I'm Stuck in a Never Ending Loop

[KittyGremlin]

See a therapist. Not one who puts you on drugs or wants to shock your brain, but one who still believes in talk therapy. You need someone to help you work some things in your own mind out and there are limits to how much we can do for you over the Internet.

step dos: quit the internet

 

[Dr. Eldon Tyrell]

No I believe Vingle begged OP to fuck him after, accompanied by suggestive selfies. It was a nice community moment.

Thanks, THAT's the kind of drama I'm here for

hoping that at least having money or getting surgery would change my life.

I thought the pics were really you? But feel free to fuck yourself up to our amusement. Fishing for compliments much, are we? You obviously want the attention of male strangers. You know that the farms will only seethe, mire and salivate over your pics and the there are no women on the internet which is why you vanity posted in the first place, because you're to chicken to go out and get a man.
No straight guy is that self absorbed and most importantly, actually aware of how good he looks.

I even did DIY earlobe surgery, cutting off part of my own ear with scalpels I ordered online.

The fuck? elaborate.

My brain hates me

Uh, oh. Mind body schism. Since you are obviously an "I got a pretty boy haircut" fag who struggles to admit it to himself, I see troonism in your future, if you continue this path
You are your body and your body is you, forget the pozzloaded, western christcuckery.

I’ve thought about doing something big to change my life. For years, I’ve entertained the idea of doing something drastic, committing a crime just to go to prison, getting locked up in a psych ward, taking drugs like psychedelics or steroids, or even joining the military.

Listen "bro", if you are an adult, have some money and are really this close to snapping, think about whatever exotic location you always really wanted to check out, sell everything, buy a one way ticket, fly there, try surviving - if it goes wrong, go back to the embassy. If that doesn't snap you out of your rut, nothing will.

 

[Party Hat Wurmple]

In the end, nothing changes. It’s all just cause and effect. There’s no grand plan, no purpose. Just a series of events leading to where I am now, a cycle I can’t break, even if I wanted to.
It's over.

Have you tried fucking @Vingle?

PS. Vingle, now's your chance.

I fucking love you. You're as good as Cyclonus (RIP).

 

[Margo Martindale]

No youre not, youre being overly dramatic

 

[unhealing wound]

night night ziggy, see you in the morning pal

 

[Dr. Eldon Tyrell]

Have you tried fucking @Vingle?

PS. Vingle, now's your chance.

I fucking love you. You're as good as Cyclonus (RIP).

I think op may rage/hatefuck women but I ... don't know how to say this without being a party pooper but op is a power bottom. No doubt about it.
Sowy, @Vingle
Moar:

I was reminded of this while reading Schopenhauer

You need Schopenhauer to understand your BPD mood swings? Your shrinks are truly worthless.

The difference between pessimists and optimists? Simply neurotransmitters. Schopenhauer just had a shitty brain. It seems obvious, but I only truly understood it a couple of years ago.

What like 2 or 3? Guys like you don't read "old books" in their teens.

 

[Lifeguard Hermit]

And it's true that we named our children after towns, that we have never been to. and it's true that the clouds just hang around, like Black Cadillacs outside of funeral. And we were laughing at the stars while our feet clung tight to the ground, so please with ourselves. For using so many verbs and nouns.

But we were all still just dumb, dumb, dumber than the dirt, dirt, dirt on the ground.

 

[Latex Catmaid]

Have you tried becoming a furry?

 

[Vecr]

Have you tried becoming a furry?

Unless he's using an AI system or paying someone to write his posts, he's probably high IQ enough to avoid that, given he's on this site. Depression plus low IQ generally does not equal writing (somewhat) coherently for multiple paragraphs.

 

[Dr. Eldon Tyrell]

Unless he's using an AI system or paying someone to write his posts, he's probably high IQ enough to avoid that, given he's on this site. Depression plus low IQ generally does not equal writing (somewhat) coherently for multiple paragraphs.

The insane thing about our modern society is, becoming a troon has a way too big overlap with being high iq than is comfortable or even plausible.
He's also shagging women, so he even checks that AGP (the high iq ones) predictor box. He will also do it "too late", as all AGPs, and become a horrorcow.
It's a fate way worse than being a furry schizocow but ironically more likely.

I learned this much on the farms.

 

[dick brain]

lmao

 

[gorgoroth7134]

Holy fuck, shut up dude

 

[Lokenstien]

I think you should start drinking heavily. At the very least it might make your posts more interesting and worthwhile.

 

[henstepl]

False alarm, niggas
I feel great again. Everything in the thread is still real, but honestly, I just don't care. This is the power of neurotransmitters. I was reminded of this while reading Schopenhauer:

"Life swings like a pendulum backward and forward between pain and boredom."

"Human life must be some kind of mistake. The incessant clamor of needs and necessities, the torment of desires... all these imply that we have fallen out of a state of peace that belongs to us by right."

The difference between pessimists and optimists? Simply neurotransmitters. Schopenhauer just had a shitty brain. It seems obvious, but I only truly understood it a couple of years ago.

Naturally, I know the despair will return, like it always does, but in this moment? I don't care at all. It’s funny how that works. Appreciate those who wrote high-effort replies though @Toji Suzuhara @Vecr @Lords Greatsword @henstepl @Bloitzhole

So, ok, this isn't going to fly. You're a fuckup; you're actually a fuckup with sudden regrets; you're actually such a historied fuckup that you accumulated a wholeass schizophrenia diagnosis. What was the fuckup that led to this diagnosis? Was it the ear-cutting? We're not stopping just because you randomly entered a positive episode.

I obviously don't hold a schizophrenia diagnosis in any high regard. It is just the moment a doctor writes you off - a philosophical thing, because we understand that some people have to be written off. You can walk your way back from such an exceeding fuckup status as that. But you can't do this by randomly declaring ALL IS FINE NOW!

Why did you Van Gogh yourself? You even sliced the same-sided left ear as Van Gogh going by this photo (reversed per the text). Why is it the left ear? Is there something else in Van Gogh that you identify with?



A Man-Maschine like Henstepl has the gift of exploring all regions of consciousness. I have had little reason to explore the earlobes, but I have explored them for you, and they seem to provide information about posture:

1. An earlobe of a good Maschinated man will communicate "neutral" status when standing upright
2. An earlobe of a good Maschinated man will communicate "forward" status when leaning forward
3. An earlobe of a good Maschinated man will communicate "reverse" status when leaning backwards.

And that's important information, because you don't want your default position to resemble either of these fuckups:


No, you want to stand PROUD and ERECT. In verifying this, you may very well have the gift of hands that Henstepl has. The gift of hands is how Henstepl extracts information from the brain with a method unavailable to most people; it is only available to people with gay hands (index finger longer than ring finger) as depicted:



I order you to confirm to me now that you have gay hands, which in this context is a gift. Once you have confirmed this, I order you to complete these tests using your gift.

1. STAND STRAIGHT UP and tap your earlobe-bottom directly. Upwards from the bottom. Does this make you blink?
   1. It should be true that you blink with a straight tap on both ears. If one ear is different tell me now.
   2. If it is untrue that a straight tap does it, try a "brush" foward, and a "brush" backwards, with the hands.
2. LEAN WEIRDLY FORWARD and "brush" your earlobe-bottom forward. Do you then blink? Try the alternatives as well.
3. LEAN WEIRDLY BACKWARD and "brush" your earlobe-bottom backward. Do you then blink? Try the alternatives as well.

You will have to report your findings, as will likely distinguish themselves from this ideal in some form or fashion, to me. Anyone with the gift of intelligent gay fingers should be happy to report their findings, be they positive, or even if weirdly, tangentially negative - they'll figure it out!

And we're going to work with you on this, and we're gonna make a man out of you yet!

 

[Kalamazoo 2 Timbuktu]

You keep saying, “I don’t care” If that were really true, you wouldn’t worry and obsess over it. You wouldn’t have posted this.

It’s hard for anything to make you happy or be in a positive mindset when you’re dead set on wallowing in misery and finding excuses for your bad behavior. You sound like Eeyore.





I know it sounds cheesy and simplistic but, if you wake up every morning and think “today everything is going to be miserable and suck”, then yes, today, everything will be miserable and suck. Go into every day, every event, action or interaction with the thought. “This is going to be a great day” “I’m going to have a good time”.

You fail at everything. Welcome to life buddy. Many people feel like this at times throughout their life. Look at Elon Musk, he’s failed at more things than he’s succeeded at (especially relationships). How do you succeed in life, keep picking yourself up and trying again, over, and over and over. No matter how old you are, how rich you, how attractive, how smart or how successful you are, you will still fail at some things. God didn’t single you out and shit in your snow cone, these are normal feelings.

I don’t believe people are not responsible for their own life, actions or destiny. Maybe when you were a child that was partially true. After you’re 18, sorry Charlie, that’s shits on you. You obviously know the difference between right and wrong. You acknowledged you’re doing wrong. That is ALL you. There is no super secret cheat code. Want to be a happier, better person, act like a happier, better person.

 

[AgendaPoster]

having money or getting surgery would change my life. I even did DIY earlobe surgery, cutting off part of my own ear with scalpels I ordered online. I spent over 1,000 euros on HGH and injected it daily for two months, hoping it would give me the boost I needed. I’ve ordered every drug I could think of, both prescription and OTC supplements like minerals, vitamins, herbs, etc, you name it. None of it really worked. I thought throwing money and effort at my problems would solve them, but here I am, stuck in the same place as before.

I am so disappoint in you son. After all that looksmaxxing shit, you still damaged? Maybe you should consider Vingle's offer lmao.

 

[PyrrhicRustle]

Unless he's using an AI system or paying someone to write his posts, he's probably high IQ enough to avoid that, given he's on this site. Depression plus low IQ generally does not equal writing (somewhat) coherently for multiple paragraphs.

Bro most of the Animal Control community on this site are furries themselves.

 

[Dr. Eldon Tyrell]

Anyone with the gift of intelligent gay fingers should be happy to report their findings, be they positive, or even if weirdly, tangentially negative - they'll figure it out!

Uh, I loved this kind of stuff as a teenager, I blinked for 2 and 3. What do I win? Yes, I have gay hands, even jazz hands.

@Laplace's Victim : Post hands, faggot! We need to know.

 

[henstepl]

Uh, I loved this kind of stuff as a teenager, I blinked for 2 and 3. What do I win? Yes, I have gay hands, even jazz hands.

@Laplace's Victim : Post hands, faggot! We need to know.

Suppose you rudely asked a yoga instructor to "prove the seven chakras exist". In his capacity as an awareness practitioner, he will immediately do something other than tap his seven chakras, right? He'll start talking about breathing and gay shit, and "centers" and "colors", haha.

You my friend haven't won anything, but you're gifted. If you tap your seven chakra points you will blink - you have direct access to information about the brain, provided by that brain in hopes of understanding itself, in the form of a binary Boolean system of taps and blinks and failures to blink. And nobody who calls themself a "yogi" has that!

Now, I bet you're not disabled. But if you had been frankly disabled like me, or Florian Schneider, or probably OP, you might have become obsessed with conscious processes of these things to become healthier. (If you did this incompetently you would become a reflexologist). But all the time you'd be swearing IT'S NOT YOGA, YOGA IS SO SHITTY AND EASTERN AND INTESTINAL and you'd be right.

I'm currently working on communicating the superior non-intestinal method as has been employed by me, and Florian Schneider, and the other Florian syndrome patients I have met.

Read "The Non-Intestinal Method"

Read "Practitioners of the 'yoga that isn't yoga'"

Btw, if you have the gift of hands, tapping the tippytop of your head only makes you blink if you're Jewish. Otherwise, it's between the eyebrows. (Those are chakras)

 

[Dr. Eldon Tyrell]

Btw, if you have the gift of hands, tapping the tippytop of your head only makes you blink if you're Jewish. Otherwise, it's between the eyebrows.

Huh, I'm a tengu, it seems.