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How my night is going
Kent is in his car and introduces himself like normal, he wants to tell us how his night is going and stuff, and tonight I was just feeling down like always I'm always down. And everything and I had to to get out and do something find something to do go somewhere and just treat myself out and went bowling by myself.
It's saturday night, you know so a busy night and uh it's raining out as you can see, it's raining outside, like I was saying on the subject like uh it's um um um, uh. Saturday night, and people are out on a date and on a date you know with their boyfriend or girlfriend, mostly guys are out on a date enjoying themselves having fun and spending time together with her and their girlfriend happy and all that stuff, and things.
Well my Saturday night just chilling trying to stay strong, trying to guess you could say keep my head up. Um, like I said went bowling by myself, it would be good to have a nice nice girl with me but that's how it is that single life. I live that single life my whole life, I went bymyself I wanted to treat myself out treat myself out, hanging by myself.
They have an arcade there, I didn't go just bowling just bowling wanted to treat myself out. Saturday night it's always busy saturday nights. And all that stuff and see and guys with girls and stuff, no one said nothing to me bothered me did nothing, I just wanted to get out treat myself out I thought I'd meet someone but to a degree around a big crowd like that you know? I get shy and and and and it just just hard for me to talk to people and around a big crowd. In a small group I feel a bit more comfortable talking to people, but um um like I said It's Saturday night crowded and all that stuff, and people I wanted to talk to and everything.
But it's hard for me you know because big crowd and all that. Think I'm weird and something that I'm by myself and not with anyone not with a girl or anything, I'm hanging by myself just chilling and stuff, they probably look at me as a loner most people look down on loners, esp women, women do that. Men who are not popular part of the status quo or not in a clique they look down on loners.
I mean, it is what it is, but um, like I wanted to make this video and share that um you know? I'm trying to trying to stay strong as much as I can, but you know when you are someone out there suffering from True Forced Loneliness and suffering from major depression and stuff it's hard to stay strong. I'm still alive and healthy and all these things, and thankful for these things still alive and healthy and thankful I'm staying in my self staying in myself like like I want to say this too.
For if you guys meet me in person if you meet in person I'm very very quiet very quiet. I'm a pretty chill guy pretty chill. If you meet me in person I stay to myself. I mind myself, I just stay out of trouble what I do just what I do. I'm laid back kinda dude, that's just me. People look down on that people look down on chill people who try to live a drama free life. That's just me.
That's just me. It would be good to hang with a nice girl who who who who is not about drama not into drama a drama free relationship. It's kinda hard to find that now a days now in 2017 it's hard to find that now. But I'm hanging in there, all I'm doing, taking things one day at a time, this depression and it's bothering me and the rejected. Me thinking about rejected by people bothers me. I wanted to go bowling to cope. Take mind off things after I got off bowling I thought to my depression again, fell. Once you find something to take mind off.
Once after done doing what you were doing that activity, you think same depressed. That's the sad part about it annoying part of it, and rejection and rejection as for myself and for myself and you do things to take your mind off stuff and all a sudden done and you get done and finished and go back to thinking about about for me myself to think rejection and start feeling sad and depressed and down like always and it's tough.
It's really tough when you are looking for acceptance, and finding acceptance and people reject you it makes you fall into a deeper depression, me having mind set of not giving up and quitting it keeps me going every day not giving up and quitting and all I've been doing all I've been doing. Sitting in my car by myself. I'm going to go home go home and chill and play my playstation playstation 4. All I'll do, but um, thanks for watching you guys uh hope you have a good night enjoy Saturday night, probably sunday now well some of you where some of you are at sunday well it's sat here. I'm closing this out Kent signing out. I gotta get home now peace out.
tl;dw
Kent went bowling
Alone
Women don't like loners
He doesn't like large groups
When he's depressed he feels sad
He does stuff but when he doesn't he's depressed.
Over all a pretty boring video, Kent goes to things alone, we know this but he just sits around hoping people talk to him. It really reminds you how creepy he is because he can't for more than a few seconds cover him wanting a social life is a just him wanting a girl friend.