- Joined
- Sep 10, 2015
Not again... Not so soon... UGH. Here are my (hopefully very brief) thoughts on the 35 minute long "Speaking On Some Things That's On My Mind Being Open & Honest About Myself":
Jeez, Kent looks really depressed in this one. He says he's made bad decisions in his life because he doesn't think. Did he get fired for talking to women?!?
Wait. Oh. No. You've got to be kidding me. He's sad because he didn't ask for the trashcan girl's phone number then and there. Unbelievable lol! Never change, Kent. never change.
Kent is sad because he isn't where he wants to be in life. I recall that he once wanted to be a police officer, but I think he's long since given up on that dream. He talks about being bullied as a kid, and wishing he'd stood up for himself. He feels like time is passing him by and alludes to his oft-mentioned flashbacks that prevent him from moving on in life. Kent specifically talks about how he wishes he was more confident, which seems to openly contradict everything he ever says in his Kentfidence series. He seems to be suffering from depression pretty badly today.
Kent believes his problem is that he second-guesses himself a lot and makes a lot of stupid mistakes, and then people want to shame him for failing. People have called him "retarded," "dumb," "stupid," and "uneducated." He asserts that the people who love him hurt him the most, which once again suggests that his home life isn't great. "Maybe that's why I am the way I am. Maybe that's why I say the things that I say." Wow. That's actually profoundly self-aware for Kent. It's definitely at least partially true.
"The thing about me is, I'm not ashamed to tell you guys the problems that I have and the things that I go through, the things that I really struggle with, the things that I have a hard time with... The thing about me is, I have no shame... in my game."
^Would have been a pretty powerful remark if he didn't try to turn it into a meme at the end. This is arguably one of the first truly "real" videos Kent has ever posted, which is surprising for someone who is so boastful about how real he is. It's pretty sad to watch, tbh. Seems like he's really hurting.
When Kent was a senior in high school his math teacher gave him the nickname Ken-try, so there's the origin of that. Kent seems to be fond of that math teacher. Kent really struggled with algebra and geometry but he passed the class because he kept on trying and studied twice as hard as others. He's used "Ken-try mode" to motivate himself. Kent gets frustrated by how forgetful he is, and how he often can't follow a consistent train of thought. He says he is very hard on himself, and sometimes feels like he's all alone in this world.
"I never really had a support system in my personal life, that's why I come to YouTube and I speak what's on my mind and I express myself." -Kent, revealing his origin story
Kent thinks about having a woman in his life a LOT, and he doesn't know why. He thinks it may be because he watches a lot of TV, or maybe it's because of society. "Women, women, women. Women, women, women. Beautiful, gorgeous women. Attractive women, too." He also admits to watching pornography. Kent feels society wants him to be a robot.
He seemingly tacitly admits that many of the things he says in his videos are wrong or bad. Kent wants to travel, and he wants to go back to Seattle. He thinks about it all the time. He also fantasizes about being a professional athlete or a movie star, and how his life would be different if he were one. Kent repeatedly emphasizes how frequently he "thinks," "uses his brain," and "brainstorms."
One day Kent wants to take a vacation or a road-trip on his own. Maybe to a different state, or even a different country. He's trying to get his money right, until then.
This one isn't at all fun to watch, but I actually consider it to be one of his best and most important videos. It's probably the most relatable one he's ever uploaded; he's very light on the crazy here. He just seems like a normal, sad guy. It gives a lot of insight into Kent, his inner life, and his background. It reminds us that Kent truly is a good person at heart... He's just terribly misguided and naive when it comes to social interaction.
Kent: if you're reading this, I hope you are doing okay. I know you think that the people on this website are trolls who don't care about you, but I promise that if you continue to make sincere videos like this one, you will win us all over. Everyone struggles with self-doubt. Everyone sometimes feels like they are alone. I, for one, DO want you to succeed. Stay strong, my dude.
Rating: 9/10, every Kent follower should check this out.
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