I'm so close to losing it lol (1st world problem bitching)

[Hateocracy]

I'm so fucking tired of being myself. I hate myself so fucking much.

Since you want to post like a 4chonner, we'll approach the response in like-minded fashion.

Spoiler: ISHYGGDT

Serious response: You're going to lock yourself into a feedback loop of overreacting to the slightest obstacle and sussing out affirmations and support online to console you. For examples see: Foodie Beauty, Ian + Anisa Jomha, BossmanJack, Topiachu. And stop being gay, taking penis in your butthole makes your brain go "why tf are you doing this stop it" which translates physiologically into depression.

 

[オプセック]

I'm so fucking tired of being myself. I hate myself so fucking much. I want to rip out my lungs so I can't waste any more oxygen but people care about me so I can't because I don't want to hurt them.

If they care so much, you can tell them how you feel. There, solved it. Some shit's eating you up, let it out. Just not here.

I want to just quit college and spend my life making games but I need the qualifications so I can have a decent future and make my parent proud.

LoL - How about finding something you're good at instead of dreaming about being le techbro prodigy - If you were honest about your own abilities, you might actually end up study something you enjoy.

 

[SNU]

When you say you have things you need to get done that your are struggling to do is it because you start and don't get far or is it because you have trouble starting the task? If it's the latter, then adopt the mindset of "every little bit helps and a little is better than nothing". Don't think "I'm going to do this giant task all at once". Do 5 minutes. At the end of the 5 minutes you can stop. If you're having trouble starting tasks then chances are when the 5 minutes is up you'll keep working because starting is the hardest part

I'm guessing you can't relax because you feel guilty resting. Like you haven't deserved it because you have stuff you need to do. Do some exercise. It may not be what you need to get done but it can help make you feel like you deserve to relax.

The advice of eating healthy, having a good sleep schedule, and exercising to improve how you feel is true. However, willpower is finite so don't try too much too soon or you'll give up.

Learn how you think so you can manipulate yourself. I have to use the "only do 5 minutes" trick to manipulate myself into starting tasks otherwise I won't do it.

 

[Tetra]

4chan blocked my ip address. Don't know why exactly so yeah, here I am.

For the past 7 ish months, I've been feeling more and more stressed and I feel like I'm gonna get burnt out really soon but I can't deal with that right now as I have exams coming up and work that I need finishing ASAP. I have college work that I have to complete by Friday and I keep wasting my time doing god knows what so I've been doing all nighters just to get it done but I end up wasting time and get little sleep and I just feel like a wreck.

I don't even have that much really, I'm just really pathetic. I can't just "relax" because it barely works and just feels like a waste of time but when I do work and study I just get less and less focused to the point where it feels like I'm wasting my day over and over. It doesn't help that my parents are spending a crap ton of money on me and I'm fucking it up. They don't deserve me but I can't kill myself because then all the money they poured into me would be a waste and they really care about me so they would be depressed but I don't want to hurt them to make them hate me. I've been hiding my mental problems from them for years, even though they're not really problems because everything is all my fault because I'm a shitty person who can't get their life together and I'm so sick of being shit but what can I do about it apart from groan about the most first world of problems on 4chan so people i know in real life won't try getting me a therapist.

I'm so fucking tired of being myself. I hate myself so fucking much. I want to rip out my lungs so I can't waste any more oxygen but people care about me so I can't because I don't want to hurt them. They're good people, they don't deserve to need a therapist because of me. I want to just quit college and spend my life making games but I need the qualifications so I can have a decent future and make my parent proud. I can't do what I need to desperately do because coursework is due this week and I take all eternity to do anything these days but I don't know what to do. :')

I barely use this website so I figured this was the closest to any kind of venting board. I feel more like shit now as I can't talk about video games on 4chan. Anyway, feel free to cyberbully me: I deserve it.

I asked, I care!

 

[Double Taps]

Anyway, feel free to cyberbully me: I deserve it.

Sounds like attention seeking behavior of people who get off from others insulting them. I'll kindly suggest stop being a mega retard online and bringing dishonor to your family name.

Probably learn how to focus regardless of the task. Life will send bigger problems you'll want to fix fast unless you like wasting your time doing shit you hate, which seems to be the case.

Unprofessional medical opinion: Go fishing.

 

[Stoner Miko]

Asking people to "cyberbully" you just screams attention whore. Instead, why don't you change your password and never login again? maybe do what @Double Taps said and go fishing or something, no void will be filled by people calling you a faggot.