I imagine he has little to no understanding of gender roles or sexuality and sadly, has to replicate other people's actions in the form of watching movie stars and musicians behaviour and words directed towards women on screen, rather than be able to formulate his own innate and unique feelings.
If so, his lack of individual driven sexuality could make him feel lost, confused and very angry at women in general as women would confuse him. This would be especially important if the most valuable woman in Josh's life, his mother, remains absent from his life and his own father, (who apparently utilises an exaggerated form of masculinity) episodically dresses in women's clothing as artistic self-expression.
Any young boy might feel confused about his sexuality growing up in this environment, especially lacking an older brother to occassionally help guide him through the challenging time of self-discovery during adolescence. Now imagine what it must be like if you have Autism or another similar disability - it could be disastrous.
Building on this, it's a personal tragedy for Josh that on one hand, despite fate stacking all the odds against him, he grew older and was very fortunate to date an alleged nymphomaniac with Asperger's as his first ever girlfriend. But on the other, due to him not knowing at all his role in a relationship (other than a perceived sexual tool) things didn't work out - unsurprisingly.
Yet now, years later, he's still soul searching and has to pretend the Stephanie event never occured and simply ditched the ensuing sex doll era and rewound time to his schooldays but still has no women to befriend 'of age' despite approaching 30.
I really feel he had one chance gifted to him by his much despised Sky God and he won't realistically get another, unless he lets male drinking partners violate him out of loneliness and desperation for human contact. IfJosh did announce he was gay I doubt it would be a genuine event but sadness and desperation talking, primarily from him being emotionally manipulated on Discord that might make him choose this path by supreme trolls, effective puppet masters spending years messing with his head by plying him with money and faux admiration, convincing him he is a true celebrity.
Josh, in my opinion, is far less likely to molest a woman as out the house on camera he is very timid in their presence and certainly non predatory or sleezy. He's probably more likely (when under the influence of spices) to be molested by his male drugged up 'friends' who equally appear to have some strange inability to bond with women yet talk, unconvincingly, as if they are incredibly experienced in the art of seduction by serially breaking up with women they get pregnant.
He's in a catch 22 as he believes without doubt he is a male adonis but women see him as a Mr Bean. How long can this last? For me, it's been 16 years dry spell and housebound for 26 years and counting but I doubt Josh has this level of patience.
My concern is Josh will oneday be influenced into some bizarre and dangerous 'adult event' due to Steve (Lyle Dragon) potentially hooking him up in some crack house where God knows what might happen to Josh. He's clearly easily influenced and psychologically vulnerable and so easy prey for evil people who would want to do unspeakable things to him whilst they are in a protective disreality of changing identity via doning a Furrie costume and imbibing mind altering fumes which could give an assailant feelings of overwhelming power and control over their victim who might literally, stumble into their arms.
Josh is straight but even this isn't a fully formed idea. Nothing in his head is. Everything is half complete even down to how he holds a burger or drinks from a can of pop, these basic skills still haven't been achieved. Think how dangerous this is, having this level of cognitive function as a man, then trying to engage in adult things like relationships or sex. Every single step you'd make would end in failure and then anger towards others because the real hatred is towards yourself.
I feel sorry for Josh often, as if you imagine yourself in his shoes, seeing the world as he does, the world is a very unfair place and impossible to compete in. No wonder he eventually gave up and let 'paypigs' fatten him up on pizzas as he literally has nothing in his life now.
No woman or man he is capable of attracting when dressed as King Cobra could ever understand him intellectually (catch 22) and to be honest, I doubt either would satisfy him sexually or hold his concentration for long as he's in perpetual conflict with himself and constantly searching for the meaning of life but is nearly always drunk by the evening, so forgets what his quest for the day was and retires, obliterated.
I doubt Josh can ever decipher his true feelings for either sex and may never surrender and declare himself asexual - which he might be. With 'King Cobra' masking his core self, how could Josh ever come to terms with the truth that he isn't a knicker elastic snapping bad boy? How would he feel his father might react if he came out? Mom is absent to offer moral support too.
Josh has now ostensibly trapped himself in the self administered lie of the 'King Cobra' which is by nature anti gay, but equally anti straight such is his deleterious effect on women.
The result is being condemned by himself to being a voyeur of his own life and hating being judged by others yet uploading his life daily so he can be judged by others.
His Autism has tragically designed his own jail cell for him, and made him instruct the prison guards never to let him out, whilst he stares longingly at the sunshine outside spilling onto open countryside, declaring out loud each hour he hates freedom and he wishes it would rain.
Essentially, Josh is a contradiction, at all levels, mentally and physically. He is nature's victim and this is why he shouldn't be mercilessly trolled, bullied, poked fun of or judged too harshly by anyone as we could have been Josh. We should all be grateful for small mercies, I know I am and Josh should be too but simply wouldn't understand why.
Josh is way out of his league living semi independently (with help) and could do massively better with appropriate help. Hopefully oneday he will find this help, attain peace and lose the costume and a less intense Stephanie v2.0 may materialise in the form of someone gay straight bisexual or asexual.
What he really needs, like we all do, isn't just sex but a true friend for life.
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