is user @cyclonus fat and covered in doodoo and also possibly dying?

[Just A Butt]

@Cyclonus did you die?

 

[The Un-Clit]

Nigger, I barely read this thread, and missed your face - but how the fuck are you on one fucking anti depressant and this fucked up?

There is something else going on with your retarded ass, and you need to get off this website and get help assuming you didn't already.

Exactly. This potatonigger NEEDS a meds re-evaluation immediately if not sooner, combined with getting the fuck off the Internet entirely for a while. We cannot help you properly, @Cyclonus . We're just autists on the Internet, most of whom are half a world away from you. You need on the ground help NOW. Call those numbers the Garda gave you and explain.

Also:

Cyclonus said: How about I give the name of the organisation to this forum. So you can go harass them with amusing prank calls until some comes over hears and saves my life? That might work.

This is not going to happen and you've been here MORE then long enough to know why and know better.

 

[rel=alternate]

Photos. Not in condition to make thumbnail hope null forgives.

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Ngl, it's not even that bad. Of course not good, but nothing a normal person can't fix in 15 min.

I am not fat and I've done way worse than this when depressed.

 

[Cyclonus]

Exactly. This potatonigger NEEDS a meds re-evaluation immediately if not sooner, combined with getting the fuck off the Internet entirely for a while. We cannot help you properly, @Cyclonus . We're just autists on the Internet, most of whom are half a world away from you. You need on the ground help NOW. Call those numbers the Garda gave you and explain.

Also:



This is not going to happen and you've been here MORE then long enough to know why and know better.

Forgive a desperate spaced out man trying to save his own life for occasionally forgotting forum rules. I'm more or less fully back now and I apologise. I hope the mods will forgive me. You guys are the only friends I have and I don't want to get banned.

 

[The Un-Clit]

Forgive a desperate spaced out man trying to save his own life for occasionally forgotting forum rules. I'm more or less fully back now and I apologise. I hope the mods will forgive me. You guys are the only friends I have and I don't want to get banned.

No one's gonna ban you for that, fam. We know you're in a bad head space right now. Just a little reminder of what is and isn't acceptable or possible. You need to start to help yourself most of all. Getting some publicity to your situation may well be the right start for you, but I suggest you leave the Farms out of it. "online friends" at best.

 

[gagabobo1997]

Forgive a desperate spaced out man trying to save his own life for occasionally forgotting forum rules. I'm more or less fully back now and I apologise. I hope the mods will forgive me. You guys are the only friends I have and I don't want to get banned.

It would be irresponsible for them to janny you when the farms are obviously one of the better supports you have right now, I think you'll be fine.
I'm glad you are back to reality now, I think contacting the local radio station as you said is a good idea. Like others have said mentioning a violent alt-right dahxxing forum might not be the best play, but im sure some farmers would be willing to help you out with the publicity in a reasonably non-gayop way.

 

[Cyclonus]

I need more meds soon I can't have another night time attack, another damnation. That's why I can't stop calling them that even up here on the real world, they're that excruciatingly painful. Work on keeping out of rock bottom.

 

[stupid frog]

Forgive a desperate spaced out man trying to save his own life for occasionally forgotting forum rules. I'm more or less fully back now and I apologise. I hope the mods will forgive me. You guys are the only friends I have and I don't want to get banned.

It's not that you "forgot forum rules", it's that you were obviously in a desperate mind state to be posting this level of irl. And we can't do anything through a computer screen. No one wants you banned for this. We want you to get help. That's all.

 

[FuckedOffToff]

This whole fucking healthcare system might have failed me but it helped me in one respect. It gave me a reason to live. Because I am furious about how I was treated with such cold disregard and I am determined to not only get better but also stop being a deathfat and get something close to a normal life. Just to spite the bastards who tried to kill me.

I had the same reaction after an interaction with the UK mental health crisis team. Not going to pl too much, but I was left so disgusted by it, so angered that I switched from actively suicidal to contrarily combative.
Anger can be a useful emotion, if channeled properly, and the radio idea sounds good.
Just a couple of other points:
SSRIs don't agree with everyone, they make me, in particular, hypomanic, which is like low level mania, but that's not in anyway happy, or "up" feeling, it just super charges my anxiety and also gives me a sense of doom.
The other dodgy times when it comes to meds is when I'm switching or I've run out for some reason, antidepressant withdrawal is real and bloody awful, with full blown flare up of depression, anxiety, sense of impending doom, brain zaps (which are quite hard to describe, but like little bolts of electricity in the brain), and desperate confusion.
There could be explanations for why you feel like this, but it's hard to tell.
I've had to stay away from SSRIs, used to take tricyclics, now on SNRI after shortages of the tricyclics I was on.
I'm not a doc, this isn't medical advice, I feel I should stress that. I should also add that you should temper your expectations for the forum, and the support it can provide. We're always here for a chat, but I don't think you should expect Null to get involved, or a PR campaign to evolve out of the thread.
Good luck mate, I feel for you, it's horrible when you brain turns against you.

 

[Moths]

Police finally came gave numbers of carers they'll keep trying eerily uncaring too.

They probably have an edgy twitter user to hunt down

I'm trying to get null saves reverse Chris chan going though to save my life.

This is what id imagine an ai would spit out if I fed it kiwi farms posts

 

[Yeeted Teet]

Complaining to your local TDs and county councillors can be a good way to get your case looked at. They really do follow up with the organisations or talk about it to the media, especially the likes of Sinn Fein and SocDems (whatever your personal feelings about them may be).

 

[Cyclonus]

You could always show up naked screaming about...
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a cat. Worked for that guy.

But seriously I wish there was a way you could be seen and get something to calm you down until you can see a proper doctor.

Actually did that in the hospital as my little protest. They left a man who could barely remember his own name in charge of his own medication, a packet of brintilex I had brought from home. As soon as I remember having them I take one to keep me away from damnation. Immediately forget I take it and take another one. I'm starting to come back so I realise I'm on my way to overdosing and I'm fine with it. They obviously want me dead so I'm going with the least painful option.

Then two words hit me: malicious compliance. I stagger out into the nursing station and say I can't remember if I've already taken my meds so I'm going to keep taking them to be safe.

Reaction was glorious. They desperately wanted to take the pills from me but they couldn't because that was apparently part of my care plan: to have the fucker medicate himself.

Nurse outreached hand close to the box desperately wanting to take it but not able to because of red tape.

"Will you give me those pills?"

"Am I legally entitled to do so?"

"No, but..."

"Then fuck off bitch."

Classic.

 

[Ventrue]

I don't need a lover. I just want a friend.

I got just the song for you. Glad you are feeling better and hope it all works out for you.

 

[Cyclonus]

I got just the song for you. Glad you are feeling better and hope it all works out for you.

Yeah I know about that song. That's how what I'm trying to say comes through when I'm down near the bottom. I wasn't trying to be clever or anything, typing the name of that song was the the only way to say what I meant. I can still communicate my thoughts down near the lower circles of hell, it just comes out weird.

 

[Otterly]

Ok, well glad you made it though the night.
Can you write out the following list and discuss with whatever carers you have?
1. You do need a medication review. Brintillix is a fairly mild antidepressant and you may have more problems than that. So question for medical side of caring:

‘I’m not not taking my medication regulalry and it’s not helping me. Can I get a full evaluation and review?’ is what I’m on right and can I get help to take it every day? (Reminder set on phone?)
Whatever is going on in your brain isn’t being helped by it. Key word MEDICATION REVIEW AND FULL EVALUATION

2. You need help with keeping the flat and yourself clean. Ask the flat management, or crisis team if they know some trusted cleaners who can come in and do a good clean for you including laundry. You can pay privately for this if needed. Go have a shower and brush teeth, that always helps.

3. You need a care plan.

Not for discussion with carers but to think about yourself. How are you getting to feel a bit better. What do you want? Think about how that can be done. Get a list going with four columns on it:
Immediate action - that’s today. Brush your teeth. Have a shower.
Short term. Have you got a laundry machine/detergent? Couple of loads of laundry, clean clothes and sheets. Order some simple but healthy food etc
Mid term. Help with going outside. Start with literally walking to the door, then opening it. Then one step outside, etc.
Long term. Long term your aim is to be able to look after yourself more, improve health, cleaning, able to go outside for short walks and all that.

You don’t need revenge or anything like that. Complain yes, but you’re not well enough right now to do it effectively. Shelve it for when you’re able to manage.

Mental health services are fucked, it’s not malice that saw them not come out, it’s that they are short staffed, often not staffed with good people, the good people they do have are totally overwhelmed. The system is crap.

None of that stuff will help you. What will help you is a medication review, a full mental health evaluation clean of your flat and a better diet.

We can provide a bit of chat but you need IRL help from real life humans to get you back on an even keel

 

[Cyclonus]

Good news, radio guys are on my side. They remembered me and they're going to advocate for me. And when I'm up to it you'd better believe I'm giving them interviews about how disgracefully I was treated. They maybe they'll let me go full force and start advocating for mentally ill people. Because I'm sick of feeling ashamed of something that's not my fault. We need to end the stigma around mental illness.

 

[Yeeted Teet]

Good news, radio guys are on my side. They remembered me and they're going to advocate for me. And when I'm up to it you'd better believe I'm giving them interviews about how disgracefully I was treated. They maybe they'll let me go full force and start advocating for mentally ill people. Because I'm sick of feeling ashamed of something that's not my fault. We need to end the stigma around mental illness.

Is your home care allocated to you by the public health service? If so, and they're unresponsive when you ask to be re-evaluated, make an official Freedom of Information Act request about your case.

This is the surest way to make a government agency hop to it if they're not taking you seriously. There have been cases handled by other departments that dragged on for months, with specific instructions on file to brush the person off and tell them to keep waiting if they called again, that were resolved within 30 days once the FOI request came in. They're legally obliged to respond to it within a set time frame and it's completely separate to the normal complaints process.

 

[The Skeksis Emperor]

I'm glad to hear the radio guys responded and you're feeling a bit better. If you're really angry right now and it keeps you going, embrace it. It's better than sadness and despair and can help you advocate for yourself. Don't worry about still eating fast food, you need to eat and drink and if that's what's feasible so be it. When you are in a better headspace losing weight won't be as hard as it seems now, hell, even Ethan Ralph did it.

Be sure to start contacting your general practitioner or medical services on Monday or whenever they are in, @Otterly's post above is important.

 

[Just A Butt]

Years

That’s not true. You left yesterday to go to the mental hospital and they told you to fuck off.

SSRI's are funny in that they're usually stimulants. Think Adderall. Meaning there's a crash, a depressive episode once it wears off. If you have a smart doctor, you'll have drugs in the night to compensate for that that also won't keep you up. Source: been on meds my whole life.

lol tell us more about your meds

 

[Keith Kunt]

If you decided to fuck with or mock this person instead of wondering how you can help them, you should kill yourself.

 

[Just A Butt]

If you decided to fuck with or mock this person instead of wondering how you can help them, you should kill yourself.

maybe you can save him!