Misophonia

[flock of doves]

if it is real, and not part of an underlying problem, then i most likely have it. i'm no medical professional, so i cannot say for sure, but it's a possibility. i cannot stand in a room with anyone chewing gum, especially if they're smacking loudly, the scratching of a pencil on paper when some retard presses too hard on the paper gives me the chills, and the list goes on. i know i sound really edgy when saying this, but i get really fucking angry when these things happen. it's really annoying, possibly having it or some related disorder, because i can barely sit next to my family without wanted to punch them all.

white noise i actually don't like! i sleep to random youtube videos playing in the background, white noise just gets on my nerves.

 

[squish]

I always thought I had misophonia but it could just be straight up :autism: I have an intense inability to tolerate the sound of someone slamming a door shut. Car doors are the worst but any sudden impact sound of a door makes me absolutely chimp out. It used to be to the point of embarrassing debilitation- if I heard a door slam no matter where I was I would burst into tears because it would cause so much anxiety. My heart would race and my body would flash hot and cold. I felt crippled by the fact that I could potentially hear a door slamming anywhere so I avoided going outside to do things just because I didn't want to risk hearing a door. Whenever I was inside I would always wear earplugs to try and avoid hearing doors, and when I started getting scabs in my ears I didn't care. I never worried about damaging my ears because I felt like being deaf would literally be more tolerable than the constant anxiety. I saw a psychiatrist and a therapist about it and it's finally gotten better thanks to a combo of different anti-anxiety meds and exposure therapy (I literally open and close the door in my therapists office to acclimate to the sound lmao and listen to recordings of door slamming). It still gets my hackles up but I don't absolutely lose my shit anymore or daydream about losing my hearing just to feel sane.

I used to think people who couldn't handle chewing were just overly sensitive about something that everyone hates to hear or finds gross, but now that I've experienced what literally feels like losing your mind over a harmless sound I'm more convinced it's a real thing. Even if I don't have it I can empathize. It's a nightmare.

 

[JE 765]

I am not a fan of self-diagnosing, but I know there's certain sounds that have the ability to put me into a nigh-homicidal rage. It's worse when it's around people that I know who are aware that I struggle with particular sounds (excessively loud chewing, slurping, sniffling, coughing, and other sounds) and make no effort to curb themselves. I've been spoken down to, treated like I'm an idiot and told that what I'm feeling is me being histrionic. Certain medications in the past have helped lessen the drastic mood swings associated with me hearing these noises. Noise cancelling headsets have been a godsend.

Side note: I have never been diagnosed with autism, or anything related on that spectrum.

 

[Dirty Mosquito]

I got it myself and it sucks. I can't stand chewing, singing, or humming. Especially if the person sounds like they are trying too hard to sound like they're auditioning for American Idol. It drives me to anger.

 

[Elysian]

I really really can't stand the sound of squeaky marker pens. Cardboard scraping against cardboard is a horrible sound too, but it doesn't hold a candle to the abomination that is squeaky pens.