Swords have to do somewhat with law, but take that as you will. Do you have your legal stuff with the house sorted out?
I don’t want a hand in your downfall so Ill give you the skinny. The cards say that you’ll be okay, but its going to hurt. Sit with yourself and ask yourself what work the home needs and how you’re going to do it. Are you grieving the loss of your home? Is that a factor that hindering you?
First off, thanks much for the reading, not sure if it will actually help, but it's interesting for sure. There's no legal issues with the house or sale, and I certainly won't grieve selling it - other than the fact that I'm going to lose money doing so. At this point it's just about losing the least amount of money selling it. I mean I'll be fine financially, but it will be the largest loss I've ever had moneywise. Hell it will really be the
only loss I've ever had money wise; I've lived a pretty frugal life, and just when it came time to invest in a forever home, I made a terrible decision (nothing is wrong with the house, it's just the lifestyle and upkeep are not for me), and my family picked that one time in my life to not push back on my decision. So now it's going to cost me $100-250K to get out of it, and that's IF I can get out of it. Or even start to get out of it by putting it on the market. I started doing all the work on it, which is a somewhat inadvisable effort, because, say I put it up for sell and it doesn't sell, or it takes 5 years to sell or something, I have to live here for that period of time, so it might as well be a bit nicer.
But as far as grief goes, no, the only grieving parts are the money I'm going to lose (and that's just an irritation/pride-hit) and the time I have to spend still living here (i.e. not living somewhre where I want to live).
On the career front it's much muddier. I'm not
in love with my current job, but then again I can't really see myself actually loving any job that someone would pay me for. However, my current job is probably the best possible situation for me, hitting 3 of my 5 most important job requirements - I work outside, I change scenery/venue very often, I'm not responsible for anyone else. And the pay is a bit more than I expected, but not as much as I
could make were I to take a job that didn't necessarily hit any of my requirements. I could take a shittier desk job for MUCH more money, which would mitigate the loss I expect to take when my house sells, and would also not be possibly murdering me physically. Or I could keep on semi-enjoying the job I do, which allows me to essentially comfortably tread water financially, but may also be causing me permanent physical damage.
There's supposedly a core change to my job coming in September/October (after the company makes some decisions at a corporate level), so, no matter what, I won't make any decision until then, which lines up I guess. Anyway, it's good to talk about it and I very much appreciate the mystical take on it!
