I think that Narcissa is a hardcore emotional masochist that gets her rocks off on being made fun of and abused. I think this video is a pretty good example of that:
https://youtube.com/watch?v=l6s6MHvO0BsSo in that regard you're pretty right. Part of this cycle of deterioration is a result of some twisted pleasure she gets from being treated like shit. If this weren't the case why the fuck would she continuously put up footage of her behaving like an insane person? Why would she stream while high on meth?
I think he's just a narcissist tbh. I think the abuse and shit just feeds his ego, because he justifies it as people giving him attention (even if it's negative). He's addicted to it because it makes him feel important. He'd probably prefer positive attention but since he's a narcissist, he can't take criticism at all and feels the need to defend himself. He wants people to admire him, and anyone who doesn't is (in his mind at least) "evil".
I mean let's just look at the symptoms of NPD rofl. I'll try and think of some examples to list afterward. Some are so obvious they don't even need specifics, but still...
- Expectations of superior treatment?
He expects personal security in exchange for attending events. He expects people to want to upload his consciousness. etc.
- Fixated on fantasies of power, attractiveness, etc?
Well, he did troon out. And he thinks he actually resembles a woman. And he seems to think he's a genius. And... Well, you get the point.
- Self-perception of being unique, superior, and associated with high-status people and institutions?
If anyone has seen him ranting about transhumanism, physics, etc. then you know we can check this one off. Also, once again, troon.
- Needing continual admiration from others?
I don't think this one needs a specific example. Just look at his orbiters...
- Sense of entitlement to special treatment and to obedience from others?
He literally expected some pharmacy worker to pay for his medication once. And when he wouldn't he sperged out to the manager. Seriously.
- Exploitative of others to achieve personal gain?
Anyone remember ZSR?
- Unwilling to empathize with the feelings, wishes, and needs of other people
He actually thinks that anyone who disagrees with him about nearly anything is "evil". I'd argue empathy isn't his best quality.
- Intensely envious of others, and the belief that others are equally envious of them
Just look at some of his speedrunning behavior. This might be the only one I can't think of a specific example of (I'm sure there are many) but I know he's pulled the "you're just jealous" card a fuck-ton.
- Pompous and arrogant demeanor
Lol.