Kung Pow Cream
kiwifarms.net
- Joined
- Aug 9, 2020
Oh yeah no, I've left the server and am currently distancing myself from him. In my head, I kinda just went "Why am I here? I am getting nothing from this." and left.lol yeah look he's gonna be dead if he's doing that, there's kindof fuckall you can do
start pruning the remaining ties now rather than when someone hands you the "natural causes" obituary
I can't explain what it's like to be in a conversation with him. It's kind of like his brain is a game of Mouse Trap. He gets an idea in his head and proceeds to vomit out the details for a significant amount of time even though we all got the point one comment in. And it's strange because he would post something in the server and then proceed to post in folk's dms as if we weren't going to see it in the server. It's just very strange. I don't know what he's trying to achieve. It's not like I never saw his posts.
I don't know what he thinks I am. I would talk about my life and he would change the subject. I think he genuinely forgot that I'm human. I don't think he recognized that I was the only person who cared about his wellbeing. I was just some faceless internet person.
It's just very strange to see a person you've talked to for nearly a decade seem to forget everything. I've seen him go into tech businesses and twitter and come out as this person who seems to be so terminally online and vapid that he doesn't know how normal people work. It's funny, there was this conversation that I had with him that was quite insane to hear. If he finds out that I posted this, I don't care. He probably forgot all about it and I need to cut my ties to the remaining folks if they do. Internet friends don't matter to me anymore.
Him
but the original point i was trying to make was that yeah. When pursuing a career at a certain point there are periods of your life where you have to make sacrifices to mental health and live under periods of intense stress. It's not good for you long term but it takes you to a place where the grass is greener
Me — 07/30/2022
I see what you mean but that genuinely sounds demented
[3:59 PM]
That sounds like Christian boomer nonsense
[4:00 PM]
Like literally I understand
[4:00 PM]
But that reminds me my church where they say "Yeah life sucks but if you're a good noodle, you go to heaven and then you won't have to suffer anymore"
[4:01 PM]
Eventually you'll be happy if you work hard enough!
[4:01 PM]
Depressing lol
Him — 07/30/2022
it is
[4:01 PM]
but it's the way this country works
Me — 07/30/2022
Ehhhh...
[4:03 PM]
Sounds like bootstrap nonsense
Him — 07/30/2022
but like (and this is going to sound spoiled as fuck) i have a lifestyle i enjoy. I eat at nice restaurants every day, i live in a beautiful home downtown. I have expensive soaps and I drive a nice car. In order to continue that lifestyle I have to make sacrifices.
Me — 07/30/2022
????
[4:03 PM]
God that sounds so weird
[4:04 PM]
Why are you so focused on such things? I grew up moderately wealthy but I don't focus on things like that
[4:05 PM]
Legit, my dad nearly killed himself working and I wouldn't have minded not having a big house and such
Him — 07/30/2022
because it fills in the gaps
Me — 07/30/2022
???
Him — 07/30/2022
like it's comfortable and the little serotonin bursts of nice things make me forget the world is falling apart (edited)
Me — 07/30/2022
You don't need fancy things for that
Him — 07/30/2022
yeah
[4:06 PM]
but nice things help
Me — 07/30/2022
Ehhhhh...
Him — 07/30/2022
to quote one of the great philosophers of our time
[4:07 PM]
YouTube
ArianaGrandeVevo
Ariana Grande - 7 rings (Official Video)
Me — 07/30/2022
It's very weird having someone saying this when my previous generation grew up in the country
Him — 07/30/2022
i've only known the city
Me — 07/30/2022
No it's not areas
[4:08 PM]
It's your style of living and view on life that confuses me
[4:09 PM]
Like literally my mother grew up in a family with five children and they lived in a small house
[4:09 PM]
We didn't desire nice things like you
[4:09 PM]
We just made do with what we had
[4:10 PM]
And we were happy
[4:11 PM]
And I understand nice things are nice but when I see you say all the things you have and I see you being an emotional wreck at times, I'm like "This isn't what happiness is"
[4:11 PM]
You're just... trying to be happy.
[4:12 PM]
Does that make sense?
[4:14 PM]
Like literally I think about what would have happened if my mother went with a poorer guy that actually loved her, I wouldn't have minded that life
[4:15 PM]
It wasn't the trips to Disney World that made me happy
[4:15 PM]
It was the fact that I was with my family that made me happy
[4:16 PM]
Hopefully that makes sense
but the original point i was trying to make was that yeah. When pursuing a career at a certain point there are periods of your life where you have to make sacrifices to mental health and live under periods of intense stress. It's not good for you long term but it takes you to a place where the grass is greener
Me — 07/30/2022
I see what you mean but that genuinely sounds demented
[3:59 PM]
That sounds like Christian boomer nonsense
[4:00 PM]
Like literally I understand
[4:00 PM]
But that reminds me my church where they say "Yeah life sucks but if you're a good noodle, you go to heaven and then you won't have to suffer anymore"
[4:01 PM]
Eventually you'll be happy if you work hard enough!
[4:01 PM]
Depressing lol
Him — 07/30/2022
it is
[4:01 PM]
but it's the way this country works
Me — 07/30/2022
Ehhhh...
[4:03 PM]
Sounds like bootstrap nonsense
Him — 07/30/2022
but like (and this is going to sound spoiled as fuck) i have a lifestyle i enjoy. I eat at nice restaurants every day, i live in a beautiful home downtown. I have expensive soaps and I drive a nice car. In order to continue that lifestyle I have to make sacrifices.
Me — 07/30/2022
????
[4:03 PM]
God that sounds so weird
[4:04 PM]
Why are you so focused on such things? I grew up moderately wealthy but I don't focus on things like that
[4:05 PM]
Legit, my dad nearly killed himself working and I wouldn't have minded not having a big house and such
Him — 07/30/2022
because it fills in the gaps
Me — 07/30/2022
???
Him — 07/30/2022
like it's comfortable and the little serotonin bursts of nice things make me forget the world is falling apart (edited)
Me — 07/30/2022
You don't need fancy things for that
Him — 07/30/2022
yeah
[4:06 PM]
but nice things help
Me — 07/30/2022
Ehhhhh...
Him — 07/30/2022
to quote one of the great philosophers of our time
[4:07 PM]
YouTube
ArianaGrandeVevo
Ariana Grande - 7 rings (Official Video)
Me — 07/30/2022
It's very weird having someone saying this when my previous generation grew up in the country
Him — 07/30/2022
i've only known the city
Me — 07/30/2022
No it's not areas
[4:08 PM]
It's your style of living and view on life that confuses me
[4:09 PM]
Like literally my mother grew up in a family with five children and they lived in a small house
[4:09 PM]
We didn't desire nice things like you
[4:09 PM]
We just made do with what we had
[4:10 PM]
And we were happy
[4:11 PM]
And I understand nice things are nice but when I see you say all the things you have and I see you being an emotional wreck at times, I'm like "This isn't what happiness is"
[4:11 PM]
You're just... trying to be happy.
[4:12 PM]
Does that make sense?
[4:14 PM]
Like literally I think about what would have happened if my mother went with a poorer guy that actually loved her, I wouldn't have minded that life
[4:15 PM]
It wasn't the trips to Disney World that made me happy
[4:15 PM]
It was the fact that I was with my family that made me happy
[4:16 PM]
Hopefully that makes sense
I don't know what to feel when I compare myself being moderately functional, having a good head on my shoulders, poorer than him, yet still happier and feeling more loved than him. Pride? Satisfaction? Worrying for his sake? It's very strange.
What do you feel when you have a bunch of food stored for the upcoming winter and your neighbor has nearly nothing even though you've given him tips and advice and he never took it and now he's going to starve?