Careercow Narcissa Wright / Cosmo Wright - Former speedrunner tumbling down

Suicide when?

  • When he runs out of money.

    Votes: 2,399 58.4%
  • Never.

    Votes: 825 20.1%
  • >2 years

    Votes: 883 21.5%

  • Total voters
    4,106
Cosmo still has Onlyfans and hell even whoring to make money.

Yes, Cosmo is an ugly motherfucker. But there will still be a market for both of those things. Cosmo just doesnt want to WORK. Both of those things require effort (believe it or not they do, usually in the grooming department or networking)

So what does he do? Streaming. Pop it on and play a game, badly, for simps and losers. Theres a reason DSP still streams. His shtick is just worse and less effective.

Cosmo will take the 500+ he earnt today and be back when he runs out of money that he spent on drugs. Drugs to escape from the squalid situation he put himself in.
I'm not sure Cosmo would ever debase himself to the point of giving his fans something they wanted, be that streams they found entertaining like before he trooned out or porn. He's teased OF, but I can only ever see him taking the meme route. I guess he might do a few stand naked in front of a dingy mirror photos before declaring it a failure because people didn't flock by the thousands to shower him with money. Cosmo is an extremely unlikable and disagreeable person. He refuses to even fake in order to make it. That kind of thing is beneath him.

Cosmo was in the right place at the right time to make a boatload of money, Now he doesn't want to settle for anything less. I'm sure in his mind he slaved and suffered for every nickel. Fuck off. He isn't some pro athlete who started training when they were 8 or 9 years old hoping to make it. Cosmo isn't a even house cleaner who spends 60 hours a week on their hands and knees scrubbing floors. The overwhelming majority of athletes never make it. I'm sure Cosmo thinks of himself as the Tiger Woods or Tom Brady or Lionel Messi of autistic videogaming. He isn't. He was a flash in the pan who couldn't sustain success. The world doesn't owe him fuck all.
 
I’ve always said that Narcissa is kinda in a hell of their own creation, not because of hrt as they still have an audience, but because of their stream style/choice. I think they have always wanted to “succeed” without doing vidya streams but honestly they could do well if they walled off their drama from the public and treated streams as relaxing endeavors or times. Rather than cast your psyche into the stream void, just play games and give loose commentary, go play every zelda-like, maybe you’ll find something you like, maybe you’ll get that spark and speedrun that instead. Learning something new prevents stagnation and encourages growth, the internet and the people on it will never “fix” you, that shit happens internally over time as you give yourself space and time. Take the break but take it seriously, don’t look to escape dour days instead do something passive and truly parse it.
It’s been years of failing to climb the mountain, that doesn’t make it impossible if you truly want it.
 
Honestly though, if they just did streams like this here they played a fucking videogame, they clearly wouldn't be struggling like they are. These absolute insane "stare at the wall for 8 hours" streams are pure nonsensetonium. I can't understand why they don't see that.

I’ve always said that Narcissa is kinda in a hell of their own creation, not because of hrt as they still have an audience, but because of their stream style/choice. I think they have always wanted to “succeed” without doing vidya streams but honestly they could do well if they walled off their drama from the public and treated streams as relaxing endeavors or times. Rather than cast your psyche into the stream void, just play games and give loose commentary, go play every zelda-like, maybe you’ll find something you like, maybe you’ll get that spark and speedrun that instead. Learning something new prevents stagnation and encourages growth, the internet and the people on it will never “fix” you, that shit happens internally over time as you give yourself space and time. Take the break but take it seriously, don’t look to escape dour days instead do something passive and truly parse it.
It’s been years of failing to climb the mountain, that doesn’t make it impossible if you truly want it.

Yeah I agree. All they had to do was not put their insanity on camera. Play for a few hours, if they felt bad, call it quits for the day. And they were never willing to play new things. They put such silly restrictions on themselves. In a way they have the perfect reboot chance now - they admitted they were not mentally well during the BOTW comeback. They admitted Adrian was a mistake. Admitted wishing they didnt do drugs. However they failed to see the transition is also, not because it puts viewers off, but because they clearly are not a girl.

I'd like to think they could return with a fresh view of the world, let their anger go and just chill and play games and by all means chat in a light hearted way. I fear they are too trapped in their own mental hell though.
 
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Frankly, it was never "becoming a girl" that fucked him over. It was the attitude he took along with it. Getting lazy, being a piece of shit that demanded to succeed just for existing. Making petty attacks against people who didn't do anything to him. Doing the burning bridges 100% speedrun. Even trannified, if he kept up his usual shit he'd still be as big as he was before, if not more over time. He ruined what he had and now I guess he's blaming it on this thing.
In a way it sort of is because of that. Because in his mind, "becoming a girl" meant he should have been allowed to behave that way because many women in his sphere (of terminally online spergs) are allowed to be that way and are supported when they do it.

The issue is that incels and autists don't understand why women are allowed to behave that way, so when they troon out out of narcissism they get shocked and confused when nobody gives a shit about them. Women don't get the treatment they do because they have a magic F on their ID card. Women can get away with that behavior because young men want poontang and older men want to have children, and we're biologically wired to respond to the signals the opposite sex puts out for both of those things.

Since troons can't deliver on that they have no leverage. There's no benefit to indulging them in their fantasies, and they're not real women so they don't have the subconscious behaviors that make men act stupid.
 
If there's anything this thread can tell you about Cosmo it's that he's incredibly cyclical and predictable. He fashioned a crazy story about him being a rich "crypto princess" and "socialite" even though it was incredibly obvious (due to the shitty state of his place) that it wasn't true. Cosmo used to like to take baths a lot and this place not having a bathtub really bothered him. In any event, this place will likely slow down for a bit over the next few months until he returns. I'm guessing he will break his lease early (in earlier streams he said he had enough money to pay until the end of the year, which was when his lease was over). He also said that Hwan Tea helped him get the place, so if that means financially, co-signing, I dunno. But never fear; Cosmo will absolutely be back trying to play everything off and be starting some new "project/work" thing that he'll inevitably fail at and disregard. A lot of people on the thread have thought Cosmo dried up many times in the past and was done, only for him to return and prove them wrong. This is just another one of those times where he doesn't want to stream while moving and the initial awkward stages of being back with his parents. Something happened with him and his parents last time, I don't know what it was. But, I can surmise that with his parents living in absolute squalor because of their own drug issues, mental illness and Cosmo's still lingering school debt, him blowing money on shit like a new computer and $200+ video game controllers instead of helping out the household probably didn't sit well with them. So, it'll take some time to get used to being around them again and get comfortable locking himself in a room and streaming.

Paypigs and hoverers, always dependable, will support this guy through anything. We're talking posting juvenille porn links, drugs, threats of mass murder, etc. What I also foresee happening is Jane using this as an opportunity to say that out of respect for Cosmo they've halted work on the documentary. We know they were never going to finish it anyway, but this does give them a perfect excuse.

In any event, while Cosmo is away, feel free to go back and re-read the thread and post commentary on Cosmo as long as it's relevant. I'll certainly still be checking. Hope everyone is well!
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Edit: It seems that, ironically, tomorrow is the 7 year anniversary of the Nintendo World Championships where John FUCKING Numbers destroyed Cosmo. Here's a pic that John uploaded to his twitter with Cosmo looking pretty damn weird even before the transition:
 
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All this talk about how trooning out wasn't "really" a central aspect of how and why this guy went off the deep end is delusional, frankly. Messing with your hormones when you're already losing your shit (mentally-speaking) is a surefire way to end up exactly like he did. It's just a flat-out denial of basic medical reality to insist otherwise.
 
Cosmo if you're reading this: de-transition and then go back to college and get a STEM degree. Stop being a fucking loser. You're like 30.
If we’re trying to give him advice he’ll never listen to, Cosmo really needs to do anything that doesn’t directly involve the internet. Honestly I wouldn’t recommend college, that’s too much for him.

Go volunteer somewhere, find some local people to play nerd shit with, go to the gym, do literally anything to force yourself to reintegrate with society. Most importantly, drop the trans stuff.
 
All this talk about how trooning out wasn't "really" a central aspect of how and why this guy went off the deep end is delusional, frankly. Messing with your hormones when you're already losing your shit (mentally-speaking) is a surefire way to end up exactly like he did. It's just a flat-out denial of basic medical reality to insist otherwise.
I don't think anyone is saying transitioning wasn't a central aspect. What I am saying though is that being a coked out drug fiend was a more central aspect. There are plenty of tubers that ruin their channel by transitioning and end up washed up, and then just go get a normal job, or end up on the dole, or end up being an announcer at AGDQ. I don't think I know of a single other cow on all of kiwifarms who has nearly a YEAR OF VIDEOS, not "they did a years worth of videos 1 a week!" a Y E A R in HOURS worth of videos, of them sitting there doing absolutely fucking nothing, staring at the camera and sobbing. Sorry, but you need harder drugs than estrogen to be numb enough to do that.
 
I don't think anyone is saying transitioning wasn't a central aspect. What I am saying though is that being a coked out drug fiend was a more central aspect. There are plenty of tubers that ruin their channel by transitioning and end up washed up, and then just go get a normal job, or end up on the dole, or end up being an announcer at AGDQ. I don't think I know of a single other cow on all of kiwifarms who has nearly a YEAR OF VIDEOS, not "they did a years worth of videos 1 a week!" a Y E A R in HOURS worth of videos, of them sitting there doing absolutely fucking nothing, staring at the camera and sobbing. Sorry, but you need harder drugs than estrogen to be numb enough to do that.
Being a coked out drug fiend is just always more harmful than all forms of unneeded/overzealous transitioning short of surgery. Hormones are at least intended to be processed by the human body and don't create probably-lethal addictions while taking them.
 
All this talk about how trooning out wasn't "really" a central aspect of how and why this guy went off the deep end is delusional, frankly. Messing with your hormones when you're already losing your shit (mentally-speaking) is a surefire way to end up exactly like he did. It's just a flat-out denial of basic medical reality to insist otherwise.
I think you are taking bits and pieces of comments out of context here. What I see people saying most of the time (and that I echo) is that if you truly fall into the category medically where you should, actual transitioning in of itself, if it had been done the right way, would not have caused any of the negatives. Those being the loss of popularity, the deranged behavior, etc. What a lot of people forget is how Cosmo went about doing this. He went to an "informed consent" clinic to get his initial prescription for HRT meds. For those of you not in the know, this means he did NOT have to undergo any mental evaluations before getting his prescription. What this ALSO means is that the clinic doesn't have a chance to go over any possible side effects with other current medications you are on, and Cosmo is on SEVERAL of that depression med type shit. In his Portland studio a few years ago you always say a bunch of prescription bottles laying an his desk.

Cosmo immediately began taking this HRT along with his many other legal (prescription) and illegal drugs. He'd very often be so high he'd forget if he'd taken a dose of HRT and just pop a bunch on stream. He'd also give advice to teenagers under 18 about how to "safely" mix illegal drugs. After a while Cosmo got tired of having to submit paperwork every year to keep his free government health insurance for poor people valid, so it lapsed. Cosmo then bought black market HRT, which he was mocked for but stood up for himself saying he shouldn't have had to of been bothered to fill out paperwork and that he deserved his free tranny meds. I forget exactly where in the arc he went back to black market ones but I know for the last year or so he's been back to buying them illegally / without a prescription. I have no idea how tranny meds work, maybe after a point you do require a real doctor visit and/or mental health check and he refused, who knows.

Those saying his brain is literal much are correct; the combination and abuse of so many different legal, illegal, black market / prescription / abuse drugs so consistently over the years have been terrible to him. And he doesn't just do it by himself and attempt to hide it like most addicts, he FLAUNTS it while admitting and bragging about being high on stream, REGULARLY. Note to all of Cosmo's paypigs: your money does not go to help him pay rent, it buys him drugs and doordash.

Finally what others have alluded to earlier about the transition piece, if done correctly, wouldn't have mattered is that Cosmo like so many troons is actually (ironically) very misogynistic. His idea of how a 32 year old woman should act is to pretend to prance about, wear tiaras, terrible clothes, try to bare his shoulder all the time, have his hair in super weird pigtails, and obsess over media (games/comics/tv/etc) meant for adolescent children. If he tried to dress like and be an actual 32 year old woman no one would care....he's trooning out trying to be a trans femme cat girl which makes 0 sense and just adds to his delusion. Cosmo feeds off of his paypigs and hoverers believing his delusions until they get too crazy and/or he gets bored, then he just switches the narrative or current project. They're like goldfish so they don't mind.

So yeah sorry for the rambling post but at the end of the day what people are trying to get at is that trooning out is different from legitimately going through a gender transition; Cosmo did the former and its toxicity greatly added to the cumulative negativity he finds his life in now. Had he done the latter no one would have cared, and I think that's the main point.
 
I think you are taking bits and pieces of comments out of context here. What I see people saying most of the time (and that I echo) is that if you truly fall into the category medically where you should, actual transitioning in of itself, if it had been done the right way, would not have caused any of the negatives. Those being the loss of popularity, the deranged behavior, etc. What a lot of people forget is how Cosmo went about doing this. He went to an "informed consent" clinic to get his initial prescription for HRT meds. For those of you not in the know, this means he did NOT have to undergo any mental evaluations before getting his prescription. What this ALSO means is that the clinic doesn't have a chance to go over any possible side effects with other current medications you are on, and Cosmo is on SEVERAL of that depression med type shit. In his Portland studio a few years ago you always say a bunch of prescription bottles laying an his desk.

Cosmo immediately began taking this HRT along with his many other legal (prescription) and illegal drugs. He'd very often be so high he'd forget if he'd taken a dose of HRT and just pop a bunch on stream. He'd also give advice to teenagers under 18 about how to "safely" mix illegal drugs. After a while Cosmo got tired of having to submit paperwork every year to keep his free government health insurance for poor people valid, so it lapsed. Cosmo then bought black market HRT, which he was mocked for but stood up for himself saying he shouldn't have had to of been bothered to fill out paperwork and that he deserved his free tranny meds. I forget exactly where in the arc he went back to black market ones but I know for the last year or so he's been back to buying them illegally / without a prescription. I have no idea how tranny meds work, maybe after a point you do require a real doctor visit and/or mental health check and he refused, who knows.

Those saying his brain is literal much are correct; the combination and abuse of so many different legal, illegal, black market / prescription / abuse drugs so consistently over the years have been terrible to him. And he doesn't just do it by himself and attempt to hide it like most addicts, he FLAUNTS it while admitting and bragging about being high on stream, REGULARLY. Note to all of Cosmo's paypigs: your money does not go to help him pay rent, it buys him drugs and doordash.

Finally what others have alluded to earlier about the transition piece, if done correctly, wouldn't have mattered is that Cosmo like so many troons is actually (ironically) very misogynistic. His idea of how a 32 year old woman should act is to pretend to prance about, wear tiaras, terrible clothes, try to bare his shoulder all the time, have his hair in super weird pigtails, and obsess over media (games/comics/tv/etc) meant for adolescent children. If he tried to dress like and be an actual 32 year old woman no one would care....he's trooning out trying to be a trans femme cat girl which makes 0 sense and just adds to his delusion. Cosmo feeds off of his paypigs and hoverers believing his delusions until they get too crazy and/or he gets bored, then he just switches the narrative or current project. They're like goldfish so they don't mind.

So yeah sorry for the rambling post but at the end of the day what people are trying to get at is that trooning out is different from legitimately going through a gender transition; Cosmo did the former and its toxicity greatly added to the cumulative negativity he finds his life in now. Had he done the latter no one would have cared, and I think that's the main point.
I'm not going to get into the ethics of drinking horse piss and cutting your wiener off because it's both annoying having been discussed so many times in every tranny thread and don't think it's a primary element to Cosmo's fall popularity. Cosmo was going to turn out burned out husk no matter what form off self-destruction he chose. Look at the home he grew up in. Combine that with whatever biological disorders he has, ie autism, and the only chance he had was outside intervention like a teacher or coach getting him into a reasonably normal and functioning environment outside of the home.

Cosmo wearing a dress was a tertiary element to his implosion. It didn't cause the spiral and getting his pigtails prescribed by a doctor wouldn't have prevented it. I'm sure the hormone intake exacerbated things, but his poor mental health and rampant drug abuse were far bigger issue imo. Acting like the gross parody of a cartoon princess and wanting to be called a narcissist were the outlets for what his fucked up brain was already thinking. Discussing the methods of his 'transition' are moot.

My lore file on Cosmo is not particularly deep. I'm not a big vidya guy and watching someone play them autistically is not my idea of fun so, others can correct me if I'm wrong. I know drug abuse started before he trooned out and he was at least using even before his success. Other posters have mentioned that he acted entitled on stream or had clearly been abusing drugs. The success, popularity, money he got during his height were certainly going to fuck him up.

Who was going to ground Cosmo? Certainly not his parents. Did he have any real friends? Was that responsibility supposed to fall to his autistic speedrunning peers? The fans and simps who coalesced around him? Would he have listened to anyone if they tried? Cosmo was a maladapted weirdo who found himself in a situation he was not equipped to handle and it would seem that he told anyone in his support network who could to fuck off if there were any at all. He was going to choose some kind destructive coping mechanism(s). It ended up being trooning because he was already on dope.
 
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