I'm a loser - And I failed you

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My experiences were surely different from yours (woman), but I remember feeling the same way: Worthless, under-achieving, Hopelessly stupid, and anxious.

My parents refused to sync with me or understand my needs, one being a practical schizophrenic and the other a hard-of-hearing idealist. I was isolated by them, along with a crippling anxiety disorder.

My "friends" were all on the Internet, and by the time I found a friend group in real life, it was too little too late. Everyone was transitioning into adulthood, myself included, so our paths naturally divided the moment they converged.

I didn't even think I was the least bit attractive until I caught the eye of a near 40-year-old man, who my father was suspicious of because obviously he was out of my league appearance-wise (his words, not mine). I was barely eighteen then.

Even when I moved out that year to live with family who loved me openly, I fell into hot water with more alcoholism and mental-illness in the form of a perma-bachelor uncle who would not move out of my grandmother's home. He spontaneously decided he hated me after getting on steroids, but he never followed through on threats of physical violence 'cause he was a coward.

I had to truly, truly leave to find self-worth and the love I'd been searching for. I didn't want to. I was terrified beyond reason when presented the option, but the Lord told me to go. I knew that I'd be okay if He was leading me to do it. When you talk about a lack of guidance, I think of how messed up I'd be if I didn't have God making those grand decisions for me. I would've been wrestling a debilitating disease while living in the van of neo-pagan nomad, twisted by psychedelics and witchcraft.

I don't know your situation entirely, but it sounds like there's dysfunction in the family. Do you have a father?

I feel like your mom honestly wants to best for you, but it's painfully aggravating when she draws attention to the parts of yourself you hate. You fear the world is only going to perceive those things because your mother's intimate knowledge has warped your mindset. If one or either of your parents is your only frame of reference for how you'll be perceived by others, you're going to end up hating yourself. That's just the way it is.

Being apart from your parents, forging your own life with friends, romantic prospects, is necessary for survival. I know it's ridiculously hard to find good men and women in this day and age. You're not a lost cause, though. This website is proof of that. Think of how many hideous lolcows with garbage personalities are able to find partners, even get married and have children.
 
sir this is a wendy's bro just chill out lol. unless you're one of those BPD types and you're baiting for sympathy in which case it seems to be working, so carry on I guess.

 
eDove said:
My experiences were surely different from yours (woman), but I remember feeling the same way: Worthless, under-achieving, Hopelessly stupid, and anxious.

My parents refused to sync with me or understand my needs, one being a practical schizophrenic and the other a hard-of-hearing idealist. I was isolated by them, along with a crippling anxiety disorder.

My "friends" were all on the Internet, and by the time I found a friend group in real life, it was too little too late. Everyone was transitioning into adulthood, myself included, so our paths naturally divided the moment they converged.

I didn't even think I was the least bit attractive until I caught the eye of a near 40-year-old man, who my father was suspicious of because obviously he was out of my league appearance-wise (his words, not mine). I was barely eighteen then.

Even when I moved out that year to live with family who loved me openly, I fell into hot water with more alcoholism and mental-illness in the form of a perma-bachelor uncle who would not move out of my grandmother's home. He spontaneously decided he hated me after getting on steroids, but he never followed through on threats of physical violence 'cause he was a coward.

I had to truly, truly leave to find self-worth and the love I'd been searching for. I didn't want to. I was terrified beyond reason when presented the option, but the Lord told me to go. I knew that I'd be okay if He was leading me to do it. When you talk about a lack of guidance, I think of how messed up I'd be if I didn't have God making those grand decisions for me. I would've been wrestling a debilitating disease while living in the van of neo-pagan nomad, twisted by psychedelics and witchcraft.

I don't know your situation entirely, but it sounds like there's dysfunction in the family. Do you have a father?

I feel like your mom honestly wants to best for you, but it's painfully aggravating when she draws attention to the parts of yourself you hate. You fear the world is only going to perceive those things because your mother's intimate knowledge has warped your mindset. If one or either of your parents is your only frame of reference for how you'll be perceived by others, you're going to end up hating yourself. That's just the way it is.

Being apart from your parents, forging your own life with friends, romantic prospects, is necessary for survival. I know it's ridiculously hard to find good men and women in this day and age. You're not a lost cause, though. This website is proof of that. Think of how many hideous lolcows with garbage personalities are able to find partners, even get married and have children.
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this was kinda a spur of the moment post you are right i will feel better with friends hobbies etc
 
Saddam... you make the trees waste air on you. If you kill yourself or some shit, that air would be going to a tranny instead. That's why you shouldn't. Also, killing yourself is really faggy.
Saddam Hussain Obama said:
I fail at everything in life
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Stop lying, Saddam... you didn't fail at making this thread! I know that's not what you mean though ;(
Saddam Hussain Obama said:
my life is being on a forum where pretty much everyone hates my guts my existence is that of a helpless moron whos the bane of nulls existence
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Same, I just go site to site until I'm perma'd everywhere. Can't figure out how not to act like a faggot. When I try to act normal I fail and get banned anyways
Saddam Hussain Obama said:
everyone hates me
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Almost everyone in the world is neutral about you, FYI. That's because they don't know you. There's always at least one person who will put up with your bullshit. I've been lucky enough to find TWO PEOPLE who put up with my shit.
 
Saddam Hussain Obama said:
I'm just a worthless hapa incel
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Worse than that. You're a stereotype. You're pretty much not even a real person. For fucking real hapas and their fucking insecure, self-pity driven insane need for attention and acceptance is pretty much the default NPC state of the hapa. You will never be white. Women will never find you attractive. Get over it and embrace your spergy Asian ass looking self for what it is and go become a fucking accountant or something.
 
Go look at your other thread.
Everyone loves you stupid.
You're not going anywhere.

Stop engaging with Cobson you two are the same retard I swear
 
...I could've sworn you already made this thread, like, a couple months ago.
Are you copypasta'ing your own posts now??
 
Have you ever thought of getting a job or volunteering? Even if it's just 1 or 2 days a week, it will get you out of the house and socializing with other people. I can't imagine staying home 24/7, that would be miserable.
 
Could you crawl around and cry like a baby? that would be so beautiful- David Lynch
 
You're a retard and I'm a severely autistic schizo retard, don't let this hold you back, you never failed if you try to be better.
 
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