How has 2020 changed you? - For the better or for the worse?

[Windows XP Home Edition]

2020 has been a hard year everybody and whilst some have stayed resilient and unchanged throughout the difficult times, I'd argue that last year either makes or breaks someone. Sometimes the events are far too much to handle and cope with. This leads to a breaking point where everything becomes unbearable. This is how I felt.

2020 has changed me for the worse. Once I was a happy young adult who had a few friends and was enjoying my social life. I had a life then. Then came along the lockdown and while I was able to tunnel through during spring and summer, fall came along and I became very depressed and out of energy. This is partially why I joined Kiwifarms. I lost most of my friends from lack of contact and restrictions and I was now a miserable shut in who spent his days in his room looking at a screen watching useless online lectures. University was more of a chore than a fun task and everyone I knew no longer talked to me. So no more fun video calls or telephone chats.

The months of November and January were torture and hell. I was all on my own during those months and everything felt like it was stuck in a rut where nothing would get better.
Sure I was very productive during the first few months like learning new languages and new things to cook rather than sitting around playing video gsnes, but then I ran out of steam because not going outside and seeing people just started to wear me down. I've started to feel bitter angry, and jaded about the world and the mess we live in now. The people I know are now chippy and paranoid, especially when talking to someone who doesn't agree with them. I'm now a cynical arsehole who doesn't trust anyone anymore.

As I'm a bit of a shut in and awkward loser with no life, it's so difficult for me to get out to meet people and find new things to do. I feel so awkward and alone as I don't know a lot of people my age anymore. I've lost a lot of passion and motivation to do anything, especially the things I enjoy the most. I want to cry but I just can't.

 

[Smug Chuckler]

2020 made me more cynical.

 

[Gone Ham]

More cynical, depressed and angry tbf.

 

[Basement Dwelling Dork]

Same with the rest of them but also feeling dazed about how we are now reaching full circle.

 

[Sex Cannon Lupa]

I lost what little remained of my belief in people, and I now aggressively despise other races, especially white people for fucking up a perfectly livable world with their social justice faggotry. I also don't believe NASA ever went to the moon. Where are the tapes then, bitch? Where are the tapes?

Forgot how, my ass.

 

[lukewarm coffee]

Basically I hate everything now when before I only hated most things. I trust nothing and no one, am anxious and/or worried just about every single moment, and my head is blasted by intrusive negative thoughts when I'm trying to relax. Feel like I'm standing on the edge waiting to either jump or be pushed off. KF is my only haven of sanity left and motherfuckers want to take that away too.
But my cats are still sweet, so that's nice.

 

[Some JERK]

It made my job 100% better. Because everyone was forced to distance, people learned the value of remote work and the valuelessness of pointless meetings. Now that things are opened back up, nobody I deal with really wants to go back to the timewasting, even the boomer holdouts. I get so much more shit done these days because I don't have to waste hours and hours of my week in a car in shit traffic driving somewhere to do something that I can do just as easily sitting at my desk.

11/10. Would sacrifice millions of lives for it again.

 

[ArnoldPalmer]

I now trust the government even less than I did before, and individuals FAR less than I ever have. I didn't know there was any trust left to lose, but here we are. Everyone's a goddamn pundit. Everyone's a doctor. Everyone's an expert. Everyone is a moral crusader. At this point, all I want is to be left alone. It was a joke before, but now I am 100% convinced beyond any shadow of a doubt that we're headed directly to civil war. Do not pass GO, do not collect $200.

I might be getting more religious than agnostic-who-leans-towards-Christian-Values now. It's pretty clear that Secular America has brought out the absolute worst in everyone, and we are taking a serious deathspiral into the morally repugnant and degenerate. I am still in conflict with this, because Christianity has few answers to the question of what you're supposed to do to get your society back to a point where bringing children into this world isn't an act of abject cruelty, but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. In the meantime, Christian morality beats the shit out of moral subjectivism.

Outside of that, the rest of 2020 was just more clown world, so I'm used to it, in a sort of silently be disgusted by absolutely everything around me kind of way.

 

[L50LasPak]

I quit drinking in 2020. Seeing the world clearly and not through a bottle for the first time in three years, I've just become that much more of an asshole and have even less empathy than I ever imagined. I don't even want to go back to drinking anymore since the thought of taking up anything that might make my opinion of the world better just disgusts me.

Its interesting that a few people have mentioned becoming more religious or gravitating towards traditional values more due to recent events. I find myself thinking about those old Calvinist doctrines that describe a humanity where your fate is already decided when you're born and the world was never meant to be a pleasant place to live, instead its an unforgiving and merciless punishment for humanity's original sin. If I've ever had faith in anything in my life its probably this. I see no point in converting though.

I suppose at this point I'm just waiting for something interesting to happen.

 

[Chilson]

I went from merely angrily tolerating trannys, gays, niggers and politicians along with their retarded antics to actively hoping bad things happen to them and they would all just go somewhere else.

On the upside, I was able to quit my awful job far away from my family in a part of the country I loathed (for weather reasons) and got a much better job closer to my family with weather I love. So give and take I suppose.

 

[Coolio55]

I sat in my room and learned some skills. Gotta use all that extra time constructively.
I always assumed the worst about govenments and useful idiots so the big picture is no surprise whatsoever.

 

[Windows XP Home Edition]

I quit drinking in 2020. Seeing the world clearly and not through a bottle for the first time in three years, I've just become that much more of an asshole and have even less empathy than I ever imagined. I don't even want to go back to drinking anymore since the thought of taking up anything that might make my opinion of the world better just disgusts me.

Its interesting that a few people have mentioned becoming more religious or gravitating towards traditional values more due to recent events. I find myself thinking about those old Calvinist doctrines that describe a humanity where your fate is already decided when you're born and the world was never meant to be a pleasant place to live, instead its an unforgiving and merciless punishment for humanity's original sin. If I've ever had faith in anything in my life its probably this. I see no point in converting though.

I suppose at this point I'm just waiting for something interesting to happen.

SJW doctrine and the people spouting it has eventually lead to me to having less empathy and sympathy for others. Empathy and sympathy is a one way street for people in the modern world. We all want it, but can never seem to give it back.

I have a hardened heart after people had hurt me over the years, especially in 2020 when ex friends ghosted me. It was a cruel realization that I don't think I'll have any good relationships if this nightmare continues. It feels like I'm doing everything wrong when I talk to people anyway. I'm a doomer now as a result of government incompetence fucking up my life.

 

[Finder]

More cynical, more distrusting of health officials. I hate my work for the first time ever, but I can't go into that without major power levelling. I'm not a huge person, but I lost some weight so that's good for me.

I've stayed more or less the same in terms of religion, but I was already strong in that before. I really wish drinking wasn't haram, any escape this last year and a half would have been nice.

 

[L50LasPak]

I really wish drinking wasn't haram, any escape this last year and a half would have been nice.

Drinking doesn't really work anyway.

 

[ArnoldPalmer]

Drinking doesn't really work anyway.

It works just long enough to push your problems off to tomorrow when you wake up. But now that you're awake, you can start drinking again.

 

[teriyakiburns]

I've lost empathy, which I'm going to have to fix if I want to function. I've also become a borderline alcoholic, though that probably would have happened anyway. It's also made me realise that life really is just too damn short and I should stop wasting time with pointless crap and just get on with what I want to do, because who knows what the idiots in charge will decide to do tomorrow?

 

[ArnoldPalmer]

I've lost empathy, which I'm going to have to fix if I want to function...

...in the society you grew up in, sure. If you want to get on in the $Current_Year, you HAVE to be a sociopathic narcissist. You have the option of either trying to revive what you grew up in and were conditioned to believe, or you can give up and have nothing but a seething hatred for your fellow man. Either way you choose, you probably aren't wrong to choose it, but the former is much harder than the latter and you will not be rewarded for it in this life. How unfortunate is that?

 

[Big Ruski]

I've been pretty motivated since the pandemic ended, more then ever in my entire life. Landed a nice job, paying back debts, planning on going back to school, and hitting the weights again. I even found myself flirting alot with women despite being a loner. I don't care if I look like an idiot or a cornball when I try to impress women. I just want to fuck. Lack of pussy had a nigga achin in 2020.

I say the worse is my smoking addiction has pretty much spiraled out of control, and I'm somewhat psychotic after dealing with a long roach and rodent infestation in my apartment during 2020. I developed OCD when it comes to cleanliness and I will judge people hard if their dirty or messy.

Also I'm racist now.

 

[A Nobody]

This pandemic has emphasized something obvious I already knew but hadn't stop to think about: Your health, your loved ones, the whole world is fragile. NEVER take that for granted.

It has also teached me to valorate social interaction much more. I used to not care about spending a lot of time on my own at home. After being unable to leave for a while, I try to go out with my friends more frequently than before. I may still be more introvert than most people, but there has been a clear change.

 

[L50LasPak]

It works just long enough to push your problems off to tomorrow when you wake up. But now that you're awake, you can start drinking again.

Yeah but that'll eventually catch up with you too. Trust me.