its not just a misunderstanding, we are really curious as to the actual events of that journal. even if it wasn't as bad as It seems, the way you wrote about it is weird and revealing. and thats what people are confused about here.
My sexual fetishes are sadism, with the exceptions of serious injury; foot fetish; and a lot of cheesy romance. There is nothing wrong with that.
Maybe I am in denial. But again, I feel that such a pursuit would fundamentally change me as a person. I do not want to change as a person. I only wish I could learn what about me has been so abusive. And to a degree, I thought I already have.
See, people like you make me just want to leave and denounce this entire site. You're not helping.
Cool! First; I went to Baltimore Comic Con a year ago, Awesome Con in April, and recently Annapolis Comic Con was last Sunday. Second, I don't remember the story you're referencing. Sorry. Third, I really like crabs; not a big fan of Old Bay, but I do love my meat. Forth, I might have, but I mostly just recognize the name of John Waters. Finally, I've never heard of this Sound Garden. I'll Google it NOW! Thanks!
Hi Jay, I've noticed you saying you don't want to change a lot. Why exactly is this? Change is not a bad thing, and a person can change in positive ways. I'm sure you realise that improving your skills or becoming stronger are themselves changes.
Jay said:
goddamn it goldie. if you want to learn, you have to change. please fucking change. you want us to stop making fun of you, but you refuse to better yourself. as a result, we reserve the right to mock you.
OOH HO, yeah I remember that. That was my Lighting school project! Yeah, I found my way out of that fine; although I think Mom might've also helped.
I do want to improve, but I feel that the "changes" proposed would not benefit me positively, except in a way that would align more with the personalities of this forum community. No. I do not want that kind of change.
U do fucking realize that I'm in DN for a fucking reason, you worthless sack of crap?
The fook is DN? And either you're an imposter or you're the zombie of the person I used to love.
No. I was a pinch scared. I don't remember where it was, exactly.
Thank you for responding. Why do you not feel that therapy would benefit you positively, and why do you think anyone here is interested in making you conform? Nobody knows you in real life. Strictly speaking, there are far stranger or more non-conforming people than you who nobody here or elsewhere bothers at all. I don't think anyone here has the intent to recast you as "one of us" so to speak.
Then why does it even seem like I have a problem? Why is it that I am not simply "different" and leave it at that? It feels like we're just going in circles about that. People say they have been trying to explain, and some points are true, but most are just personality disagreements based on who we are as colorful individuals.
Well, you don't have anything better to do than attack me for being different.
He's going for @Cowlick 's title.
Being different from other people is not a problem, the problem actually comes when what makes you different is not being able to get along with other people.
I think the point is that narcissism and excessive ego do not simply "different" but are rather serious personality flaws that must be worked through if you want to become a functional adult, much less a famous and wealthy one. I don't want to regurgitate what you've heard before, but I do want to level with you about this.