I partied a bit too hard and too often in college and ended up with HPPD (hallucinogen persisting perceptual disorder) - every so often I'll start at like a cubical wall or something and see vines crawling up it, and I get optical migraines with crazy visuals every so often. I wouldn't say it's interfered with my life all that much, but frankly at your age you probably would've been better off trying to get into a better school or play a sport or learn a language etc. - getting good at things is a lot easier when you're young, whereas any asshole can just get high off cough syrup and stare at a wall for 8 hours.
Well not that i dont have my fair share of experience getting high off cough syrup and staring at walls, its just ive spent an equal if not greater amount of time in meditation- as well as excersizing and diving into new hobbies- alot of people seem to think that just because someone enjoys exploring altered states of conciousness in their downtime means they dont have any other hobbies, which in my experience, is the opposite. Psychonauts like myself generally are more endowed with the creative arts as not only are psychedelics inspiring in the short term, but they also promote the growth of a creatively thinking mindset. I
I enjoy skateboarding, biking, running and yoga alot as far as my physical hobbies, and i enjoy writing, making music, and drawing when im not doing anything else. I often feel as though my day is wasted and incomplete if i havent created anything- and thus ive cultivated a small career as a freelance artist online of which im very happy, and it not only suppliments a job i have in construction, but i have gigs where i perform on the weekends, and right now, im living with my father making and saving money as we plan a move to colorado. Its easy to save money, and i enjoy living with my dad, as between the two of us we almost always have money to support consitent marijuana usage, but we save a fair amount of money each month. I dont pay rent, but we have a very codependent relationship in which its not uncommon for us to borrow money from one another, and rely on the other to pay for certain necesities in the household. Im very happy with my life at this point, and im happy with my drug usage, as i said before, i had problems in the past with addiction, but im past that and only use drugs to make my life better. Those who are closeminded may view this as an excuse, but i feel ive sufficiently explained my stance on substance use, and anyone with that opinion is undoubtably wrong.
I feel very fulfilled in my life, and im only typing this out now for one- because i wnjoy writing, as it helps process information in my own mind, and its creatively stimulating as well as a nice way to spend ones time, i also enjoy when other people type walls of text as my own, and like sharing new perspectives on the world. i hope youve grown to more understand what i was trying to explain in my earlier posts.
Stop taking drugs and go get your high school diploma. It'll "open your mind" way more than psychedelics will, I promise.
I dropped out of high school to persue a music career and im completely satisfied with my decision.