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Dating as a middle-aged autistic chick update - just got home from an amazing vacation with my guy and am so happy. We talked about my autism, and he told me how much he appreciates how literal I am and how I have no filter in my feelings and how he loves me as weird as I am. We are still only a few months in to this, so he could still decide the autism is too much, but for now things are great.
 
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Dating as a middle-aged autistic chick update - just got home from an amazing first vacation with my guy and am so happy. We talked about my autism, and he reiterated how much he appreciates how literal I am and how I have no filter in my feelings and how he loves me as the weirdo I am. We are still only a few months in to this, so he could still decide the autism is too much, but for now things are great.
I would not care about the tism when you're such a cute doggo too :)
 
Taken up Bible Study.

It feels surreal. As a little kid, I thought religion was dumb and hokey and was even an athiest during my teenage years. Now though, with the world as crazy as it is, as well as my desire to have a family and raise whatever kids I have to be proper, I feel taking up Christianity is my best bet. Honestly, the act of reading and deciphering the bible in of itself is intriguing. And it really helps that the people I met up with were kind and understanding with me.

It still feels weird to me, and there are some things I still don't get, but I suppose this is the kind of thing you have to invest a lot of time into anyway. So, no point in worrying.
 
Feeling a bit bitter, like I wasted my money. Bought The Dreamer from Versace last month. Nice scent, but problem is. It doesn't last, at all. Used almost half of the 100 ml/3.4 oz bottle.
 
Feeling so lonely right now, that i would go on to catch a predator just to talk to somebody.
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Got kicked out of a bar Saturday for asking somebody how their White Boy Summer was going. Threw my beer behind my back on my way out and bolted, hoping to hit the bouncer.

I felt shitty about the last bit the next day since it was such a Kyle move and I'm in my 30s. Now that time has passed I feel kinda indifferent to it, but also find it kind of funny/puts a smirk on my face when I think about it.
 
Got kicked out of a bar Saturday for asking somebody how their White Boy Summer was going. Threw my beer behind my back on my way out and bolted, hoping to hit the bouncer.

I felt shitty about the last bit the next day since it was such a Kyle move and I'm in my 30s. Now that time has passed I feel kinda indifferent to it, but also find it kind of funny/puts a smirk on my face when I think about it.
It was deserved, because you did nothing wrong. If they're going to be assholes, enjoy some extra work
 
Irritated, After complaining, for months, about water damage to the ceilings in a couple rooms (they have those cheap drop panels, and when it rains heavily-which it has been in New Hampshire for pretty much all of July-they leak), I was finally told someone would be coming by today. I won't be surprised if nobody turns up, it's happened before. One of those damn panels got so wet it simply fell out. A few of the others are sagging, as well. The smell of mold is thick. I've got my PC in the living room, which has a pressed tin ceiling. And that one hasn't leaked-yet. And if my rig, which I spent over $1,500 putting together, was ever damaged, I'd burn this fucking building to the ground. That would be the final straw, on top of the bed bugs and the fucking cockroaches and the worthless fucking junkie degenerates who live here and whom I've regularly had to step over going down the front steps because they're passed out with their dope needles still in their arms. Thanks to a housing shortage in my area-easily the worst one in twenty years-I'm currently stuck where I'm at. Better than being homeless (I guess), but I can't get out of here fast enough. When I first looked at the place, I could tell it was old and kind of run down. But I was assured there was no vermin, and the rent was cheap. Christ. Now I know why. I feel like such an idiot.
 
Taking my first day off in awhile. Start a new job tomorrow, will have to work lots of overtime, but at least i won't have to work 7 days a week to pay the bills. Plus I'll get offered dental, health, and vision insurance in 60 days and a $2.00 raise in 90.

Still annoyed that the county fucked me out of selling my land, by changing the zoning. I could have set up enough passive income with the money to not need to work for someone else. Got another offer the other day but it was way too low, hopefully my realtor calls me with something better soon.
 
I feel very satisfied. I finally forced myself down to do some major reading and organizing I had been dreading, formulated a detailed plan, took the necessary steps to get the ball rolling and financially committed.

Now I'll still have the actual execution to worry about, but at least I have a clear goal for these next 12 months, and I feel very optimistic about the feasibility of it all. Doings things isn't my weakness, I'm very confident in my abilities. I'm just a terrible procrastinator when it comes to starting things. All now that is all taken care of.
 
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