Okay, I'm gonna try again. There's still a bit of powerlevel but tis the nature of this particular beast.
I think one of the worst parts of being a tard who is attracted* to men is knowing that finding me attractive in itself would be a red flag in a man. I'm not ugly**, but it doesn't take a rocket scientist to notice I'm clearly touched in the head. The only men who have ever expressed interest in me have been pedophiles and other varieties of creeps without fail. For one I found a news article where about a year after I cut him off, he had abducted and raped a girl who was near my age at the time. And for a
different guy I even found an old preddit account (of COURSE) who advocates for things like legalizing CP and other heinous and disgusting things, and it's like...
ah. Fantastic. The men who are attracted to me don't view me as an adult woman, they view me as a weak helpless child who should be an easy target to manipulate and abuse.
Even after all this time I can't bring myself to hate men, but they sure love to make it as difficult as possible. Men just
have to be the best at everything, even if that means being the best at being the worst.
* Incredibly rarely. I could count the number of men I've found attractive on one hand. Two hands if I've had enough wine
** Maybe rainbow-worthy but I'm average at best. Unfortunately still have such a baby face and short stature that people stammer and double take when I tell them my age. I'm not a baby I'm just undercooked!