You being miserable is nobody's fault but your own. You can screech and whine about socialism and feminism as much as you want, but despite what you're saying none of that stuff is what's responsible for what's wrong in your life. You've spent most of your life obsessing over trivial bullshit like not being able to get a girlfriend that you've let destroy your life. You won't get a job because you think it would mean contributing to the people who keep you alone, you won't interact with most other people because they're all mindless apes who only live to make life harder for you, and you even beat your own mother and father, the people who brought you into the world and took care of you simply because your mom rightfully didn't want to have pity sex with you. And you've made it worse for yourself by choosing to only interact with other emotionally fucked up people who can't get their head out of their ass long enough to actually learn how to deal with people.