So I spent about 10 pages saying this, and you're only just now coming to this conclusion? I'm roughly 75% to where I want to be. I have been at my acceptable threshold already at my peak. I'm asking why I would care about YOUR opinion if I have the lifestyle I want? That is the question. I could be full on sperger but my value system is based on getting laid and social status, both of which I am average in (maybe even a tiiiiiny bit above the average), so nothing said could ever shake me into feeling below a normal man.
I have been at my ideal place before, it was everything I knew it would be. Those looks faded now because it was mostly thanks to temporary enhancements. I feel like I can push myself even higher, I wasn't at my best, didn't even have a hot body which shows my effort level was not what it should be. Whenever you want to be the very best you can be, you need maximum effort. Nobody achieves their full potential unless they put in full effort.
A year and a half from now I will be on a beach in Zante covered in foam enjoying the life I have earned. This is what matters. There's no point trying to talk for me saying I will feel this way or I will feel that way or I will never be happy. What do you know? The answer is nothing. Because I am text on a screen. I have already gone from depressed on most days and therapy three years ago to happy most days with no meds or therapy.