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I ended up dropping all my summer classes, including the one I'm taking right now, because I'm just not in the place mentally to do them. I've been doing schoolwork pretty much nonstop since September 2018, taking a winter class during the first break, five classes along with an internship last summer, and studying for the GRE verbal (and burning myself out for when I finally took it) last winter.
 
I am absolutely infuriated with all the recent news going on. Makes me want to stop following news and politics altogether.
 
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I am absolutely infuriated with all the recent news going on. Makes me want to stop following news and politics altogether.

I quit news after I realized that I had to admit to myself what a massive cuckening of one's self it is. One doesn't learn anything of useful or rewarding depth, it demoralizes you, it takes focus away from your own life, it is non-stop never-ending and always marked itself as "SUPER IMPORTANT FOR THE WHOLE WORLD", it is almost always designed to make you feel negative emotion.

I am sure there are people who need and ought to follow some form of news, but I have enough on my plate as is, and I'd rather dream my ass away to a lecture about the Tang Dynasty or some shit rather than pumping my veins with moar covid & covfefe.

An eye-opening philosopher on entertainment mediums is the philosopher Marshall McLuhan who talks about how 'at the bottom' of everything on TV is the message 'watch more TV'. What he means by this, I think, is that all content can be considered advertising for its medium. It's there, it tries to be as appealing as possible to you, whether appealing means sexy-time appealing, educational, real-journalism-gettin-muh-truth-out-there appealing, very very funny appealing, in some way it always tries to grip your heart as strong as possible, making your ass sit there and watch.
 
I'm going to do nothing but play video games for a week straight and check back on reality then. Never mind, don't have the self-restraint.
 
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Finally I passed everything on my year and I couldn't be any happier. The last test was hard and I didn't expect to pass but I did. It was a hard year, the corona fucked our classes. However, all the zoom meetings, online tests, buying a tripod to record everything while we are doing our exams were worthy of them.
Also, my best friend and I are going to a weekend to the beach to celebrate her birthday before a second lockdown happens.
This year is shit, but at least I have these little pieces of happiness. No matter what is coming in this cursed era, I will get over it.
 
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I’ve been experiencing a lot of troubles more lately from my car suddenly not accelerating to a breakup. I’m looking at the positives like for my car, I can drive my parent’s spare stick-shifter. As for that relationship, we are still friends but I think they are going through the same problems that they had a few years ago and still haven’t listened to me so I’m just gonna embrace being single for a while.
Despite, having constant hard shitballs thrown at me from every angle, I seem to always be able to dodge or evaporate the stuff.
 
Go to A&H and you'll change your mind

Sometimes, they come to you. Like @Harnessed Carcass, who is obsessed with proving how not autistic he is, by shouting my name in chat. He'll probably negrate this as part of his 4D chess strategy to show the world how not mad he is. Finding this babycow has turned an okay week into a funny week.

That aside, I'm looking forward to swimming finally, since the water isn't ice fricking cold!
 
I just posted on some users page because their avatar reminded me of just existential dread, hopelessness and emptiness. That sort of listless, aimlessness where you feel like youve just been spinning your wheels for like forever and not really going anywhere, and you want to do shit about it but you dont even know what it is you want and cant pinpoint it.

I havent done anything cool or to get out of my head in a while, but its again one of those feelings where you dont even know what you could do, one of those anhedonia things.
 
Sometimes, they come to you. Like @Harnessed Carcass, who is obsessed with proving how not autistic he is, by shouting my name in chat. He'll probably negrate this as part of his 4D chess strategy to show the world how not mad he is. Finding this babycow has turned an okay week into a funny week.

That aside, I'm looking forward to swimming finally, since the water isn't ice fricking cold!
are you still going? lmao, faggots be mad, rent free as fuck in this niggas head :biggrin:

edit: Seethe my child, seethe! https://kiwifarms.net/threads/random_text-txt.1439/page-335#post-6785360
 
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