"Mad at the Internet" - a/k/a My Psychotherapy Sessions

I should know by now to never add a gain filter to get a video loud enough because I always forget to turn it off. I really hate fucking up on person streams because that's how it gets archived. The June one makes me so angry because I was so lucky to get all my new audio equipment for it, I rigorously tested everything, and then at the last second upped my gain too much.

I'll archive it with a correction but still.
i for one thought it was wonderful that my ears got blown out while i was comparing prices on oat milk.

on archie there's a few things that horrify me about the case. first off the amount of people who felt it was an injustice to not take him to america for experimental treatment. Flight is stressful enough on the body, not to mention a body filled with tubes and medications being used to keep one in a pseudo-stasis. It's sad but there is a point where it's simply too late and the least painful thing to do is let go.

Second, I'm not entirely sure about the hospice requirements for UK (modern ideals of hospice did start there though) but in America he almost certainly would've not qualified just because of his family. One of the earliest requirements is a promise to seek no aggressive treatment. This rule can mean seeking therapies or surgeries, or could even be as simple as going to the hospital to treat something in an emergency. Hospice nurses are supposed to be contacted and it's all supposed to happen in house barring exceptional circumstances. His family seeking treatment aggressively as they have would've made him ineligible for services (at least in America but likely UK as well) and prevented him from receiving the care he actually needs: comfort and quality of life. Staff could've focused on medications to make his end of life more peaceful rather than this horror show.

third, fuck this bitch stealing blood. hearing null talk about the constant blood transfusions just irks me. there's like a constant need for blood and blood parts and the amount that was being siphoned into a corpse because a mother can't say goodbye is absolutely horrifying. there is so many uses of blood. It's essentially necessary in every surgery, accident/emergency, and things like platelets are used with cancer patients during their treatments. There's a chance that people can die from waiting for blood and here is a boy whose brain is rotting receiving it almost daily.
 
What was that ominous-sounding song Null played a snippet of around 46:05 on the stream? It sounds so familiar
 
I join the forum this week and Joshua Connor Null Moon from Kiwi Farms Mad at the Internet dot com throws a curveball and streams on a Thursday instead of a Friday. The miniscule stress caused by this changeup will be cured by the stream proper.

Also I have a really really good idea for a host/viewer activity in his streams. When Josh says "Mad", the chat can say "at the internet". The best part of this idea is how liberating it is as they can either say it actually with their mouths or type it in the youtube chat. This would alleviate minor stresses.

Looking forward to the day early stream. May you all give out a relaxing stress sigh for a good show forward
stress sigh
you sent a super chat at the end for a stress sigh? is that your fetish?
 
you sent a super chat at the end for a stress sigh? is that your fetish?
Fuck I wish.
No Im just here to help thoSe wHo are stressed and are In need of knowing how to properly Tackling it and kneeling on its neck as it overdoses on fentanyl.
I simPly say tO Josh that he can if he wantS but he didn’t need iT. If I covered that topic? Stress sigh every sentence.
 
Discord publishes information to try and scare pedophiles off Discord.*

Hope the stream was enjoyable frens, I got it together on short notice. It'll be up on Odysee in a bit.
not gonna lie, being in an office in England thats predominantly women, I've heard about this non stop. So I almost switched it off at the reveal of the subject matter.

But It was good shit, so cheers for making a depressing topic entertaining.
 
Just barely started the new stream and want to comment before I forget:
Severely stunted physical growth is often a symptom of severe abuse, typically violent and/or sexual abuse. A boy who's age 12 but looks to be about 8 or even younger was likely traumatized in a way that was so devastating that it disrupted his development both physical and psychological. Developmental stunting of this kind is its own rabbit hole into Hell.
 
I should know by now to never add a gain filter to get a video loud enough because I always forget to turn it off. I really hate fucking up on person streams because that's how it gets archived. The June one makes me so angry because I was so lucky to get all my new audio equipment for it, I rigorously tested everything, and then at the last second upped my gain too much.

I'll archive it with a correction but still.
Archive it louder with more gain.
 
I'm glad we got the person stream, but is there still going to be Friday MATI? It's been a big week between the Lockheed Martin troon, the Keffals Discord grooming, and the Chris-Chan grand jury stuff.
 
Archive it louder with more gain.
Imagine owning a bootleg of the "MATI spotlight - Hollie Dance [True & Honest Audio]" before it lost it's soul in post-production.



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I'm glad we got the person stream, but is there still going to be Friday MATI? It's been a big week between the Lockheed Martin troon, the Keffals Discord grooming, and the Chris-Chan grand jury stuff.
No stream this Friday, Josh said he would try to do an extra stream between this one and the next Friday stream.
 
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Honestly, I think this was the best stream yet. It was a rollercoaster of funny and absolutely soul crushing sadness. All expertly and concisely narrated. I think the use of music added that extra gut punch. Keep doing that. Sometimes its better to not say anything at all and let art do the talking. Its worth it just to reread the chat as "Bones in the Ocean" started playing. Those who knew started flipping out early and by the end it was nothing but "f's" and "o7"
 
Just barely started the new stream and want to comment before I forget:
Severely stunted physical growth is often a symptom of severe abuse, typically violent and/or sexual abuse. A boy who's age 12 but looks to be about 8 or even younger was likely traumatized in a way that was so devastating that it disrupted his development both physical and psychological. Developmental stunting of this kind is its own rabbit hole into Hell.
this can go the other way though; keffals looks like he's in his late 30's at best
 
While in the middle of watching Metocaust’s archive of MATI, their channel got terminated. Thought it was an error at first, but I guess that was wishful thinking.
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