My overall takeaway from the first segment is that this was clearly designed to get you to sympathize with Narcissa, but it mostly just comes off as pathetic. The filmmaker also used generic female stock sound effects from Narcissa's pov that I cut out, which is pretty hilarious when you compare it to Narcissa's tranny voice
- POV YOU ARE NARCISSA WRIGHT
- This is basically just a compilation of neethog day tier material from the documentary featuring Narcissa
- https://youtu.be/dAZqqXJbMiI
Another Pity segment. Basically amounts to "boo hoo I tried so hard but I could never reach my peak. Fuckin' transphobes faults reeee!"
- Narcissa Wright's Breath of the Wild Journey
- First 3 minutes is "Remember when I was Cosmo?"
- 3:02 - 4:10 begins this animated sequence where he basically outlines his reason for being - to regain his status from when he was Cosmo
- 4:14 - 6:48 Animated sequence detailing how he got into gaming and "wasn't like the other kids". This in particular is pretty creepy because they decide to feminize his childhood appearance to apply that he was "always female on the inside"
- 6:49 - 9:09 Zelda Breath of the Wild saw a resurgence of interest and activity in Narcissa's channel, getting him to about 3k viewers as a peak
- 9:11 - 10:46 Narcissa tries speedrunning again and his goal is to beat the current world record for Breath of the wild while reaching 10k viewers
- 11:28 - 13:29 Narcissa breaks down on stream for being unable to get past an obstacle in a video game. I cut it for time's sake but this is also the stream where a group of people from Mental Health Crisis services rang his doorbell, prompting further spiraling.
- 13:31 - 15:00 This is going to be Null's favorite part. The video segways into how "the Trolls take Narcissa out of context to bully xir". Kiwi Farms cameo. Touches on how Narcissa seeks out negative attention because they are desperate for any attention, but mostly is framed as the fault of the trolls somehow
- 15:00 - 16:25 this part is basically "joke's on them I was acting retarded on purpose". Segways into a funny animated sequence about "the trolls turning me darksided man" juxtaposed with frames from Breath of the Wild gameplay
- 16:33 - 18:20 Narcissa wants to be loved and cared for but also idolized, he can't juggle both for some reason so he sacrifices taking care of himself and being loved in a personal/intimate fashion to try and be idolized.
- 18:24 - 20:02 the world record run, somehow he manages to pull it off and actually beats the time. However he is unable to recapture the interest he had when he was cosmo, failing to reach even 1/10th of his goal.
- 20:02 - 20:38 Narcissa wallows as he remembers what it was like to be Cosmo and have that clout.
- 20:39 - 22:35 Narcissa mental breakdown, scary music!!!! ends with him cutting his hair
- 22:36 - 25:13 Narcissa calls a suicide hotline counselor, whines and blames his problems on the world, then hangs up and cries on stream.
- https://youtu.be/s9A1ex6aVOg
D_gurl is arguably the most interesting thing about this documentary, they have way more of a personality than Narcissa and clearly are the driving force in pursuing their relationship. The documentary tries to paint their relationship as wholesome and healing but in reality it just shows that D_gurl is wasting their time on someone who sees them as second to his goal of being idolized.
- D Gurl X Narcissa Wright
- 0:00 - 1:28 Narcissa describes his relationship with is viewers. We also see the way his core fanbase interacts with him which includes them just sitting in his stream watching him sleep
- 1:29 -2:52 D_gurl, a viewer in Narcissa's chat gets Narcissa's attention more by donating to them. Narcissa follows them back on twitch
- 2:52 - 4:09 D_gurl and Narcissa flirt with each other across streams. D_gurl shit talks soylent
- 4:09 - 5:00 D_gurl presses Narcissa about their relationship status, forces him to vc to hash it out
- 5:00 - 6:16 D_gurl and Narcissa meet up irl at Narcissa's home. D_gurl describes Narcissa's trash living conditions and shit talks soylent more. Narcissa seems to be happy to have someone there for a change.
- 6:17 - 8:11 In spite of this, Narcissa's addiction to attention leads him to ignoring D_gurl for the sake of perfecting his speedruns
- 8:11 - 8:45 D_gurl leaves for home, Narcissa cries because they decided not to ride with them to the airport.
- 8:46 - 10:53 Narcissa basically sidelines the relationship progress with D_gurl because they'd rather be famous with 20k people watching them than to have this intimate relationship
- 10:55 - 12:12 D_gurl calls after Narcissa cuts his hair, and Narcissa agrees to go to California to visit D_Gurl
- 14:19 - 15:15 a little comparison to how these trannys see themselves versus reality, and Narcissa vomiting on his nature hike
- https://youtu.be/zWFA_uuNWBQ
The only stuff I left out was some conversations he had with his mom and what I deemed was excess in the program. The portions with his mom can be summed up as:
- She loves Narcissa a lot, wishes he could just go back to being happy when he was playing video game tournaments and to be more comfortable with is body. The documentary makes it come off as vaguely transphobic but well meaning, Narcissa cares a lot about his mom and sees her as his original support. When the documentary ends it leaves off with Narcissa visiting his parents for the first time in a while.
This is my theory but I think the reason the documentary didn't release was because the way they framed the ending. The film posits that after getting banned for streaming porn Narcissa would be stepping away from their toxic career segwayed by footage of that youtube video Narcissa uploaded with the anime girl and strange voice saying goodbye. I think the glaring reality of what he's been up too since tanked the interest of the filmmaker.