Take note comments are disabled, Kent doesn't want the spread of debate this makes me worry.
Update #3.
Kent greets us with his world famous saying of "what's going on everyone out there on youtube, this is Kent coming back at you with another video. It's an update I think it's #3. He wants to tell us what's up. You know I'm not a 49ers fan, I collect hats and I have a 49ers Jersey. I'm just wearing it. I like to. I like to do it. I like to collect hats. Doesn't mean I'm a fan.
Let me get to the point, I can't sleep. I really can't I've been up all night not a lot of hours of sleep still working no problems. Still been able to work. Do what I need to do and get my money, feel me. I can't sleep reason why, ole girl my girl she's going through stuff. She's dealing with personal stuff. You know same time, I try to give her space, and back up off and clear her head. Same time I try to be there for her too. I try to do 50/50 I try to give space and be there. Best I can. All I can do is try.
I don't want to put her personal info out there. Out of respect, there are some other other, I won't give details. I won't say. She's dealing with a lot of depression you know? Mostly, anxiety mostly. I really don't that problem, I have depression. She has that though. she's going through it. She's not working right now, she had to, she's not working. People staring a car outside. She's not working she's got family issues I won't go into details.
I try to be there best I can, it's Thursday. I tried to um, I try to be there for her. You know? I try to, um I want to plan things out I want to do things. What makes me sad and be honest with you all. I really feel sad myself. I'm down because, I don't spend as much time as I used to. I want to spend more time with her. Makes me down and sad and uh when we talking, she told me.
The problems she has and she told me this and admitted, it was, she uh, she didn't want to bring me down. I try to respect her space and be there. I still talk to her I check in, I see how things are going because I care. I care. I still talk to her she's ok. I'm just give her time and clear her head and stuff get on right track. Let's put this way, I'm a loyal person. (needy) A faithful guy. I'm in a relationship I'm faithful. I'm a good person, you know what I mean?
I'm respecting her space, it makes me, it makes me sad what makes me sad and down that, I'm not spending time with her. What I did at first I'm not spending as much time and she agreed to hang out and this weekend I planned this since last we were gonna hang and stuff, I was gonna get pizza and was gonna I was gonna order pizza and have her over here and order pizza and have fun. You know, do some other stuff. Not just be here outdoor stuff you feel me? Together and stuff. I uh, planned them it was the plan she agreed.
It's that you know, I don't spend time like I used to, I want to see her. I try to respect her space, I don't call her and text her and blow up her phone I text her every 3-4 days that's nothing just checking up. Is everything ok? What I do. I really like her and she really likes me. She likes me as well. We hung out and kissed and all that stuff. She's dealing with mental health problems.
Since she's open and honest to me about her problems and I really was thankful. I liked it she was honest. Instead of you know flaking or something. I just try to be there for her, her bday is next week (bassomatic's too!) I will do something, I got her something I have a little present to give her, I wanted to do something nice and show I care. (Bassomatic requests the following, a Masarati, sex, Masarati, sex, and a rifle in 375 H&H) I wanted to show I appreciate her.
I'm not the type of guy to just give up, I'll keep on trying. I'm Kent try that's who I am all I can do in this life is just try just try. I'll keep trying I'll never lose, you feel me? I try too um, do other stuff you see? I upload gaming videos I try to do other things to take my mind off it I play video games I do it to take my mind off it I really do it takes my mind off it. Play my games do other things keep her off my mind, she's on my mind a lot to be honest. think about her all time.
I don't bother her I try to let her heal and stuff like that. You know? It just if I don't do something productive I feel sad. I start to feel sad. Reason I haven't been uploading is other than the gaming stuff. Me doing gaming. Is because I'm depressed that's why I'm depressed, it's lack of me spending time with her. Makes me sad. (Since Kent may still lurk and good advice for all. We've all been there when you like a person life takes first work etc. I'm unsure if I'll see bassomatic bae tomorrow, I can either hedge my entire day on a maybe or have fun and if she's part of it great if not I had fun.) Just me thinking about it's why I play video games to be honest, it really doesn't do good. I try. I just try all I can do is try.
I try to be with her as much as possible. You know? I try to be there for her. You know? I want to do something. For her. For her birthday to show I care, and stuff like that. Pretty much it. You know? I'm fighting my depression as well. I'm fighting. Also it helps, listening to music old school music. Old school music I like, it really has me thinking. (I know I opened up my eye's and I saw the sign) has me thinking that mind set of thinking, you feel me?
That's what it does really does really does. Mind set of thinking really thinking about stuff just focused a focused a thinking mind set. Old school music I like like the 80s or 90s or early 00s. But um, what's going on that's it. I'm been trying to respect her space and seem needy but I check in every 96 or 72 hours. I check in. If she's ok and how things are. She's thinking she, having an episode.
Those who followed me know I had episodes two of them I don't want that to happen to her she's going through what I have past two years leading me to have those episodes back in Feb last year and yea October 2014 my first channel Kent TV had these. She's depressed. she told me some other stuff. She doesn't want anyone to know, I won't share it. I won't tell you everything. It's between me and her.
I just want to spend time with her I want to let her know that I appreciate her. When we talk and face time and stuff, you know more we talk and feelings I have towards her you know? That's how I feel. Pretty much it. I just wanted to make this to update. Lots of people wish me well and I want to say thanks. I mean 95% of people who, been following a long time who support me wish me well. (take note his "real" friends don't give a shit or are mad yet the trolls were on his side)
Rest of 5% are hating, (Jamil) just hating and trolling and assuming they don't know nothing nothing about this. You don't know me personally, or her or know what I do outside YT you don't know. I just want to point that out other than that 95% of people have supported me and I thank you. You wished me well. I thinks things will go well, even though I'm depressed.
I'm not spending time with her like I did at first I think things will go well. Not every relationship is perfect. Has ups and downs. I just am going to let her know I'm here for you. You know? I'm not going to hurt her. I won't how I feel about it I will never hurt her. I'm not like the rest of these jabronies out here, you feel me?
I'm not like other Jabronies who hurt women you know. Just a small present, I want to give her for her bday next week. It bothers me I don't spend time with her a lot of time with her. But, hopefully things will get better and this is temporary, I want to say, this, pray for me man pray for me and her. Let's put it that way. If things go well. Then you prayed, and things go well and things being great, you know then someone prayed be it one person or 100 people. The lord answered your prayers.
I just wanted to give you an update I really care about her I really do y'all. I really really care about her. I want to be with her, I just been playing video games a lot like I used to I am now playing them again. Just another to take mind off. If I upload gaming, that means I'm trying to get it off my mind. Some of these things.
I am down as well honestly down and depressed. Just me not spending time with her her depression my depression makes me sad. I will be there for her, believe that. I'm a loyal person if you watch this and see the whole video for twenty mins you can tell I'm loyal a loyal guy. I never had a girl friend before. You know I'm new to this relationship thing. I'm going to keep trying all you can do keep trying.
Keep trying and trying and keep being there for her I won't give up on her or quit. I'll put it that way, I haven't been sleeping well but hope things are better. If things are better I will do another video and update you guys with what's going on and what's happening again you feel me? Other than that I gotta say in that video. This is Kent signing out. Thanks for watching and things I'm trying to be there for her. Just try. All I can do is try. Kent signing out I'm out.
tl;dr
She's depressed and not in touch
Kent is upset
her bday is next week (as is the fabulous bassomatic's)
Kent got her something to prove he likes her
Video games are his cope (Jamil?)
As always my theories thoughts and musing's. This girl is real but done with Kent OR a train wreck. She might not fully grasp the depth of his autism and nativity (sorry for triggering you cwc) I'd wager she is trying to push Kent away with the it's not a good time angle. Or she's a fucking mess. Either way bad for Kent to stay on.
Now I know I've been on both sides of the it's not you it's not me. Now I've also done the stupidist shit and Kent WILL do it if the case she's a nutter. Stay. Girl tells you there is no happy ending with me, G T F O. Men are wired to be protectors and saviors etc, women have a motherly instinct. Why both sex's fuck up and stay when someone is a wreck.
Good people can have REALLY fucking bad lives. You can't help it. Voices in their head, drug abuse, eating disorders you name it. Some can be controlled others you lose so much of that person to the ailments it's just not worth it.
Kent also mentioned she's not working anymore, thought he demanded a girl who's got her life together? No car, no job... This just shows Kent thinks he's being loyal and he is but at same time, he's taking what he thinks he "got" or can get. Sign of someone with out you know the C word.
I think anyone who's been in unhealthy relationships can get some serious feels as well as it really reminds you of the firsts and all. Girl in middle school held my hand, I remember the plans of the picket fence house we were gonna have.
I worry either situation is going to hurt Kent badly. If she's nuts and he stays his idea of sharing disorders will not lift them just keep them both in dumps all the time. If she has to say LEAVE ME ALONE he's going to be crushed to the point he can't even lie himself out of it to take the blow, not trying to be funny but this could cause another episode.
Kent a man would say, I'm unhappy we have nothing invested, I need more contact you can't give it. Lets go our separate ways have a great life.