents and siblings. Every day feels exactly the same, every week is the same. I feel like a giant whiner compared to some of my fellow kiwis on this thread, some of you guys are dealing with health issues for yourself or loved ones, death of much loved pets and loved ones, and here I am sad though everyone is well and I'm well-ish, I should be grateful. But I'm not. I'm lonely, and stressed, and hate myself a lot of the time. I've thankfully been able to keep a chipper attitude for the kids, but they probably can sense that I'm faking it. I know my 2nd eldest can, she's brought it up and asked if I'm okay. I'm trying to be a good mom and not burden the two teens, and really appreciate them, they're good kids. They help so much with my youngest, and you can just tell they all love each othet to pieces, it's wonderful. So why do I feel so awful all the time?

I'm just tired of feeling this way. All I want to do is sleep, and that doesn't even help since I never feel rested. I just don't know what to do.

 

[Anonitolia]

this year has been so comically bad so far that I'm expecting to end it dead

I won't go into detail but just know I haven't been healthy enough to do proper consistent work since last November and I have not had an actual break from said work since last July

every day is filled with questions about when I will be doing this or that and why I'm not doing more, to the point where even my own family is in on it

hurts especially because one of my resolutions was to try and be closer with them this year but I've had no real room to because the free time I do have is spent being "EWWW" or "get away from me you're sick"d at

so on top of all of this I just feel like a plague to the few people on this planet who even know I exist

whatever, it'll pass eventually

at least I can spend the odd hours of the day posting here to pretend I have a social life

 

[Lambda Corps]

I've been procrastinating on making new 3D models.

Feels like a waste of time whenever I’m not working on them, but I rarely get real feedback.

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

Bit of an update on my last post about me getting an interview for a job; it was today, and after a literal hour of waiting for the interviewer to get finished with almost the entire rest of the people that had come in for the same position, they finally called me into the back. Interview was basically in-and-out, asked a few questions, that sort of thing.

15 minutes after that, they're calling me and offering me the position; it's a full-time position with insurance, it sounds like it's going to be a good one. I've got plenty of experience in the field that they're asking me, and I've got a good reputation for being punctual, but I'm still the slightest bit nervous. Main reason for it is that it's an overnight position; it's basically a near-complete inversion of my usual schedule, though I have heard that the job is apparently really low-key. I hope it is, for my sake.

Aside from that, haven't made much progress on my writing. Main issue is, again, actually getting the damn thing started; I've got the character design in mind, I got the location for the initial scene, and once I get it done I can pretty much immediately start with just about all the rest, it's just... can't figure out the initial plot. Well, that and the gun list.

 

[Travis Touchdown (REAL)]

My dog is probably living out her final days. She's been very ill for the last week and the vets I've seen don't know what's wrong with her. She's pretty old now though so it's not a complete shock. It's just really disheartening to see a dog that has been so food driven for her whole life completely uninterested in eating. I've never met a dog quite like her, I'm gonna miss her

 

[Justa Grata Honoria]

So... hubby gets promotion and what that promotion involves you ask? Engineering , no joke this man without bachelors degree somehow ended up doing engineering . Is this like innate characteristic of asians to be engineers no matter what? Like the man has trade school , explain yourself asians how this is possible ?? Its like the sun rising up in the morning the asian ends up doing engineering the minute he is near schematics and machines . You just put them near it with just trade schools and some books and viola you get your engineer that does shit nobody else can figure out .

 

[BABANGUIDE64]

Things are pale. I'm at two week vacation doing nothing, busting a nut, doing chores, walking around several hours a day, counting money left.
I was at the exhibition yesterday and didn't enjoy it. Those pieces of classical art presented there didn't enwoke anything in me, just framed pieces of canvas or paper with strokes of oil paint or water colors.
Nothing of any interest or value for me depite their objective artistic aknowledgement.

 

[Overwritten Tapes]

Anyone else getting hit with allergies?

 

[DenseDeerFather]

Sort of update on shitty schizo neighbor.

Okay so after I called the cops, they have now sent out a few officers and a psychiatric nurse to assess her. As expected however she refused to even answer the door or even cooperate. They knew she was home BTW but because they didn't have a warrant or any means to determine if she was a danger to herself and others, they could do fuck all.

However I have a bud who works in the public sector, coincidently in the same area in which I live, and she did let it sleep that a lot of state eyes are on the schizo.

So a case, multiple of them, are being currently being built against her and it could be assumed that with schizo being unwilling to cooperate, maybe this will be ground to get her the fuck out since she refuses to respect any sort of authority.

If anything though, she's been super quiet.

As for the flu it's going better but my appetite is still fickle.

 

[huesofmercury]

dead as dead can be